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Это мои тараканы в голове (This is a side blog, I follow back from my main)

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[jeanne-crains]

A world tour of classic films (pre-1980):

Afghanistan - Like Eagles (1967) no subs

Albania - The Great Warrior Skanderbeg (1953) Eng subs

Algeria - The Winds of the Aures (1967) no subs

Angola - Sambizanga (1972) Eng subs

Argentina - Black Ermine (1953) Eng subs

Armenia - Zare (1926) no subs

Australia - For the Term of His Natural Life (1929) Eng

Austria - The Hands of Orlac (1924) Eng

Azerbaijan - The Cloth Peddler (1945) Eng subs

Belgium - The Crab w/ the Golden Claws (1947) Eng subs

Brazil - Onde Estás Felicidade (1939) no subs

Bulgaria - Specialist in Everything (1962) no subs

Cambodia - Apsara (1966) no subs

Canada - Back to Gods Country (1919) Eng

Chile - The Lady of Death (1946) no subs

China - Princess Iron Fan (1941) Eng subs

China - Mulan Joins the Army (1939) Eng subs

Columbia - Claws of Gold (1926) no subs

Cuba - The Last Supper (1976) Eng subs

Czechoslovakia - Ecstasy (1933) Eng subs

Denmark - The Abyss (1910) Eng subs

Egypt - Cairo Station (1958) Eng subs

Estonia - Young Eagles (1927) no subs

Finland - The Day the Earth Froze (1959) Eng dub

France - Princess Tam-Tam (1935) Eng subs

Georgia - Saba (1929) no subs

Germany - Metropolis (1927) Eng

Greece - Daphnis and Chloe (1931) no subs

Honduras - My Friend Angel (1962) no subs

Hungary - Little Mother (1935) no subs

India - Aah (1953) Eng subs

Indonesia - Pareh (1935) no subs

Iran - The House is Black (1963) Eng subs

Ireland - Knocknagow (1918) Eng

Israel - The Hero’s Wife (1963) no subs

Italy - Fast and Sexy (1958) Eng version

Jamaica - The Harder They Come (1972) Eng

Japan - Dragnet Girl (1933) Eng subs

Kazakhstan - Amangeldy (1939) no subs

Korea, North - My Home Village (1949) no subs

Korea, South - Viva Freedom! (1946) Eng subs

Latvia - Blow, Wind (1973) Eng subs

Lebanon - The Broken Wings (1962) Eng subs

Lithuania- The Girl and the Echo (1964) no subs

Malaysia - Fate’s Hand (1952) no subs

Malaysia - My Son, Sazali (1956) Eng subs

Mexico - Salón México (1949) Eng subs 

Moldova - Lullaby (1959) no subs

Mongolia - Tsogt Taij (1945) Eng subs

Nepal - Maitighar (1966) no subs

Netherlands - Fanfare (1958) Eng subs

New Zealand - 100 Crowded Years (1941) Eng

Niger - Return of an Adventurer (1966) no subs

Nigeria - Fincho (1957) Eng

North Macedonia - Miss Stone (1958) no subs

Norway - Nine Lives (1957) Eng subs

Pakistan - Doo Aansoo (1950) no subs

Paraguay - The Blood and the Seed (1959) no subs

Peru - No Stars in the Jungle (1967) no subs

Philippines - Pearl of the Pasig (1950) Eng subs

Poland - Black Pearl (1934) Eng subs

Portugal -  Aniki-Bóbó (1942) Eng subs

Romania - The Queen’s Flower (1946) no subs

Russia - The Stone Flower (1946) Eng subs

Senegal - Boro, Sarret (1963) Eng subs

Serbia - Karađorđe (1911) Eng subs

Singapore - Love (1948) Eng subs

Slovenia - Don’t Whisper (1957) no subs

South Africa - Come Back, Africa (1959) Eng

Spain - The Electric Hotel (1908) no subs

Sri Lanka - Kapatikama (1966) no subs

Sudan - The Dislocation of Amber (1975) no subs

Suriname - Wan Pipel (1976) Eng subs

Sweden - It Rains on Our Love (1946) Eng subs

Switzerland - Heidi (1952) Eng dub

Syria - The Dupes (1972) Eng subs

Taiwan - Wave (1973) no subs

Tajikistan -  Rustam and Suhrab (1971) no subs

Thailand - King of the White Elephant (1940) Eng

Thailand - S.T.A.B. (1973) Eng dub

Trinidad and Tobago - Bim (1974) Eng

Tunisia - The Girl from Carthage (1924) no subs

Turkey - The Broken Disc (1959) no subs

Ukraine - Man With a Movie Camera (1929) Eng subs

United Kingdom - It’s Love Again (1936) Eng

United States - Bringing Up Baby (1938) Eng

Uruguay - Souls on the Coast (1923) no subs

Uzbekistan - Delighted by You (1958) no subs

Venezuela - Light in the High Plains (1953) no subs

Vietnam - Together on the Same River (1959) no subs

Zimbabwe - Shangani Patrol (1970) Eng

***All these links are for YouTube and are watchable as of October 2021. Since this list is for classic films it includes some countries that no longer exist. Not every country is included here because not every country had a film industry or has films available on YouTube. A few countries have two films listed because I couldn’t pick between the two. I recommend looking up any film on here that you watch as a lot of them have very interesting backstories. “No subs” means no English subtitles. They may have subtitles in other languages.

Please don’t let a lack of subtitles stop you from trying a movie from another country. Movies, especially silent ones, can be understood and enjoyed regardless of language barriers! <3

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June 2026

June is my last month at this job. I will be done at the end of this week. It's been good having a date for the end of my contract, although that doesn't mean I wasn't both bored and angry the entire time. I'm still bored and angry, like I won't feel free of this job until I'm out the door on Friday.

