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Little victories on depression
When you’re dealing with depression, something as little as taking a shower can be a Big Deal.
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To the person who sent me a message today and I didn’t respond - I’m sorry, my app hates me and decided to not show me the message or who was sending me… please feel free to send it again!
PSA - I’m moving to khalehla-blah!
Hi friends!!
Just wanted to let everyone know that because I’m going to be super busy going into the last couple of years of my masters, it’s getting too hard trying to manage two blogs (the number of times I’ve automatically posted on one just to delete it and post it on the other is getting ridiculous).
I’ve decided that all future fics for now will be posted on my main account @khalehla-blah, so if you want to keep reading more fics about the German NT (and to a lesser extent, Bayern), please feel free to follow me there.
I’ll still keep this blog open for archive purposes - and I may even take it up in the future - but for now, see you at @khalehla-blah
PSA - I’m moving to khalehla-blah!
Hi friends!!
Just wanted to let everyone know that because I’m going to be super busy going into the last couple of years of my masters, it’s getting too hard trying to manage two blogs (the number of times I’ve automatically posted on one just to delete it and post it on the other is getting ridiculous).
I’ve decided that all future fics for now will be posted on my main account @khalehla-blah, so if you want to keep reading more fics about the German NT (and to a lesser extent, Bayern), please feel free to follow me there.
I’ll still keep this blog open for archive purposes - and I may even take it up in the future - but for now, see you at @khalehla-blah
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@skribblings is also a blog I discovered recently. Lovely stories (I haven’ read much till now tbh, but the ones i read were really good), and through that blog I kinda found Steno? Like, its not something I always want to read but I like the dynamic and the way the owner describes them in the short stories :)
Oh my gosh thank you @wie-sagt-man-noch for the lovely words!
*whispers* the money will go into your account tomorrow like we agreed…
Since you kinda liked the Steno, here’s a little ficlet set during the confed cup - hope you like this one too!
Kevin comes into the change room with scowl on his face, which is so different to his normally cheerful face that Marc-André has to ask, “Is something wrong Kev?”
The other keeper frowns some more. “Someone put glitter in my shower gel, and it’s kinda stuck.”
Kevin holds his hands out, and sure enough, he’s sparkling. Even his face looks like he’s had glitter make up put on him.
“I need to get some of that for my niece,” Bernd murmurs.
Marc throws a towel at the Leverkusen keeper’s head.
“What the fuck, ter Stegen!” Bernd hisses, tugging the towel off his head and flipping it back at Marc.
“That’s not the point, idiot.” Marc scowls, throwing the towel at Bernd’s head again. “Kevin’s asking for help, and you’re not helping!”
“Geez, it was just a comment! What’s got your undies in a twist? I don’t see Kevin complaining, why are you?”
“Kevin’s too polite - and you should be more helpful.”
“Ahhh….” Kevin starts slowly backing away, hands raised defensively. “Look, it’s not a big deal, I’ll just go over and ask Jule, he’ll know… Yeah, that’s a good idea, I’ll ask Jule… see you guys in a bit…”
When Kevin’s run away from them, Bernd turns to Marc. “The hell was that about?”
“You have glitter on your face, too, and he would have noticed; you didn’t want Kev to figure out it was us, did you?”
“It’s so hard to take out,” Bernd complains, “and I’ve tried to wash it off three times already.”
“Just try not to get too close to him during training.” They make their way out on to the pitch for the morning warm up sessions. “Did you manage to steal Jo’s pass?”
“Yeah, and I checked, his luggage is unlocked so you shouldn’t have any trouble.”
“Good. I’ll do it during the break after lunch; just keep him distracted then I’ll give you the pass back.”
“Sure thing,” Bernd nods, handing over Joshua’s room pass.
Marc squeezes Bernd’s wrist momentarily, before they separate, Marc joining Shkodran while Bernd goes to his usual space with Jule Brandt.
[Also, just a psa, I’m going to start writing straight out of my @khalehla-blah account going forward, so if you like the stories, please feel free to follow me there.. thank you!]
PSA - I’m moving to khalehla-blah!
Hi friends!!
Just wanted to let everyone know that because I’m going to be super busy going into the last couple of years of my masters, it’s getting too hard trying to manage two blogs (the number of times I’ve automatically posted on one just to delete it and post it on the other is getting ridiculous).
I’ve decided that all future fics for now will be posted on my main account @khalehla-blah, so if you want to keep reading more fics about the German NT (and to a lesser extent, Bayern), please feel free to follow me there.
I’ll still keep this blog open for archive purposes - and I may even take it up in the future - but for now, see you at @khalehla-blah
Ooh! Maybe Steno with "theres sex in here, in between all the sappy bullshit theres sex in here, trust me" if you're interested?
Get ready for some Steno flooffiness, supportive (*cough*) teammates, and Julian Brandt who is completely done 😬😍😝
“For someone who’s just won an international trophy, you don’t look happy.”
Julian Brandt turns around to scowl at a grinning Jonas and Shkodran. “I’m waiting for the family meeting to be over so we can have a club photo.”
