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19 • she/her • active edblur 2024 October⚝

[skinnybutter1]

🎀Introduction🎀

hi yall im an ana/mia girl, she/her and im 19 here to make moots, express myself and whatnot‽ i am nowhere near pro @na nor is my blog. Trigger warning for everyone, if u think my blog might trigger you PLEASE block don't report, thank youu:)

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⋆⭒˚｡⋆ Starting date

Sunday july 14, 2024

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Stats 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔

Height: 5'3

Hw: 76kg/167pounds

Starting weight: 72.4kg/159pounds

Cw: 72.1kg/158pounds

Lw: 66kg/145pounds

Gw1: 66kg/145pounds

Gw2: 63kg/138pounds

Ugw: 57kg/125pounds

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Current BMI 28.0

{Workout session at least 1hr walking} ⊹ ࣪ ˖₊˚⊹⋆

That's it. I'll be posting my food logs and my journey to the ugw.

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[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

bpd is so embarrassing it’s just being 13 forever

[skinnybutter1]

u figured me out

[always-barely-alive]

i know none of this will matter in the long run.

but i know a sound is still a sound around no one.

[th1nneristhewinner]

Me when someone asks me why I have tumblr downloaded in 2024

[pinkgrapebubbles]

s3xu@al assault really makes you feel like you’re only good for sex and sending nudes and that the only way to make things right with someone is letting them use your body huh hahahshhdbxnd

[thoughtcascades]

I always try to confuse people about my life, but I'm confused too.

[skinnybutter1]

finally someone said it.

[featherfairytea]

My fellow annas,

Math is your friend!!! For example, knowing a lb of fat is 3500 cals means that if you "overate" by 500 cals, but you were already in a 1000 cal deficit, you'll just lose weight more slowly and won't gain weight.

Multiplication and division are nice too because, if you have a 400 cal desert but eat it over the course of 4 days, it's only 100 cals a day AND you enjoy it 4 times.

Also if you eat *gasp* 1000-1200 cals a day (ik sooo many) you will lose weight, just not instantly, and it's possible to do this for a really long time without organ failure/hair loss/mood swings/any other bad symptoms you don't want. Even the smallest deficit will add up over time and it'll be easier to transition into maintenance once you reach your gw.

If you do binge, still log the cals. You might find that while your weight went up 3lb, you only went 1000 cals over your bmr, meaning that you gained like 6 OUNCES of fat and the rest is water and bloat.

Also think about time as numbers. Yeah 8 weeks to lose 8kg feels like 4 ever, buttttt it's better than multiple years of binge/strve cycle and no progress (cough cough, ME)

Hope this helps, it breaks my heart to see posts like "I ate 1000 cals today, all my progress is gone 😭" because you deserve to know exactly what your weight is doing and why (also I swear I'm not trying to be preachy about this, I spent my entire teenage years like you all and I'm trying not to also spend my twenties like this too lol)

Stay safe 🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍

[skinnybutter1]

thank you for this, you're literally saving me from my repeating anxious thoughts. Thanksss❤️❤️

[grimnmm]

Bros seeing half smoked cigs on the ground is so sad like that shit's expensive give it to me if you don't want it

[skinnybutter1]

Smoking is very disrespectful for girls where i live, so i gotta do it secretly + buying it is almost impossible sometimes so yes i do somewhat relate to this.

[kissedanangel]

relatable asf….

[skinnybutter1]

🥲🥲🥲🥲

[sunrotdropbrain]

I never eat breakfast

[skinnybutter1]

cuz nah bro i ain't doing allat

[dietcokeefolk]

maturing is realizing that ana is just like a relationship. there’s a honeymoon phase, the phase after the honeymoon where you don’t look forward to st4rving as much and it’s starting to take its toll but you’re in too deep to stop, and the third phase where you see the most results, and everything is so easy from there it’s like second nature. it’s similar to a relationship in that people want to leave when things get hard not knowing that it’ll only get easier after. hope whoever reads this sees it as inspo to not give up and binge <3

[kates0edthoughts]

Noticed how you felt dizzy when you stood up? Noticed how light you felt while walking? Noticed how defined your collarbones looked today? Noticed how good and euphoric you felt today? It’s working. Don’t you love it? Why would you ruin all of this? You will never regret not eating something but you definitely will regret it if you do. So don’t do it. Don’t break your fast. Don’t binge. The cravings will pass.

[grimnmm]

Ppl ask me why I'm depressed and I'm just like do you not see the world? Forget my personal shit like I've been told all my life that I might not make it to 60 cus the world is fucking destroying itself. The economy is shit for everyone but the fucking rich capitalist class. Like do you think that the state of things is making it easy for an already struggling guy to not wanna 3nd it all??

[skinnybutter1]

this. this is what ive been trying to tell people.

[skinnybutter1]

hii sorry for being so inactive, ive been caught up but guess what im just 6 pounds away from being at my ugw!!!! Okay so now im 60kg/132 pounds crazzyyy to think how i lost 16kgs/35 pounds in 3 months, i was 167 pounds/ 76kg, you know when i was at my hw i was so lost in hope, yet i never gave up but i never thought id see this day, even that in this year + this fast. tbh i am proud??? But it feels weird almost surreal. i eat around 500cals now when i first started, i ate less than 150cals almost everyday but i did have my binge days as well. Ppl think js cuz we got 3d we don't binge, in reality we do, we just can't give into that forever though yeaah??

[strv-1-ng]

i think one of the biggest misconceptions about having ana is that we workout 24/7.... like girl i eat 300cal a day, you think i have the energy to hit the gym???????

[skinnybutter1]

Guess Who’s Back❓ Helloo @na/m1a babies(⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ

It’s been a minute, huh? Life got a little crazy, so i took a step back for what was supposed to be a short break… but here we are, over a month later. 😭 ive missed this little corner of the internet and all the chaos and creativity that comes with it. fr

ANYWAY i have some bombs to drop man😛

i now hit my first goal weight, not only THAT but i weigh 1kg/2pounds LESS THAN MY 1ST GW like????????? that was super unexpected af,

in the middle i gained some weight and i hit my heightest weight 76kg/167pounds but now i weigh 65kg/143pounds, my Lowest since last couple years.

AAAA but no i can't be happy or proud yet, i have a long way to go, im just getting started.

Also im not exercising at all bcz im scared it's gonna make me Hungry and I'll lose control again. i eat one meal a day, less than 300cals. So that's a case. Life hit hard and all these happened. i am glad i got kicked in my ass becz now im slowly reaching my full potential.

Oh well...It feels good to be back. Let’s do this. 🦋

[spiralingevryday]

I reach the 24h mark while fasting, and I feel like I can eat anything I want as a "reward".

You can't. Sit your ass down.