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ari, 21, infp, psychology honours, heading into fourth year

[sleepybujo]

haven’t posted on this account in awhile but i have thoughts to record so.

the last fall and winter term was rough, the plan was to be in-person and it didn’t happen and my mental health and motivation just rapidly deteriorated from its already low point. we did manage to make it through so i am proud of myself. and maybe it wasn’t my best overall effort but it was the best i could do at that point and that is okay.

summer term started and it is in-person thankfully so i signed up for three courses. two in-person and one distance. and i kept up with them somehow, attended all of my classes, kept up with notes and i did scramble at that last week a bit but we still did good and i am proud. both of my in-person classes are finished and now i only have my distance which i had to fall behind on for my other heavy memorization courses so i’m glad i can focus on it fully now.

being on campus most of the week was exhausting and so was the social interaction so my weekends were unproductive in terms of studying and was just me recharging but there were still good moments on campus. overall. it was nice being back and having a routine. saying hi to bus drivers, finding random study spots to study before classes and the classes themselves were taught by wonderful teachers so it was enjoyable. i guess i’m happy and it’s been awhile since i’ve been happy with school and learning and just life outside of select moments so i’m glad. it’s been a nice few months, now let’s hope for the rest of year going on like this.

[bobbimorses]

[sleepybujo]

not me just being so burned out and exhausted and i haven’t even started studying for midterms which are coming up haha

the mere thought of studying leaves me already exhausted sigh idk how i’m going to get through this year

but!! lamp gives me serotonin and so does fall! plan is to get out of the house and into libraries and cafes to actually study

[sleepybujo]

[sept. 8 - 19]

it’s barely been two weeks since uni started and i’m already behind haha. not to mention the bad coffee and tech problems with crappy audio but!! we got sky pics, earl grey tea & game nights.

currently listening to: second — hyo ft. bibi

[goghstudyy]

09/06/21

genetics studying + cinnamon toast in my favorite coffee shop

[arabwife]

me: *is overwhelmed by things i absolutely have the time to do*

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Being kind isn't actually about how much shit you can quietly take. You can be kind and still shut down people who attempt to use and manipulate you. Kindness is about treating others well whenever you can, not about how much you're willing to suffer for others. So don't confuse being kind with being a victim and a pushover. No one with your best interests at heart will claim that it's the same thing.

[knifenymph]

if you are seeing this, you are going to prosper. you are experiencing a new part of your life where you will bloom into a better version of yourself and flourish. abundance is coming your way; love is coming your way; peace and clarity are coming your way. you have nothing to fear and even less to worry about. the darkness around you has been the soil and you are now getting ready to sprout. you are going to prosper

[sleepybujo]

[july 23 - 29]

finishing up unit notes to start an essay with costar encouragement days

currently listening to: i will fight - key, vinxen

[linafication]

here’s your reminder to let yourself create. not create ‘well’, just create. draw badly. write shitty poems. sing stupid songs. make whatever you want & have a great time doing it. that’s what creation is for. it’s self expression, not perfection

[sleepybujo]

[july 8]

today has been insanely productive; i grinded from about 2:40 pm to 12:00 am with breaks taken ofc to acquire food and water and also relocation from backyard -> sun room -> my room

tomorrow (or later today haha) is my midterm so i have finished an unfinished chapter, reviewed all chapter slide notes and watched extra videos for two chapters, as well as finishing two bonus assignments and practice exam. i do still have some extra videos to watch but that’s for later today.

i’ve noticed that my productivity goes up when i study outside or at least outside my room, and i get incredibly fried when i am in my room so we’re going to attempt studying outside more before winter comes

currently listening to: hello future — nct dream

[thoradvice]

25% is better than 0%. trying a little is better than not trying at all. eating a protein bar is better than nothing. using dry shampoo is better than not showering. cleaning one section of your room or house is better than not cleaning any of it. writing a paragraph of your essay is better than not starting it. whatever you can manage today is okay. you can try again tomorrow. little steps are to be proud of.

[sleepybujo]

[june 29 - july 6]

scrounging up motivation to study for my midterm via sunset walks & bubbletea

a lot of things happened in the past few months — had to drop two courses bc my family had to go into quarantine, hit a few slumps, made some fun memories and we’re testing out boundaries of independence hehe

currently listening to: walking through hell — anson seabra healing — fletcher

[intricatecakes]

if u are reading this i am handing u a smol flower

[zoomy-brain]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH 🏳️‍🌈

To all of us who’re just a mess ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎

[sleepybujo]

[april 2021]

this is basically my entire april spread, i’ve been focused on studying for finals or motivating myself to study for them this month so nothing much; that and iced coffee and omelettes

[phoebe-does]

I'm so in love with self improvement and self care practices. It's just all the small things in my day that add up to feeling deep internal gratification. Stretching in bed before getting up, listening to an audiobook while walking, putting ice in my water, taking rewarding study breaks, turning the water cold at the end of my shower, eating healthily. It's just the small things sometimes make you feel so good.