A man going his own way

Hi! My name is José Luis and I was born in 1990 AD/CE. Follow me on Instagram and Twitter : skytlan1519 . 🇲🇽🇺🇸 An aspiring folk artist. Roman Catholic. A Red Pilled realist/modern antifeminist, on Nofap, & a man going his own way.

[skytlan1519]

Dear Natalia Malaver I understand that you don't want to see me again because I hurt you by saying that I hate seeing you discreetly. I was actually hurt. Hurt because i will never be with you and you were Johan's girlfriend. At first I didn't take your rejection seriously on March 4th 2019 and then on March 7th I felt heartbreak. The pain that made me felt useless because you were actually the first girl I confess and I thought you probably needed to know that I like you so much. I felt I need to say this because it was something I needed to do.( made me realize that I shouldn't say I like you so much to you) As the months went by , I keep falling you while you were with Johan until September 7th and I saw you. You kissing Johan while I was inside the dairy backstock through the plastic curtains. I felt even worst because I also told another girl if she wants to go out with me at that day and of course she rejected me The last straw was at Christmas Eve when I was heading to the subway and I saw you and Johan together. I saw how you were looking at Johan. With love and you were happy. At that point I decided to hate you and hate myself even more. I don't regret giving you a heart shaped box of chocolates on February 17th 2019 but I do regret hurting you prior that next year. I should've look at all the signs that you didn't felt the same way as I. But no. I kept feeding this fantasy that you probably will feel the way as me. I shouldn't gave you those chocolates. I did apologize indirectly to you that you heard that I hate seeing you by saying someone was saying shit about you. Until now that was so stupid to say that to you. I remember the last time I saw you at Whole Foods Market , you were scanning the shelves of the International aisle , my cardboards fell off my cart , and you help me put my cardboards back to my cart. Strangely enough you didn't maintain eye contact with me as say thank you for helping me. I never thought it was the last time I saw you before the covid 19 hit hard here in New York. Yes, I know you're in North Carolina, taking care of a relative during covid 19( Tom told me) and I hope you're doing ok. I want to say I'm sorry for hurting you. You're always in my mind every moment at Whole Foods Market and I want to forget about you. I'm typing this letter to say that I'm ready to move forward. I hope you'll understand importance and impact you had in my late 20's. I wish you happiness with whatever man you married with and hopefully you don't hate me for the things I had done to you. Sincerely José Luis Garcia #personal #confession #heartbreak #covid #twoyearsago #love #movingon

[skytlan1519]

11/17/2018 - 11/17/2025

It's been 7 years since I met you and I still have you in my heart. I remember that day perfectly. I remember how beautiful you were. How you made feel. How you smile at me everytime you saw me for the next two years. Funny enough is how i misunderstood that. How I felt in that delusional bubble that I loved you and I made myself confess to you in that March fourth of that year.

And yes you did broke my heart on that day and I cried on the next 3 days when I felt those feelings tumbling in. But what broken me more is you fallen in love with other guy and that guy cheated on you. What's worst is you went back to him.

I know it's 5 years too late to say this since the last time I saw you but I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I say that I hated you. I said that because I need to take you out my heart. I need to stop loving you. I need to kill this unrequited love. Your name. Your full name keeps bouncing around for last 5 years. I keep telling myself why i still have feelings for you? Why having your pictures and seeing your pictures at night comforts me before going to sleep? Then I realized last night when I looked at your picture I don't love you like the way I loved you 7 years ago.

I hope you're happy. You changed me. I'm not that 28 year old boy anymore. You change the way how I see love. Thank you. I don't regret meeting you and loving you. At the end of the day women are hypergamous by nature. Flawed and less than ideal.

[skytlan1519]

What's the name of your first love, and why did you fall in love with them?

Her name was Natalia. She had this beautiful eyes and a beautiful smile that can bright up your day. Her beautiful forehead and oh yes her hairline. Unfortunately she was my first heartbreak. At first I thought love was more or less like a Disney fantasy but she's the one who made me take off those rose-colored glasses.

[skytlan1519]

bro I saw your tweet, you are sad as fuck. "i can't believe i'm saying this" then shut the fuck up and don't say it. Jesus dude. stay in your lane.

Oh I'm on my lane. It's you that should stay in yours.

[skytlan1519]

José Luis Garcia on Instagram: "#heartbroken #heartbreak #manosphere #redpilled #redpill #relationships #mgtow #disney #disneyland #disneyw

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[skytlan1519]

What does it take?

What does it take to see her again? What does it take to see her blue eyes? What does it take to see her curly hair? What does it take to see her beautiful smile?

My soul maybe? Then again I will never see her.

[skytlan1519]

Today is my birthday. I hope you guys are okay. #happybirthday #personal (at Mofongo Tipico) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cc_xIU4L8_dLp2LN-BFAyg3h4TtUFzHA2VlaYc0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[skytlan1519]

Today it's special day today. Well, not because I got my heart broken three year ago (yeah... it is lol). Anyways I been trying my best to forget Natalia and it's working I guess. I confess that I became an antifeminist because of her. I took the red pill because of her. I did nofap because of her and for myself. So yeah, I'm opening my heart for the moment and wishing you guys a great day! #heartbroken #love #nofap #antifeminist #antifeminism #redpill (at Whole Foods Market) https://www.instagram.com/p/CatCWTHr7q9/?utm_medium=tumblr

[skytlan1519]

