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I’m sorry, I’m sorry that I always try to push what I want and I never think about your situation.

Please don’t be mad at me, I hope this doesn’t change anything. Today feels like you weren’t really in the mood to talk to me, while I try my best to keep the conversation up and high. Since you don’t want to deal with my “bullshit”.

I’m not even mad when you said that, I’m used to it. You’re not the only one who gets tired of me, how do you think I was having problems telling you when there’s something wrong when we just started talking?

It gets tiring to be with me. How are you going to survive being with me? You tell me you want to wait til’ we see each other again to see if “I” really want this with you. I do, I really do. BUT DO YOU? You’re already having so much trouble dealing with me, how are you gonna last later on? I can’t promise you that it gets better, but to be honest, it can’t really get worst than this. Ok, maybe just tad more bit, but how strong are your feelings for me?

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It’s a fresh one there.

I knew from the moment I found out when your birthday is that we would have a lot of communication problems, and we do.

From the moment you told me no on something I truly cared about, I knew we were going to have problems that shouldn’t be a problem in the first place.

I have waited longer than my body can do, yet you’ve left me and won’t respond to any of my texts. What have we become? It has really only been a week, yet we’ve already stepped on each other’s boundaries and seems to always drag down one and another.

This isn’t what I imagined, this isn’t what I want. It pains me seeing us like this, it pains me feeling that anytime soon — you will be tired of me and will stop loving me. That you will realize that we’re not compatible, that you don’t want me to anymore.

With my problem of being insecure, it already makes me so fragile but I’ve been fighting against it for you. I want to be the best you will ever have, the one that you will want forever. I’m no fling, I’m here for you and to support you. When did things between us be like this?

I pray to God about us, that we will eventually get on a good spot. But when will that be? I feel like we’re always clashing, and that scares me. I just want to feel wanted and loved. You’ve promised me that you will never stop pursuing me and treat me like a queen i am. I promised you that even if you get in your deep episode, I will be here no matter what and will try my best to pull you out of that blackhole. Where are you now?

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im tired,

tired for always feeling so shitty

tired for always noticing the wrong things

tired for making everything about myself

i cry, i distance myself, i lose amusement,

yet no one notices, no one asks.

i always ask myself what do i need to feel stable? to feel reassured of everything i have in my life? but i could never find the answer.

one wrong turn, it takes me deep down the ocean.

it feels like i’m drowning, of sorrow and sadness, confusion.

there could never be such as thing as perfect, because nothing lasts forever. & everything has its limit, i just have to find a way to keep it permanent.

death is what i desire for it go, but i tell myself i have to keep living for people who have set a high expectations for me.

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