Jonas and Shkodran look to where Julian is pointing, noticing that the three goalkeepers are huddled around their coach like ducklings, while Andy seems to be giving them a speech.
“Just get one later,” Shkodran suggests, “they look busy.”
“Do you know how hard it is to get all of us in the same space at the same time? There’s always something else. It shouldn’t be this hard; there’s only three of us for God’s sake!”
Benjamin bounces over to them like a kangaroo, beer bottle in one hand. “Jule, come on! I thought we were doing this?”
“I’m trying.”
“Bernd looks pretty cosy over with the other keepers; you might have to wait a while,” Shkodran tells him.
Julian rolls his eyes at the way the defender says the word “cosy”. “We’ll wait, it shouldn’t take much longer.”
It’s only a couple more minutes when the little goalkeepers’ huddle eventually finishes, and someone offers to take their photos. Kevin siddles up to their coach, holding the trophy out, and Andy grins, his left hand on the trophy even as he throws his right arm over Kevin’s shoulders. Shrugging, Marc hooks his arm around Bernd’s waist, tugging him a little closer. Bernd leans into the Barcelona keeper, his own arm thrown around Marc’s shoulders as they grin for the camera.
“Aww,” Jonas coos, “that’s so adorable.”
“Kevin did that on purpose, I bet,” Benjamin laughs.
“Andy too,” Shkodran adds. “It’s almost like him and Kevin were thinking the same thing - did you see how fast they moved towards each other? Marc and Bernd didn’t stand a chance.”
Jonas laughs even more. “Andy turning into a match-maker? I bet he’s just high from the win; he’s gonna go back to being done with those two at the next break.”
“I rather like them like this,” Shkodran smiles. “It’s a nice change from the old days of hate sex and bickering.”
“Oh I’m pretty sure there’s gonna be sex involved,” Benjamin says, waving his hand up and down at the keepers who are still standing shoulder-to-shoulder. “In between all that sappy bullshit, there’s sex in there.”
Julian pretends to gag. “Benny, stop it! How many times do I have to tell you? I don’t wanna know. Lah lah lah, I can’t hear you!”
“You should be happy they haven’t snuck off yet,” Shkodran points out. “Which is a miracle considering we’re already missing a few.”
Jonas makes a face. “Ugh, I better tell Yann-Benjamin not to go into any of the physio rooms for now - they’re probably going to be occupied.”
“LAH LAH LAH I CAN’T HEAR YOU!” Julian yells, hands over his ears.
His childish behaviour makes whoever’s left look their way, including all the goalkeepers and the coaches.
“Everything alright?” Jogi asks with a raised eyebrow.
“Everything’s perfect, coach,” Julian replies, blushing.
Jogi just smiles knowingly, eyes crinkling as he meets Andy’s eyes and the goalkeeping coach winks back. Behind them, Thomas Schneider and Miro laugh. Julian blushes some more.
But then Antonio starts another round of die nummer eins and everyone joins in, even the goalkeepers. Bernd finally jumps over to join them, singing loudly and off tune.
“Come on, grumpy!” Benjamin laughs; he and Bernd hook their arms around Julian’s neck and drag the midfielder into the center of the change room. “We have some celebrating to do!”
thank you anon for giving me an excuse to include JuleB in another Steno ficlet (if you haven’t already read it, here’s another one with the poor guy), because we all know he’s slowly becoming quite numb to those two dorks
[and yes, both Kevin and Marc-André posted this on Instagram]
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For @eruditemonk because you’re a horrible horrible enabler but our boy Mitch deserves some love, right?
There’s a loud thunk as Niklas’ back hits the door much too hard, and he and Davie stare at each other, fear cutting through the alcohol and endorphin induced high. They freeze for a minute, waiting for someone to come in and see what the noise is all about, and when no-one comes, Niklas drags Davie away from the door, then he fists his hand into the neck of Davie’s shirt and yanks him forward.
The kiss is sloppy, all teeth and tongue and noses mashing up against each other, but it’s also hot and perfect.
“Fuck I thought we were going to have to wait until we got back to the hotel,” Davie pants when they finally break for air.
“Are you kidding me?” Niklas asks, looking at his slightly taller teammate like he’s daft. “We’re going to end up celebrating the whole night if Max has anything to say about this - when did you think we were going to have time? When we’re too tired and wasted already to do anything?”
“Fair,” Davie concedes, leaning forward so that they’re kissing again. It’s just as sloppy as the earlier one, but now there are hands everywhere - Davie’s hands clawing into his back and Niklas own hands shoving down the back of his teammate’s pants. He cups Davie’s ass cheeks in his palms and tugs him forward so that they can grind into each other. Niklas is just about to reach around to the drawstrings of his own pants so that they can take this further, when the door handle jiggles open and Mitchell Weiser casually walks in, saying, “Hey Davie you there? You don’t happen to know where Nik is...”
Mitchell’s voice trails off when he finally realises that not only does Davie know exactly where Niklas is, Niklas happens to be right there, pinned up against the wall. Mitchell gapes at them. “Oh!”