#unsentproject #love #heartbreak I have face the reality of my life as much as this messages. Life is filled with joys and misery, so don't take the negativity and focus on it. Live. Just live your life. (at Mofongo Tipico) https://www.instagram.com/p/CasOxwKF32TpmdoL76TN_Hp7wCKm-qWnaR1iAI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[skytlan1519]

"I would've love you for infinity Didn't know you'll live forever in my memories I would've promise you forever And now I'm forever on my own" I don't regret meeting you. I don't regret giving the exact box of chocolates like one in the photo. I don't regret having feelings for you. But I do regret hurting you and making you cry. And now I can't celebrate St. Valentines without reminding me myself what I gave you and Julia for that day. Fuck love. #love #🥰 #💔 #❤ #heartbroken #stvalentinesday #fucklove (at Mofongo El Mocano NYC) https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ8vOiMualvZJjy2h-FZn2T1tDAXt5iuOhC8UI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[skytlan1519]

I wish that you knew I'm not the same since that day That day since you last saw me I wish that you knew You were the first one to break me And the last one I'll ever confess Now I'm lying on my bed Thinking of you and only you Will I like and love someone else Only time will tell me I wish that you knew You were the first one to break me And the last one I'll ever confess #love #heartbreak #fall #autumn #thebronx #nyc #unrequitedlove #unionsquare #❤ #💔 #chineserestaurant (at Mofongo El Mocano NYC) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWZjpsxLboY/?utm_medium=tumblr

[hamburgernotsohelpful]

What the fuck is the dragon radar, doing on we bare bears?!

[skytlan1519]

❤❤❤❤❤ Pt 2

There’s something about her that makes me smile. There’s something about her that makes me laugh. There’s something about her that makes me cry. I don’t what it is but she could be ……. no , she is the one. I love her too much.

[skytlan1519]

Dear Julia I know there's going to be a time that I'm willing to give up my feelings for you. Yet l know that if I do, I won't lay my eyes on another girl. You actually made me happy during our conversations. I know sufficient about you and you know enough about me and yet I feel we're not closer in our relationship that could lead us to be lovers. The funny thing is I don't want to be friends with you because I actually like you alot and you see me as friend. And I actually don't want to simp for you or any girl for that matter. Between you and I, I rather us stay as coworkers. Because it won't hurt for me not to get attached to you in a romantic way. Besides your grandparents wants you to stay with them in California, or you want to be a teacher on wheels ( which i think it's a fantastic idea). From the bottom of my heart I wish you the best. Because you deserve the best and you're the best thing that happened to me. I want you to know that I like you. I like you so much. I like you so much that I'm ready to let you go. Sincerely Jose Luis Garcia #loveletter #personal #confession #love #heartbreak #❤ #💔 (at Mofongo El Mocano NYC) https://www.instagram.com/p/CU9OkpDLjiH/?utm_medium=tumblr

[cherie-galore]

There and back again https://www.instagram.com/p/BvC2IJ0F-DwLcAtGMfXCC5InvnpHFPALLmnbGY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13z83kz65j69

[skytlan1519]

Sometimes I wish I was holding her hand

Without the fear she’s going to let go someday.

If she does then either we didn’t love each other enough

Or we didn’t put our efforts in this relationship

Hopefully it doesn’t happen because I love her.

I love her to the point I’ll risk my being for her life.

But at the end of day she’s my everything

And it’s how I imagine if I was marrying to my future beautiful wife.

As I’m laying down in bed while knowing that

I’m just a twenty seven year old Mexican American male who live in New York City

[bushidoist-deactivated20210508]

What’s your excuse? “Just one more time, and then I’ll stop from tomorrow.” “I won’t look at porn, I’ll just look at pics of girls in bikinis.” “I’ll just jerk it because it feels good, but I won’t cum.” “I’m sex-chatting with other girls, so this doesn’t count as porn.” They used to be mine. You probably have already lived the majority of your youth intermittently releasing your manhood into a bunch of tissues. Ask yourself, were those 15 minutes self-stimulation - and those 15 seconds of release - really worth it? For fucks sake, you might have spent literally the entire night jerking off to porn and then endure the next day at work or school unrested. I know I have. What about this: is there a girl waiting for you to take her right now, but you’ve been “too busy” to do it, yet not too busy to be jerking off to other guys cumming on girls’ faces? The next time you jerk it, take a moment to imagine looking at yourself from over your shoulder. Imagine you’re not even yourself, but someone else. What do you see? A lonely guy with no sex life, stimulating himself, as he watches other men having sex with one, two, three or four beautiful women. Doesn’t that look like a pathetic sight to behold? Do you believe that this is your highest potential in life? Newsflash: You are about to die. Does someone who spends copious amounts of time watching other men fuck hot girls and then waste his manhood into a bunch of cleanex look like how you want to spend your precious youth life? Or do you want to have beautiful girls in your life… Experience financial success, adventure, compassion, love… A purpose. Trust me when I say it: You have all the potential in the world. You can be a Spartan. You can be Alexander. Perhaps, like almost all young men in today’s generation, you’ve had no role model. No instruction. Our fathers were too absent to tell us “this is how you become a man… This is how you treat a woman. This is how you have sexual prowess.” Well, I’m instructing you now: GET YOUR HAND OFF YOUR DICK, SHUT THAT PORN DOWN AND GO DO 100 PUSH UPS, SQUATS AND SIT UPS. NOW. Then take a cold shower… Done? Feeling pumped? Feeling good? Good. Now, go to a quiet spot somewhere… Close your eyes… And ask yourself… “Who do I want to be?” The answer will come.