skinny waif

my safe space | bmi 16 | 20 years | block dont report please

[memewhore]

[bananahomo]

I reblogged this last month, tagged it, and said “might as well see if it works.” I used this video as a reference to find all the forms that i needed (which is A LOT, especially if you’re a dependent) and sent them through the mail, not really allowing myself to hope.

dude.

$2,714 of medical debt from my top surgery - gone. im shaking this was such a weight on me for 2 years and it fucking worked. what the fuck.

[mindmushpup-deactivated20230126]

Oh to be sleepy and crawl into bed with someone who's warm and safe and you know will take care of you in all the right ways

[coolskeletonmemes]

[neurofish]

when you’ve mastered the art of being quietly mentally ill, especially at a young age, being loud only ever feels wrong

[nonskinnylegend101]

Me thinking my ED will cure all of my problems like:

[fatacidbarbiedoll]

Trying to decide what to eat when you have an eating disorder

[dainty-little-flower]

motivation to fast

bianca booth at we care spa

[skinnywaif]

weight goals

September: 112 lb 16.4 bmi

Sept 15: 107 lb 15.7 bmi

October: 103 lb 15.1 bmi

Oct 15: 99 lb 14.5 bmi

Halloween: 96 14.1 bmi

Thanksgiving: 92 13.5 bmi

Final exams: 89 13.1 bmi

2022: 88 lb 12.9 bmi

[skinnywaif]

places I most need to lose weight...

- face: I have a really nice jawline and cheekbones but certain angles I still look so chubby

- arms: I am disgusted by the way they squash against my sides. I want my elbows to be the widest part of my arms. To wrap one hand around my bicep

- thighs: duh, my hipbones should be the widest part of my body

- knees: bones!!

[skinnywaif]

my house throwing a party tomorro there’s gonna be allots of alcohol but I don’t want to participate. I’ll have 2 glasses but I’m unsure if I can stick to it. I’m scared about how I’ve acted in the past after drinking plus then I’ll be hungrier lose control drink more and plus it’s just a lot of cals. I only would drink to be less nervous so maybe I can find other drugs? Because alc is totally not worth it. I’ll just have fun and avoid it. >.< I hope I can do well. Most of all I’m just not into binge drinking anymore and don’t even want to be drunk. Just a little tipsy at most.

[skinnywaif]

felt like a fairy in this summer dress

[skinnywaif]

just to clarify

my safe foods

- fruit, raw veggies: healthy nutrients, fiber, low cal

- zero cal drinks, tea, coffee: low cal, electrolytes, energy

- planned calories: controlled, calculated

my danger foods

- ice cream, cheese, dairy: nasty artery clogging fattening junk

- meat, eggs: no nutrition, growth hormones, polluted, literal flesh

- grains, beans: low nutrition, just empty calories

- sugar, processed flour: straight to fat, addicting, headache-inducing

[dissasembled]

The number of people having to start over after getting termd these past couple of days has been so fucking depressing. Like so many of the blogs were all about harm reduction and were super pro recovery, wtf is wrong with people. I wish there was a better place we could all go to so we wouldn't have to deal with the constant fear of getting our safe space taken away but there's no good replacement. I'm so fucking angry rn about all of this.

[skinnywaif]

fucking sucks to get termed, try to find my old moots using the screenshots of my account only to find most of my moots had also been termed. FUCKING TUMBLR STOP TERMINATING OUR ACCOUNTS ITS LIKE LOSING A DIARY AND SUPPORT NETWORK