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28 of April, 2023

Trying to kill a mosquito that wandered into my room. Also trying not to miss the passionate way someone used to kiss me.

Do you ever miss that feeling of connection? That one person who understood your needs. Supported your dreams and messaged you consistently.

There it goes again. The buzzing of this freaking mosquito. On my left ear. It did bite me the first day, buts it's day 3 now.

Idk if it bit me yesterday.

I keep offering a leg out to tempt it so I can squash it finally, but it's not taking the bait.

Kind of makes me feel like myself. Buzzing around that one person's blog.

SHIT!! I WAS SO CLOSE TO SQUASHING IT JUST NOW!

It was buzzing around right there close to my leg. But I was impatient, not waiting for it to land on my bait/leg. It managed to escape unfortunately.

Not sure entirely what I want from that person. So I guess I'm still buzzing around.

I do know I am desperately craving a make-out session. The cuddles. The extra stuff. It's driving me up a wall how much I miss that.

Ngl, I think I scared the mosquito after trying to squash it.

I dont think I'll keep you posted on if I kill it.

Maybe I will.

18 of April 2023

I'm sleeping.

I'm dreaming.

The feeling is receding.

Lies filing my head. The voices of words unsaid.

Unsaid. On mute. My brain says keep it hidden. Tight lips and fake smiles. Fake laughter at the insults.

Cry alone deep into the depths of the night. Quiet cries. Silent screams. Sobs that reached no ears but pulsed the head, jaw wide open with teeth beared.

I'm dreaming.

Sleeping quiet.

Must stop breathing.

21 of november 2021

its now 10:53 pm

my style is lagging at best

i havent had much rest in a long while. i sleep only a little bit.

today i reached out and was rejected once more. its okay tho. thats what he wants to do.

so im crying and at one point i stopped. i froze. it turned to anger. i yelled so loud the neighbors could hear. that is...if any sound came out. im just dead tho.

being dead is such a glitch itself.

i can function but at what capacity and anything can crumple if i really try.

silence...thats all i have now.....it can be maddening

it is so lonely with silence....am i supposed to hear something....am i supposed to change....

i made a tumblr for him.....

he told me id be a good writer....

honestly, fuck u A. i already know im a good writer. fucking, always get a’s on my papers. ur first initial is A but u be getting c’s. fucking would read your shit all the time. so many errors....like bruh. get a proofreader. idk. fucking try at least. but whatever.

see....theres that anger.....guess its close to me moving on huh.......well i technically am moved on. the whole dead thing is pretty much where it ends.

gosh....i dated such an idiot......wtf am i crying for......over someone who has every intention of hurting me.

this feels good.....

but i dont want to feel anything much honestly. feelings....thats what got me in this situation. i should have walked away from him. i have such good intuition......i ignored it...what a dumbass i am.....

anyways.....im sleeping soon....maybe.....i might not.....ill just listen to the silence i think...or find some white noise....

#alone #kinda depressing #crying #anger

I can't sleep....

It is 12:57am on 23 of October, 2021.. ....

When will it end.....

I miss me.

Me used to be alive.

Me now is just dead..

It would be better if I was dead....

I have to drown myself in white noise and graphics to not think about what happened...

I could write a book with all of my ideas.

So many things I could be doing.

But im uncertain now.

Which just makes me certain that....no one will want me. Or to be with me. Or will understand me.

Me used to be daring..

Dear me, let's sleep forever now please. I'm tired. And you're gone. I have felt it for a long time now.

Me, I don't want to wake up anymore. In this empty shell.

Please, let's never wake up again.

#never wake up #dear me

dankmemeuniversity

sleepinginmemes

Basically all my friends.... im going to create a bumble to find someone to share my rick and morty love ❤

I wish it worked like in the fictional stories. I wish it happened where over time they realized I was the one.

where love blossoms and they slowly understand one another and become happy. i just cant with this

3 major heartbreaks from the same person. not to mention all the small ones.

im so sad. i ate surprisingly. but it feels like nothing has taste, or significance.

his ability to just go off. kick me out.

im obsessing over this. everyone says hes awful to me. im awful to him too im sure. i know it went both ways. but gosh darn it......i really thought i meant something to him. i thought this would be different

10/13/2021 @9:01 pm

im so tired. all my energy to cry...all my emotions are dry...

i wanted to be his. i tried to do all the small things to make him come back.

but honestly, i probably pushed him away plenty of times too.

im so upset, at him but mostly myself. i told him to cut me loose withouth explanation. and he did it so quickly. im so mad at me from the past.....why would u tell him that? i need an explanation. i need closure......im so mad at me.

i want to do something. im so angry. im so sad. i hate it. i hate this. I hate this.

I Hate This. I HATE THIS

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10/13/2021 @8:56pm

There are so many other things I should be crying over.

But my broken heart seems to be the only thing I can handle at the moment.

I'm such an awful being.

I want him.

I want him so badly.

10/12/2021 @ 9:49 pm