Things Lost in the Fire

"at least there's pretty lights..."

[californiatransients]

12/7/17 thru 12/10/17 - The mighty CA165 aka Lonesome George has been spending time in Monterey Bay snacking on sea lions and playing in the kelp beds. In the third photo you can really see how much his giant dorsal fin leans to the right.

Photos by Daniel Bianchetta and Jodi Frediani [x] [x] [x]

[slimwarriorkhan]

GO ARMY!

[slimwarriorkhan]

to all who serve... Happy Veterans Day

[blackfishsound]

A member of the T049A’s Bigg’s killer whales. Photo by Ocean EcoVentures Whale Watching - Cowichan Bay.

[the-cetacean]

Patagonia Orcas hunting sea lion pups on the beach (The Blue Planet)

[the-cetacean]

Crozet Island Orcas, Kelping (Killer Whales: Wolves of the Sea, BBC)

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AP pod spent much of the summer last year in Kachemak Bay, Alaska. I documented them feeding, socializing, and meeting up with other resident pods.

Their preferred spot seemed to be the vicinity of Barabara Point, where I suspect there was a strong run of silver salmon (though we’ll never be sure unless we took a prey sample).

AP pod is a very poorly known pod so documenting them is of great importance. Hopefully they return to Kachemak Bay this summer so we can get a better understanding of this mysterious pod.

[cetuselena]

Bigg’s killer whale surfacing close to the boat, unedited/not cropped sequence 4/22/2017.

Taken with 70-300mm lens.

[whaletalesorg]

The T18’s and T19’s in Millar Channel. To read this story (and more!), follow the link in our bio.⠀ Photo by @marcie.callewaert ⠀ #whaletales #whales #2017 #dolphinawarenessmonth #killerwhales #orca #Biggs #transient #getonaboat #whalewatching #exploreBC ⠀

[lsleofskye]

Norway | paulnicklen

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[slimwarriorkhan]

7 Reasons to Follow My Blog

Everything i blog is based on a true story

I keep my drama light (same great taste with fewer calories)

My mom said i’m great and people like me

I eat my cereal dry because i’m not afraid of the crunch

My eyelashes are perfect!

if you’re a follower and can find me, i will serenade you with any song from the “reality bites” soundtrack

I’ve never burned a grilled cheese sandwich

An anagram for my name is: Anal Brown Street

I don’t let numbers hold me back

[slimwarriorkhan]

I want to be your something. I don’t yet know what that’d be. Something you want, need and believe. I looked for all these things but came up short. Maybe I’m designed better to provide. I used to think I was everything I ever needed. Now I’m sure I’m not. I somehow lost things I never knew were missing. I need someone too. I can’t see you when I close my eyes. No matter how hard i try, I can’t see at all.

about a girl…

[slimwarriorkhan]

Sometimes the question is what actually matters. Our words are careful enough not to make mistakes. The confusion caused is intentional. It’s what we want to be known versus what we want to be asked. There’s a manipulation of sorts, designed to engage the lackluster and the left behind. We measure meaning by simply letting go and waiting to see what falls away. There’s no blame for wanting to escape. I was alive before conversation died. It was a time when i all looked into eyes or lost face. I feel sorry for the others who have it so easy living disconnected. They imitate the pain they read. They’ll never know that emotions are weapons to be forged and wielded triumphantly. Theirs will instead be barriers to shield their stunted growth.

on Building Ships in Bottles

[slimwarriorkhan]

my return is always inevitable though my location is usually unknown…

my only regret

[slimwarriorkhan]

No one sees you on the first day. You’re just another person on the bus, or walking by on the street. However, homelessness is in the eyes, written all over the face, but few of us are trained to see it. I’ve seen it before, reflected in the lenses I used to hide. Time slows down as the temperature drops, and this was one of the slowest nights on record. In the coldness of night, movement is your only friend. Everything else freezes, along with regret. It’s just as well, because you can’t use it anyway. What remained of my fear hadn’t fully healed by then and what had didn’t matter. I was trained for that, to stay alive, no matter the circumstance or the enemy, even me. It was never intended for that, but it had to do. It’s surprisingly easy to get lost in a familiar place. When you’re used to being invisible, you don’t always see what you should. There’s a voice in the wind that I never before heard. It doesn’t speak in tones that are easily recognizable. It replaces the thoughts in head once your eyes begin to burn and your lips start to tingle. If you do listen closely enough it will change your mind about all you believed to be true. The first best thing I can do is learn to forgive. It would be especially true, if I could do it for the unforgivable. There’s no such thing on the street late at night. Everyone and thing is in some way redeemable to someone. The problem however, is that we’ve all be made to believe that we deserved to be asked for things we should rightfully give away. The night began with fast food. It was the longest it had ever taken me to eat a burger and fries. I did it quietly in the corner away from everyone. I sat alone attempting to prepare myself for the battle ahead. That time was not well spent. Survival is a response mechanism. The idea that you can plan to survive is absurd. It isn’t until you leave the warmth of the building and enter the fourth mile or second hour that it hits you. You discover that you are either succeeding or not. It’s the moment when you can actual feel that the difference between tonight and tomorrow is your next step. You can’t close your eyes at night. When near or below zero sleeping is death. There is a point when the skin is too cold to touch anything, including God. At that moment you don’t pray because you’re sure no one is listening and you don’t cry either because your own tears get cold enough to hurt. Shelter is such a basic thing. So, basic that it is very easily taken for granted. There were brief moments of rest to be found in portable toilets. They are places far enough out of the way to serve their purpose. They do nothing about the cold or even the wind but what they do is hide you from the occasional eyes in the night. Eyes that aren’t concerned about the place you used to call home, but your intentions towards them. They are the ones who are able to see victims in the mirror. There were drug stores, diners, department stores, hospitals and even bars that lit the way, but they weren’t places of refuge as much as they were reminders of what I had become. The last thing I could tolerate was hearing, “can I help you?”, and the second to last, my own voice saying, “no”. At four in the morning, no one wants to help you and no is a lie. They are telling you that you no longer belong. More important than any of that was the need not to be labeled or marked in some way that closed you off to places of last resort, at least not on the first day. The sun rose eventually and I could no longer hide. Blending in with the commuters isn’t so easy for the tired with nowhere to go. When the buses started running, there would be a place to warm and sleep. Day one ended as it began, looking into a window at a man I no longer recognized.

Walking After Midnight

[slimwarriorkhan]

The prevailing wisdom tells me that the number of followers each l have is unimportant. It’s a belief that is true, for the most part, until I consider the feelings of the unfollowed. I remember the days that went by while watching zero followers slowly become ten. I also remember the bitterness of having my hopes dashed as my expectations weren’t met. I suppose for some it’s the popularity that matters most, while others simply find joy in being revered. However, there are the few who only wish to be heard and I too am guilty of not listening. What have I done by rejecting community, besides create one of my own? It was never my intent to be selective. My practice of not following others back is nothing more than a misunderstanding. Many things make me uncomfortable and I have short attention for pictures. Now, I wonder if that is enough of a reason to tune someone out, turn another off and forget what it was like on my first day. I’m not sure what I will do, but if just one person does and then another, maybe there is a real chance for community. It isn’t enough to just to say i’m in a community. Sometimes i have to act like i am.

on Clicking Blue Buttons