❧ active sept '25 ❧

31 · i was termed at 10k so please just block, don't report. i use this to cope. i attempted recovery several times over and it still doesn't feel good enough. i suppose it has something to do with the fact that i am still obese and don't feel that i can genuinely recover while actively losing weight. missed this safe space and community of like-minded people going through the same old bullshit and being able to find humour in the struggles. i'm not pro anything except recovery. i just need this space to be my journal to vent and shitpost.

[slender-wannabe]

alright maybe 2025 will be a better year 🫠

✧ ﾟ･: * ✧ ﾟ･: * stats/goals * :･ ﾟ ✧ * :･ ﾟ✧

height: 5'5"

bmi: 35.3

body fat: 43.8%

hw: 279.6

lw: 181.6

cw: 209.2

🔒 gw 1: 199

🔒 gw 2: 180

🔒 gw 3: 170 (# i told myself i'd never go past)

🔒 gw 4: 155

🔒 gw 5: 140

🔒 ugw: 125

[cozyautumnspices]

source: instagram.com

[freakonaaleash]

[slender-wannabe]

omg we finally got the monster ultra vice guava and it's so good 🥹

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[slender-wannabe]

why must total randos, who you are meeting for the first time, insist on hugging as a greeting? like can you not fucking touch me. 🙃

[onceuponagingercat]

[poeticpicturism]

[sandy-days-and-sun-rays]

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[slender-wannabe]

isn't it just dandy when you workout five days a week, don't eat too much, sleep decently, and still gain weight? 🫠

[slender-wannabe]

today's life lesson: don't take adhd meds at 5:40am on an empty stomach and then go do crossfit. 🫠

[angel-tearsx]

[esgotada]

[slender-wannabe]

i did some healthy grocery shopping and meal prep yesterday and today i went back to crossfit and did my first wod in like 5+ years and i'm so happy i still enjoyed it. 🥹 i can barely walk but i feel so good mentally. plan on going back on wednesday.

[unaliveish]

natalie jurrjens