“Close the fucking door!” Niklas hisses, pulling his hands out of the back of Davie’s pants.
The defender shuts his mouth with a snap then quickly but quietly closes the door. For a moment they’re just all standing there, Mitchell gaping at them and he and Davie wondering how the hell to explain all this. When the awkward silence goes on for too long, Niklas sighs inward, resigning himself to the fact that he wasn’t getting any tonight, and he makes to push Davie away from him, but the forward just pins him gently in place. Niklas pushes back at Davie again, but the forward shakes his head, eyes never leaving Mitch who’s still rooted in place by the door.
“Mitch,” Davie says in a low voice, “are you going to get your ass here and join us? Coz if you’re not, we’d appreciate it if you left us alone for a bit.”
Niklas inhales sharply and looks between Mitchell - who’s eyes seemed to have widened even more if that were possible - and Davie who’s own eyes are pinning the defender down like a butterfly to a board.
Niklas’ stomach clenches in sudden desire. He and Davie’d talked about this, how Mitchell seemed to be quite responsive - and even an enthusiastic instigator - of the good natured flirting that happened in tournaments. How sometimes they could feel their teammate’s eyes linger just a little too long when one of them would walk past. How Max had rather blatantly informed them one day that he thought Mitch had the hots for one or possibly both of them.
Had it been anyone else who’d brought it up, Niklas would have dismissed it, but it was Max, and if anyone could pick up on these things, it was the flirtatious and hyper-sexual Schalker. They’d talked about it afterwards, what they would do if the opportunity ever rose to invite Mitchell into their games, but then they’d dismissed the idea because Mitchell seemed to be quite friendly with everybody.
But now...
Davie turns his torso but presses into him at the same time, pressing their groins into each other again. Niklas drops his head back against the wall, letting an obscene moan leave his mouth. It’s overdone and mildly exhibitionist, but it gets the reaction that Niklas was almost expecting: Mitchell gasping in response.
Davie turns back to him so that they can make out again as though their teammate isn’t even there. When they break apart, Davie grins triumphantly at him, and Niklas almost laughs in delight. Instead, he tips his head to the side so that he can look Mitchell straight in the eye. “You’ve got ten seconds to decide, Weiser. You can leave or get over here; either way, we’re starting without you.”
Niklas has his hands shoved into the back of Davie’s pants again and his mouth lathing Davie’s throat when he feels tentative fingers brush against his, moving around to climb up in under Davie’s shirt. Niklas grins, nipping lightly onto Davie’s neck.
They were winners tonight in more ways that one, that’s for sure...
For @meggiesobsessions, who asked for Neuller - so here’s an airport meet-cute trope for you 😊
trigger warnings: mild homophobic language and use of homophobic slurs
Any other time, Thomas would be appreciating being in the same space as one of the most beautiful people he’s ever seen in his life, but right now, he’s just too damn sleepy, tired and hungry. They’d been stuck in the airport for hours and it looked like he was never going to get on a plane in time to make it home for Philipp’s birthday celebrations. Seriously? It snowed in Germany every fucking year; how is it that the airports still managed to shut down over unseasonably early snow?
He’s seriously thinking about seeing if he could afford access to one of the business class lounges just so he could wait somewhere more comfortable than the hard floor of the terminal corridors, but Thomas is too scared that if they do call for passengers for the next flights, he’s not going to be around to put his hand up. The only good thing that’s come out of this whole thing so far is the eye candy that’s the gorgeous blond sitting two metres away from him slumped against the post, charging his phone. Despite the bad posture, Thomas can’t help but notice the breadth of the guy’s shoulders, how well the clothes fit over his (obviously well-built) frame, the brightness of his blue-grey eyes that Thomas could even see from here, and the faint shadow of the beard that was evidence that the guy has probably been stuck at the airport just as long as Thomas has been.
Thomas wasn’t normally the type of guy who blatantly checked people out in public, but he’s exhausted, so he doesn’t realise he’s doing it until he hears someone mutter “fucking fag” near him. At first, Thomas isn’t even sure that it’s addressed at him, but as soon as he looks up and sees a guy giving him a disgusted sneer then look at the Gorgeous Blond and back at him, Thomas knows. All of his tiredness melts away in a second and he is livid.
“Excuse me?” he asks in a mild tone. He doesn’t want to attract too much attention, but no way was he going to let some homophobic douchbag get away with this. “Were you talking to me?”
The other guy just sneers at him some more, then turns his back and walks off towards the far side of their terminal area. Thomas breathes deeply, trying to keep his temper under control and not go after the asshole and punch him in the face. That would just get him kicked out of the airport and possibly be arrested so that he’d miss Philipp’s birthday for real, and yeah no - that bigoted jerkwad wasn’t going to make him in trouble with his friend.
Sighing, Thomas takes out his phone and sees if he can watch some YouTube clips of baby sloths or something to make him feel better, when he sees that he’s got 27% battery left. Shit. Luckily for him, he has his charger in his backpack and all he needs is to find a free wall socket. Unluckily for him, the only free one is next to Gorgeous Blond. Double shit. Well, there’s nothing he can do about it, so Thomas grabs his bag and shuffles over.
