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I love crying at work

I just had a really hard conversation with my Mommy and ughhhhhhh dynamics and realtionships are so hard and just ugh I wish I knew everything i wanted and knew how to balance everything and make everyone happy.

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gif that says "hop on tf2" and it's just intense yuri makeouts

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slight revision:

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stuck down there… i’d be using my other hand to finger her

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i need this so terribly

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I swear to god if i have to deal with another predatory man and their behavior im going to start taking their dicks off with a knife.

Reflection on sobriety thus far.

I am 23 days sober from weed almost too my goal of 30 days and applying for new jobs. This seems to be a good reflection point on some of the responses my body has had after 7 years of daily use.

Mental changes

The main thing that i used weed for was emotinal regulation. Because of this i feel the largest change in life has been the nessecity of seeking out other paths of emotinal regulation. For me the biggest reliefs have been the ability to experince kink in a way that I hadn't had before espically exploring my littlespace and having my needs met through care, non-judgement and meeting other littles.

The second path of emotinal regulation that I have been using is the creation of art that better expresses myself and gives my brain and opportunity to reset from the stress I experience.

Physical changes

There have been a few physical changes that i have noticed with this quitting. The thing with the most affect on my life is my diet and the ability to portion control for myself. One of my biggest issues for years has been over eating and a bit of an addiction to dessert. 😅 I have a bit of a sweet tooth and recently i have been doing much better in avoiding this treat after my meals, especially when I am already full which has helped in how I feel thoughout the day. The next physical change that is prevalnt is the clearing out of my lungs. For the last 4 years i had primarily been smoking concentrates/dabs which are much stronger and harsher than normal weed because of the process nessicary to make them. This had led to a weezing sound every time that i would breathe and has been a huge source of insecurity for me. This weezing has finally gone away my lungs are starting to recover.

These things have been the primary factors in my desire to get sober and i have achived them. I can't wait to reach a point where my brains chemistry is back to its natural abilities and my body/lungs are recovered to near full capacity (hopefully I havent done too much permanent damage to them 😅)

Dreams/nightmares

One of the things i find most prevalnt is the return of my dreams and nightmares to almost every time I sleep. These are extremely vivid and sometimes can be terrifyingly real to the point that I can feel the pain experienced in them. I dont want to share most of these because of the more personal nature of them but I hope to be able to better control these in the future and prevent some of the negative draw backs.

To anyone reading that is considering even taking a break from smoking i highly recommend it and would love to hear your experiences. Thank you for reading 💜

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