seraphim| they/she | infp | alt/subcul | this is technically a journal I guess: menhera(?), yamikawaii, angelcore. mostly nonsense. "tired since 5th grade"™
✧Pagan/animism. Occasional Abrahamic themes but mostly just as writing devices/expression. the gods and spirits are with us always ✧
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⚠️Dni/dnf: pro genocide in any capacity, fascist or Nazi sympathizers, maps, fetish or kink accounts.
Block me if you don't like what I post!🪽
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𝓘 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓯𝓮𝓬𝓽 𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓱.
Personal blog, mostly angel/tenshi and yamikawaii. +Daily ramblings/thoughts/games I'm interested in
♡ I will try my best to keep posts and content pg15 to an extent but would prefer minors to stay away in general, this is just a little bubble for me to collect things that I like and cry about things I don't as well as post issues I can't talk about irl.
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Current series/shows/games/books & manga:
✧ Mononoke(medicine seller)/toilet bound hanako-kun/seraph of the end/ disastrous life of saiki k./the summer hikaru died/land of the lustrous/bee and puppy cat
✧Tokyo aliens/Hell is Dark with no Flowers/As Miss Beelzebub Likes, Witchriv, and many many more.
✧ Honkai Star Rail, Genshin Impact, Limbus Company(haven't played but am currently looking into it. Music is insane), Twisted Wonderland, Obey Me, Saihate Station, Okegom games, Danganronpa series, Kingdom Hearts, Sky: COTL, and more.
✧Oshi: 💙🤍, 🪫, 🔅, ♈💜, 🟢🪽, 🧪🌪️ (I apologize if I use vtuber/streaming lingo in conversation. I can't escape)
✧Yume/ f/o (I share, let's fawn over them together!!): Sunday🩵🪽(hsr){wife(gn)/spouse}, Albedo✨🧪(Genshin){husband}, Kusuriuri👹🦊(Mononoke){spouse...idk which one, there's technically 64 of them. My heart says Ri}
✧I do draw and doodle sometimes, so there might be a few posts here and there with my persona!
My anons: none yet!
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#𝔏𝔞𝔩𝔞𝔫 𝔦𝔰 𝔪𝔲𝔪𝔟𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤💜,#✧໒꒰ྀི ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ꒱ྀི১✧ : general
#𝔣𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔤𝔦𝔯𝔩🪽: venting, spiraling
#𝔖𝔩𝔢𝔢𝔭𝔶 𝔰𝔢𝔯𝔞𝔭𝔥𝔦𝔪🪽: life updates/rambling
#𝔐𝔶 𝔡𝔞𝔯𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤⭐: thoughts and dreams about my sweet, my darling~
Maybe I'm a bit obsessed with this one. Not my fault. My camera roll is full of pictures now too.
Maybe if I wasn't being attacked on every front this week- my heart and mind can only take so much.
Pilot, happy birthday sir! I'm stealing your outfit, it's too cute. Was happy to be part of the gift attack too www. We should spoil him more.
Stayed up super late trying to make it to the end of the stream but still failed. I'm still kinda dysregulated. why do you say my username so softly, what the heck/pos. Calling you Flayon feels too personal, but it's cute too. Maybe I'm a bit insane.
The golden child that got shelved and forgotten about once they were no longer as sick as they once were in favor of the younger, healthier, more athletic and socially outgoing sibling.
I was rotting.
I was sinking so close to death.
Something had changed in me, something had become "wrong", they didn't listen when I asked for help, when I told them to their faces that something was wrong.
They didn't believe me.
They let me rot.
The decay still clings to my spirit.
It's engraved in my bones now. I can't scrub it out.
They let me rot. And yet ask why I never ask for help. Why I'm always letting things go so long without seeking assistance. I tried.
My pleas for help were ignored, they made it clear that they were never listening, wouldn't listen until something broke through the surface.
I might actually need someone to teach me to say no...scared I might have actually gotten another stalker or something. I thought we were just gonna talk about star rail but then he started asking super invasive questions that I answered mostly truthfully like an idiot because I'm still scared to lie to anyone out of fear of upsetting them even if I don't know them at all.
Why was he even planning a meetup after the first few messages or so anyway....this feels so creepy...I sent pictures of my outfits too thinking he was just a femboy or something and was looking for styling inspo
My memory and mood have tanked substantially these past few days and nothing I do is helping. I had my first real anxiety attack in a while yesterday over a pair of leggings because the customer was talking over me and raising her voice before I could finish what I was trying to say.
Taking allergy meds to help with pmdd didn't help at all and actually made me more angry instead of getting rid of the depression, with the added stress of a convention coming up at the end of the week and every district manager in the surrounding districts coming into my job tomorrow. I feel like I need to drop off the face of the earth or something.
Everything feels wrong, my body and head feel wrong, everyone's using my money so I haven't been able to save anything at all for this trip. I feel like the odd one out in every single group I'm in and genuinely think no one will notice if I actually just disappear again for a week.
At least princess week came early so I wont risk ruining my dress but still.
My brain isn't doing too well right now but I finally have my plushie oomf got me. I haven't let go of him since he arrived and he's the only thing holding me together right now I love love love my wife. He's so cute and perfect🩵🪽