Gorgeous Blond frowns up at him when Thomas stops next to him
“Do you mind if I use that?” he asks, nodding at the power point.
Gorgeous Blond goes pink for some reason, and mumbles “sorry, sorry, of course, sorry” while he snatches his bag up to make room.
Thomas hesitates for a second, then dumps his bag on the floor and plugs his phone in. Out of the corner of his eye, he can sense Gorgeous Blond hunching in on himself and it reminds Thomas of Steve Rogers awkwardly handling his body as though he was still the scrawny kid before he got the serum and not the all-American beefcake that was Captain America. It’s strange to see someone so physically attractive be so shy in his own skin, and it makes something almost protective come out in Thomas.
“How long do you think they’ll keep us here before they finally decide to switch our flight from ‘delayed’ to ‘cancelled’?” Thomas asks in his most casual tone.
Gorgeous Blond gives him a startled look, then says, “I don’t know, but probably soon; it’s been hours.”
Thomas sighs. “I knew I should have sprung for lounge access. I just want a nice soft couch to sit on and endless coffee. This is gonna be hell.”
“Why didn’t you? Spring for lounge access, I mean?” Gorgeous Blond asks him curiously. “We’re probably gonna be stuck here overnight and it’s not gonna be comfortable.”
“I need to get on the flight or I’m going to miss my friend’s birthday,” Thomas explains, hiding his surprise that the other man is actually talking to him. “If I miss it because I’m too far away to hear the announcement, he’s never going to forgive me. I hate snow.” He sighs again, the tiredness coming back full force. “How about you? You going back home to Munich or visiting?”
“Visiting,” Gorgeous Blond replies. “Well, not for pleasure. Not really.”
Thomas can’t help but smirk in amusement. “You’re visiting Munich for pain, then?”
Gorgeous Blond blushes. “No, not that; I meant for business, not pleasure. A job interview actually, so not really fun, you know?”
Thomas laughs. “Sorry I’m just teasing; but you have to admit, that came out pretty funny.”
“It did,” Gorgeous Blond agrees, still blushing. “Sorry, I’m not very intelligent right now. I’ve been up since five and I’m exhausted. If I could afford access to the business class lounge I’d be tempted as well, but I’ve already paid for a hotel tonight I’m probably not going to sleep in and I don’t want to spend anymore money if I don’t have to.”
“I know what you mean,” Thomas nods in sympathy. “Comfy lounges and endless coffee can be so tempting sometimes.”
“Yeah…” Gorgeous Blond agrees with a sigh.
Thomas makes a snap decision then, thinking fuck it, what did he have to lose? If he was going to be stuck in the airport for another few hours, there were worse people to be stuck with than a seriously hot but endearingly shy guy. “We may not be able to afford endless coffee, but I could use at least one right now. Wanna go grab one?”
Gorgeous Blond looks at him in surprise. “Aren’t you charging your phone?”
“They have charging bays in the food court, too.”
“Oh! Right!” Thomas was seriously starting to find Gorgeous Blond’s blushing adorable. “Yes, that’s a great idea. My butt’s starting to get numb from sitting on this floor any- Whoops. Sorry. Overshare.”
“Nah, it’s all good,” Thomas grins, unplugging his phone and putting the charger back in his bag. “I’m Thomas, by the way.”
“Manuel,” Gorgeous Blond replies, “but you can call me Manu. Only my mom calls me Manuel, and only when I’m in trouble.”
“Well then Manu, let’s see if we can get the biggest cheap coffee we can find while we wait for our flight to not get called up.”
Manuel gives him a shy smile. “Lead the way.”
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Never too late to apologise
For @dieemmice who asked for Steno, so here you go: Steno flooffy-attack! 😂😂 bwahahaha
Of all the things Marc-André expected to see when he walked in the door, Bernd nearly setting his kitchen on fire wasn’t one of them. Okay, so he arrived a couple of hours before he was meant to, but it’s still a surprise to see Bernd in a blue frilly apron, oven mitt in one hand and tongs holding up (what looks like) an overcooked turkey in the other.
“I’m pretty sure that’s not how you deep fry a turkey,” Marc says loudly, trying to be heard over the fire alarm going BEEP BEEP BEEP.
Bernd blinks at him, then yells, “It’s a chicken actually, just, well, jumbo size.”
Marc is about to say something else, but then decides the beeping is way too annoying for this type of conversation; he goes up on tiptoe, fidgets with the alarm cover and pulls out the batteries. Much better. “I can see that. Question is, what are you trying to do with it?”
“Cook, obviously,” Bernd huffs. He turns his back on Marc so that he can drop the charred chicken into his bin, then opens the windows wide to let all the smoke out. “What are you doing here? You said you were coming for dinner.”
“Well it’s a good thing I came early,” Marc smirks, “at least we can order in instead. That is, if you want to eat tonight.”
Bernd huffs some more, mumbling “yeah, yeah, laugh all you want Mr. Masterchef” as he starts cleaning up his kitchen.
Marc just laughs, then opens the drawer that he knows has all the take-away menus in the area.
Two weeks later, Marc is heading out to the pool area of the hotel where all his international teammates are gathered, watching the volley ball game. Bernd is playing, and Marc scowls at his counterpart. Bernd had been acting weird this break, and Marc wasn’t happy about it. He’d never thought he would be annoyed at the fact that Bernd wasn’t insulting him every other day, but here they are, with the Leverkusen keeper acting all polite and shit and Marc didn’t like it. So he squints at Bernd as he spikes the ball over the net and thinks about a way to corner Bernd later so that they can talk.
Marc doesn’t realise anyone else has joined him until a towel slaps him lightly on the head. Marc looks up to see Julian Brandt scowling at him. “The hell?”
“Ugh, stop that!” the young midfielder says.
“Stop what?”
“Staring.”
“I’m not staring,” Marc protests.
Julian gives him a look, then lays his towel out next to him. “Please, if you stared any harder, Bernd would melt. I’d say take a picture, but that’s just creepy.”
Marc tries hard not to blush, but he can feel his face heat up. “Not staring,” he mumbles again half-heartedly.
Julian gives him another look. “Honestly, I used to get ulcers during break worrying about one or both of you doing something stupid enough to get kicked off the team, now I get tooth decay from how disgustingly sweet you are. When did you turn into such saps? You’re nearly as bad as Marco and Mario.”
Wow, that was so not true; nobody even came close as those two. “You’re exaggerating,” Marc says.
“No I’m not. Dude, I was with Bernd when your text came a couple of weeks back - don’t pretend you weren’t meeting up for some romantic date or whatever the fuck he was rushing home for.”
Marc blinks at the memory. “It wasn’t like that.” He wouldn’t mind if that really was the reason why he was over, but it wasn’t. Marc did drop by for dinner, but he went back to his parents’ house pretty much as soon as the movie they’d put on was over.
“Whatever,” Julian says, rolling his eyes. “Bernd just had to leave straight away and get ingredients for this really complicated four hour dinner that he was going to cook just so you guys could, you know, hang out. That didn’t scream ‘important date plans’ at all.”
Marc is too busy remembering that night to come up with a response. He can see in his mind’s eye Bernd being frazzled about the burnt (giant) chicken, and how the other keeper had shoved everything in the fridge as soon as Marc had mentioned just getting take out, a hurt expression on his face. At the time Marc thought that Bernd was annoyed at him about all the teasing and thought that he was overreacting, but maybe there was something else. Oh. Oh.
Maybe Julian was right about the whole special dinner plans thing. That would explain a lot; both how distant Bernd had been that whole night and how the Leverkusen keeper seemed to be avoiding him this break. Well, shit. Marc was going to have to do some major damage control, and he honestly had no idea what to do in the last three days that they still had.
He’s thinking hard about a way he can say “sorry for being an insensitive idiot” without actually saying the words “I’m sorry”, when Julian slaps him lightly on the back of his head. “Jule! The fuck?!”
Julian just rolls his eyes again. “What did I say about not staring and not being a sap? Honestly.”
Marc just scowls at the midfielder, then picks up his phone, typing in “how to apologise without apologising” into his search engine. He had some work to do.
[Extra scene]
It had taken Bernd a whole hour to finally convince Joshua that he wasn’t needed to make their spontaneous pool tournament competitive. It’s not that Bernd didn’t like playing, but he really was tired and wanted to get an early night. He’s thinking about whether he has enough energy to watch a couple of the new episodes of his favourite show, so he doesn’t notice straight away that his room isn’t empty. Marc-André is standing next to the study table, casually scrolling through his phone.
“How did you get in?” Bernd blurts out in surprise. He’d been avoiding the other keeper nearly all break, so he has no idea why Marc is here.
“Jo stole your spare key card for me,” Marc says, nodding at the door where the extra key card was already in place. The Bayern defender must have taken it this morning when he’d come to pick Bernd up for breakfast; and him knowing what Marc was up to was probably the reason why Joshua had kept Bernd downstairs all this time.
That still didn’t explain what Marc was doing here, though. “Why?” Bernd asks, confused.
Marc waves his hand over the table. “How else was I suppose to get all this stuff up here without you finding out?”
Bernd steps closer to see a selection of bite-sized gourmet deli foods and fruit set out on so many plates. “What’s this for? We’ve already had dinner.”
“I know,” Marc nods, handing him a bottle of light beer. “But we’ve all been working hard and I thought it would be a nice treat.”
Bernd stares at him. “I don’t believe you. What’s this really about?”
Marc has the grace to blush lightly. “So um, maybe I wanted to apologise….”
What? Really? There’s no way he heard that right. “You’re apologising? For?”
“Well. Um. Being a dick, I guess.”
“You’re always a dick,” Bernd points, because it was actually true. “So what was it that’s so bad that made you think you had to apologise for it?”
“I’m not always a dick,” Marc protests.
“You didn’t answer my question.”
Surprisingly, Marc blushes some more. “For being um, insensitive, the other night.”
Bernd blinks. “What?”
“When you cooked. Well, tried to. But nearly burnt your apartment down instead. I was being insensitive.”
O. Kay. Well, that definitely wasn’t what Bernd was expecting. “You’re apologising for making fun of my cooking?”
“To be fair, you didn’t actually cook, since you, you know, burnt the chicken.” Bernd glares. “But yes, I’m apologising for that.”
Bernd is speechless; he honestly can’t believe Marc is actually - rather belatedly, but hey, better late than never - sorry for that. Marc hadn’t known how much effort Bernd had gone into that dinner, but there must have been something in his face that made the Barcelona keeper notice just how hurt Bernd had been that Marc was making fun of his failed attempt. Bernd’s a little embarrassed that Marc noticed, but if he’s being honest, Bernd’s also relieved to know that Marc actually cared, even just a little.
He still doesn’t know how to react to this, though. Bernd doesn’t know how to say “apology accepted” without making things even more awkward than they already are, and he hopes Marc just gets it.
“You’re not going to food poison me are you?” Bernd asks, because they’d always been shit at talking about feelings and being caring and he’d rather they just move on to the familiarity of bickering.
Marc grins. “If I was going to do that, I wouldn’t have let Jo in on tonight’s plans - he would have run straight to Jogi if you got sick.”
“Damn straight,” Bernd mutters, finally moving enough so that their shoulders are brushing. Its the closest they’ve been this break when they’re not training and Bernd is surprised at how much of a relief it is to be near again. He’s not going to tell Marc that, though. “How the hell did you manage to get your hands on all this stuff? Did you bribe one of the puppies to go out and get the food?”
Marc smirks at him and hands him a plate so they can start eating. “I have my ways.”
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(I bet this isn’t what you imagined when you sent me the prompt but I hope you enjoy it anyway!)
Kevin doesn’t know whether he wants to punch Manuel or kiss him. Probably both, because he kinda does look ridiculous standing on the picnic bench and waving his arms around.
“And never, ever, let anyone tell you can’t or shouldn’t do it! Don’t let the low expectations of other people limit your successes!” Manuel is saying. “You can do it, Kevin - I believe in you!”
Kevin stares at the goalkeeper like he’s grown another head. “You’re taking this a little bit too seriously.”
“If you mean taking my boyfriend duties seriously, then yes I am,” Manuel nods, jumping down from the bench. “You can do this. No matter what Marco says, there’s no way his chipmunk boyfriend can out-eat you.”
Kevin’s eyes widen and he hits Manuel on the shoulder. “Manu, oh my god. That chipmunk is our friend and he has a name; don’t be rude.”
“I still don’t think there’s any way in hell Mario can eat twelve cheeseburgers faster than you,” Manuel shrugs. “We gotta prove them wrong.”
“We?” Kevin asks with a lift of his eyebrows. “I thought it was just me versus Mario.”
“You know what I mean; we’re in this together, remember? A team. You and me against the world, babe - or in this case, against Marco and Mario.”
Kevin can’t help it, he melts just a little. Manuel could be so sweet sometimes. And his speeches weren’t bad either; maybe being captain also gave him better public speaking skills.
“I’ll try my best,” he promises.
Kevin wins, but only barely. He manages to swallow down the last cheeseburger as Mario reaches for his number twelve, and he raises both fists in the air as the rest of their friends let out a cheer.
“YEAH!” Manuel screams, wrapping his arms around Kevin’s waist and spinning.
“Manu stop!” Kevin gasps. “If I throw up, we’re gonna lose; put me down!”
“Sorry, sorry,” Manuel mumbles, gently letting go but leaning in for a congratulatory kiss. “I knew you could do it.”
“It’s not over yet,” Mats reminds them. “Remember, no throwing up or going to the toilet for at least two hours.”
“No problem!” Manuel says, “Kevin’s got this.”
Except with half an hour to go, Kevin is starting to feel his stomach reject all those cheeseburgers. “Manu,” he whispers desperately, “I think I’m going to throw up.”
Manuel gives him a concerned look, then moves so that he is sitting behind Kevin and pulls Kevin flush up against his back. “I’m here, just another thirty minutes. You can hold it, right?”
“I don’t know,” Kevin admits softly, “I really feel like throwing up right now.”
Manuel hums. “It’s okay. I don’t want you to get sick over this. If you need to throw up, just let me know and we’ll let the little chipmunk win.”
“Manu,” Kevin groans again. “What did I tell you about calling Mario a chipmunk?”
Manuel just chuckles.
Kevin doesn’t know how, but he manages to keep the cheeseburgers down, and goes home with the somewhat dubious reward of three one-kilo chocolate bars.
“I’m so proud of you,” Manuel murmurs into Kevin’s hair when they finally get to bed that night.
“You’re such a dick,” Kevin murmurs back. “Next time, you get to do the food challenge.”
“Next time, just ignore Mario and say no,” Manuel chuckles.
“Says the guy who cheered the loudest when I won.”
“Just being a supportive boyfriend, you know.”
“I hate you,” Kevin mutters, elbowing Manuel in the stomach. There are some days when being the little spoon is awesome.
But Manuel just tightens his arms. “I love you, too.”
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For @delilah229 who asked for some Hömmels - enjoy!
“We’re going to regret this,” Benedikt predicts.
Mats shoulder bumps him. “When did you become so negative?”
“I’m not being negative, I’m just stating the facts.”
“You need to live a little.”
Benedikt rolls his eyes. “I am living - but I’m not going to be doing much of that if I fall off that thing and drown.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll rescue you,” Mats grins.
Benedikt sighs, then drops his towel and bag onto the grass, watching as Mats heads towards the deserted pool and starts pulling one of the giant floaties towards him so that he can climb into it. Benedikt can’t help but giggle. Not just because Mats is struggling to get into his floatie, but because Mats is struggling to get into his giant swan floatie. That happens to be bright pink. He’d never in his life imagine it, but Mats wrestling with a giant, bright pink, plastic swan floatie is one of the more adorable things he has ever seen.
“Are you alright there?” Benedikt calls out when Mats falls out of the floatie the third time.
“I’m good, I’m good!” Mats calls back.
Mats takes a deep breath, brushes his wet hair away from his face, then wraps his arms around the neck of the swan. He then throws one leg onto the body of the floatie and just freezes. Benedikt giggles some more; Mats looks like he’s awkwardly side-humping the pink swan and it’s fucking hilarious.
Mats takes another breath, then kinda jumps so that he lands tummy down onto the swan with both legs straddling the sides of the floatie. It’s inelegant and ungraceful but Mats looks so proud of himself that Benedikt laughs and laughs.
Mats grins at him. “Are you going to join me or what?”
“Nah I’m good; I’m just gonna sit here and read.”
“Boring!”
Benedikt just shrugs, then sits and takes out his paperback. After a couple of pages, Mats calls his name. Benedikt looks up to see that Mats has somehow - without falling out of the floatie again - managed to turn so that he is on his back, one arm looped around the swan’s neck and his head hanging almost upside down from the side of the floatie.
“Bene, paint me like one of your French girls,”
“You dork!” Benedikt laughs, “I said read, not paint.”
Mats just grins even more broadly. “Come on, babe, bring your book if you want. This is awesome.”
Benedikt thinks for a moment, then slowly stands. Mats had gone to a lot of trouble to set up their free time and he really was grateful that they were alone for once rather than babysitting their tribe of adopted children spending time with all their other teammates. So he takes his book and wades into the pool, slowly making his way to the side and grabbing another of the giant swans. He hands his book to Mats and tries - it’s a lot harder than it looks! - to jump on without falling off too many times.
“Come closer,” Mats says when Benedikt is finally lying on his back safe in the middle of the floatie.
Benedikt pauses a minute just to enjoy how beautiful the day is and how quiet it is without the rest of the team there; he is suddenly overwhelmed with gratitude and love for the other man for making this happen. Benedikt tips his head to the side.
“Mats,” he calls out in a breathy voice, “paint me like one of your French girls.”
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They’re not exactly friends, but they understand each other better than anyone else. Sometimes, that’s enough.
Bernd and Marc-André have an unexpected heart-to-heart
Preview:
“Oh fuck off, ter Stegen,” Bernd hisses, turning his back on his rival. “Do me a favour and go be a heartless dick somewhere else.” “I’m not being heartless,” Marc objects. “I’m being realistic.”
“Well then go be realistic somewhere else. I don’t need your sanctimonious bullshit right now.”
“Don’t be naive,” Marc snaps again. “You know I’m right and you’re just overreacting.”
“I’m right about you being a heartless dick,” Bernd spits back at the other keeper, genuinely getting angry now. “I thought we were supposed to all grown up and shit - but you’re enjoying giving me grief over this, aren’t you?”
“Fuck’s sake Leno, can you stop assuming that I’m trying to make you feel worse and just listen?” Marc demands. “I’m trying to help!”
“You haven’t said anything helpful!” Bernd counters.
“That’s because you’re not listening, you daft idiot!” Marc repeats, voice also rising. “So shut up for a moment and pay attention to what I’m actually saying, because I swear I’m not gonna repeat myself if you’re too thick to get it.”
Bernd crosses his arms and sneers at the other keeper. “Go on, then.”
Marc-André takes an exaggerated breath, and to Bernd’s surprise, hands over the tub of ice-cream. Bernd frowns at him.
“I get it, okay?” the Barcelona keeper says, voice gentle and low. “I get what it’s like to fuck up in front of everyone then have to apologise for it. I get what it’s like to feel like everyone else gets a free pass on a bad day but you make one mistake and the whole world feels the need to remind you over and over again as if you didn’t already know. I get what it’s like to listen to everyone tell you “and that’s the reason why you’re not Manuel Neuer” after all those fuck ups.”
Inspired by a prompt request and a lovely piece of art by @meggiesobsessions (originally posted here)
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Set during the preparations leading up to, and including, the Confederations Cup, here’s some Krametzka angst.
A little fictlet based on the above photo, and @delilah229‘s gorgeous fic, Keeper, Save Thyself.
When the inevitable teasing from his friends come, Christoph ignores it. Or tries to, anyway. Because he knows how football is, how emotional it can get, and the pictures don’t bother him. Not really.
Christoph trusts Leon; they’re best friends as well as lovers, and they’ve been through too much for Christoph to jump to conclusions now. All those pictures that Leon’s been posting with Jule Brandt? Of them playing together, celebrating together, training together and spending their free time together? They’re nothing but photos. So what if they’d gotten much closer in the past few weeks leading up to the tournament? Tournaments were just like that - and he knew that from personally experiencing Brazil.
So no, he’s not going to read anything into the closeness so clear between the two midfielders. He’s going to ignore all the elbow nudging and concerned looks from friends. He’s going to pretend that his boy wasn’t being uncharacteristically handsy with other teammates. He’s not going to feel hurt every time it took a while for Leon to return his calls or texts, because tournaments were just like that.
So when Leon finally, finally answers his call after the first win, Christoph swallows down his irritation when the second thing he hears after Leon’s “hey” is a familiar voice calling out “Leon, come on! Let’s go.”
Christoph closes his eyes for second, stamping down the irrational jealousy against his former club mate. “Congratulations,” he says in greeting, “you played well.”
“Thanks,” Leon laughs, “but coach wasn’t too happy. Said we got complacent at times; which is true I guess.”
“First game nerves,” Christoph points out wisely. “At least you won.”
“True, but-,”
Whatever it is Leon is going to say is cut off by Jule Brandt once again calling “come on Leon!” and Christoph grits his teeth in irritation. Couldn’t Jule see that Leon was on the phone?
To make matters worse, rather than Leon pointing out that he’s busy, he replies instead, “yeah yeah, give me second, okay?”
Christoph clenches his fist, because was Leon really going to cut off their first conversation in days to spend even more time with Jule?
“Chris, sorry I gotta go,” Leon says, not even sounding remotely apologetic. “The boys are waiting for me. Gotta go celebrate our first win, you know.”
Christoph does know, so he swallows the annoyance and tries to inject some support in his voice when he says “sure, go have fun.”
“Thanks babe, talk to you later.”
Christoph stares at his phone for a few lonely minutes, letting the hurt in his chest ebb out in its own time, silently chanting he loves you, you trust him, you’re all good over and over in an effort to convince himself that there was nothing to worry about. It takes a while, but it eventually works, and Christoph can finally release the tension in his body. They’d been here before, but in the reverse situation, when it had been Christoph in Brazil and Leon at home, trying not to worry and give in to the jealousy. So he was going to trust, because what he and Leon had was worth it. It always was.
I think Marc-André ter Stegen is a very good goalkeeper. He won the Champions League with Barça and we’ve known each other for quite a few years now.
Bernd Leno (via meggiesobsessions)
@meggiesobsessions, here you go - I hope you like it!
… Bernd Leno regrets all his life choices as soon as he walks into his room and he sees Marc-André standing there looking exceptionally smug.
“Don’t,” Bernd warns him.
Typically, the other keeper ignores him. “You think I’m a very good goalkeeper.”
“It was an interview - what was I supposed to say? That you walk like a duck and have two left feet?”
“You think I’m a very good goalkeeper.”
Bernd sighs, then falls backwards onto his bed, covering his eyes with his hands. “Shut up, ter Stegen. Which part of "it was an interview” don’t you get?“
Marc sits on the bed then starts poking him on the side. "You think I’m a very good goalkeeper.”
Bernd throws a pillow at Marc’s head, but the other keeper just grins at him, fangs showing.
“You think I’m a very good goalkeeper.”
Bernd groans, taking the other the pillow and placing it over his face. God, he was never going to hear the end of it.
“You think I’m a very good goalkeeper.”
Bernd was never doing another interview again.
When things are going really really, unbelievable well, Bernd sometimes forgets that Marc-André can be the most stubborn little shit ever.
The day had been good, but very challenging. And even though he’d really enjoyed all the high adrenalin activities,he was glad to be back in the cabin so they could get some rest. Marc’s suggestion of a hot bath was brilliant, actually, and he was really looking forward to it.
Except when he finally gets there, Marc is standing in the bathroom, glaring at the tub.
“What’s going on?”
Marc points at the tub, looking seriously offended. “That. Is not a bathtub.”
“Uh, yes it is.”
“For Nik and Lex, maybe. But that is not big enough for both of us.”
“Well then I’ll just take a shower if you really want to take a bath.”
“No. We, are going to take a bath. Together.”
Bernd rolls his eyes. “You just pointed out we won’t fit.”
“We will. Somehow.”
“Seriously?”
“Yes. We paid lots of money for a cabin with a tub and dammit we’re gonna use it!”
“Marc, we’re millionaires. Unless you’ve somehow managed to spend all our money in the last couple of days since I logged into the bank, I’m sure we can afford it.”
Instead of answering, Marc just glares at the tub some more, then pointedly turns the taps on.
Bernd sighs, then goes to the kitchen to grab a couple of bottles of beer while they waited for the tub to fill. Honestly. Most stubborn shit, ever.