I thought I might stay unemployed for a bit, the job market being as it is, but a sub-contractor mentioned an interesting job opportunity at his wife's workplace, so we'll see. I would prefer a couple of months of unemployment before I find a new job, but I'll take whatever.

What else happened in June? I read, I think, nineteen books, beating my old record of seventeen. It's getting to a point where I'm starting to think I should read less and watch more films, because of the money this is costing me.

Some writing was also done. Not much. I wrote a short story with which I am not very satisfied, and I kept writing my autobiography and my longer story. Made some slow progress. I was able to write pretty much the whole month, although lately the heat has been stopping me from writing at home.

Can we talk about the heat? I've never seen anything like it. It's not even July yet and we've been through two massive heatwaves. And to think that this is the coldest summer of the rest of our lives...

Anyway so I'll probably still end up unemployed at home this summer, in which case I'll need to find a way to make writing happen regardless of the weather.

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It's almost the end of the month and, more importantly, it's almost the end of this job. I've been working here for a year and two months. I finish next Friday. I took pictures of the office in order to remember it later. I wrote down my computer password for whoever comes after me, if someone does come after me. I made a list of things to do when I'm home being unemployed so that I don't get too depressed too quickly. I'm all ready to leave.

I remember how difficult it was when I first came here, how I thought I would never be able to do this job properly. And I may have been right, but at least now I've got experience, which might make it easier for me to get another job in this field. I never wanted to work in this field in the first place, but there we are.

It's not bittersweet, leaving here. In fact, I'm ecstatic. Even though I know unemployment is never easy on me, I'd rather be unemployed than stay here. The job itself is fine -- I very often find myself with nothing to do, but there are worse things in the world -- but I just can't work with loud-and-proud "far-right voters", aka fascists, anymore. If this contract wasn't ending soon, I'd find another way to leave here.

July is going to be something else.

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Had a dream last night that I renamed this account "ratseyes" (after the band Cat's Eyes) and picked "'cause you're the worst person I know" for a title.

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My dreams have been speaking to me very clearly of late. First they told me to read Milena by Margarete Buber-Neumann, which I am reading now (I'd heard about it before, dreamy me didn't pull the book out of thin air). Then yesterday they told me to listen again to "Hall of Mirrors" by The Distillers. Both excellent recommendations.

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"Diver," 2026. Photo transfers onto cotton, freshwater pearls, fish hook, thread, colored pencil, gloss medium, gloss gel. dimensions: slightly smaller than my hand :)

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[booksandchainmail]

#WHAT a fucking read of the manic pixie dream girl#I want this desperately actually???#perfect quirky enigmatic mystery girl who has all the traits you don't but long for#and lives life with extreme confidence and whimsy doing whatever she truly wants#and she's the future you can have!! she's here because she loves you! she wants you to be happy!#she hated being you so she knows how much you hate being yourself but she's here to prove to you#that there is a joy you can attain#there is a self you will love (tags via @aethersea)

[angelnumber27]

nervous breakthrough

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Had a dream last night that I renamed this account "ratseyes" (after the band Cat's Eyes) and picked "'cause you're the worst person I know" for a title.

[mauriacs]

mr darcy lived in derbyshire so he sounds like. lizzeh. ah lov yew moost ahhdentleh

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wait the places in pride and prejudice are real?

[metapianycist]

england is indeed real

[publicdomainreview]

Spectators watch the flight of one of Alexander Graham Bell’s tetrahedral kites in 1904. More pictures here: https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/alexander-graham-bell-s-tetrahedral-kites-1903-9

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I never really thought I would be bad at my job. I always used to be at the top of my class in school and so I thought, naturally, I would be good at finding a job, and then I would be good at doing my job. To put it another way, I always thought that whatever it was that made me a good student (and it certainly wasn't hard work) would also make me a good worker. Then came the time when I couldn't find a job in my field because I can't do networking. It took me a while to realise and accept that, but I think even after that, I still somehow thought that I would be good at whatever job I would end up doing. It turns out, though, that almost any job will require you to socialise in some way, if not with customers then at least with your colleagues. And I am terrible at that. I am also the opposite of resourceful, both because I am shy and because I absolutely never will go above and beyond for any boss (I would say it's the anti-capitalist in me, but frankly a big part of it is the lazybones in me). And so here I am today, almost at the end of a job in which I performed not terribly, but not very well either. No one will miss me (and I will miss no one). When I'm done here I'll have to find another, similar job with as few responsibilities as possible. I will never get rich, or fulfilled, from working. This is such a different life from the one I had imagined.

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May 2026

Another month.

I did some writing, although I also did some giving up on writing towards the end of the month. I had to let my story rest, for one thing (even though it should be done resting now), and for another working on my autobiography is always hard. But I'm making progress! Connections are being made! The hard thing is to keep writing as I wait to be more "inspired" (as I wait for things to get easier again).

Made it through the many holidays of May and I'm back to working four-day weeks now, poor me. But I've only got twenty days left at this job now, so I suppose it's OK. Being unemployed for a bit will do me good, even though the money will be tighter. I will be able to write more, read more, start exercising regularly again. I hope I won't get too depressed too quickly.

Anyway the summer heat is already here. Let's get ready for three months of melting and stewing.

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Anyway I've got an end date to my contract and it is in five weeks. In five weeks I won't have to hear racist (and anti-vax!) drivel four days a week. In five weeks I won't have to get up at six thirty in the morning, hopefully ever again. I five weeks I'll be freeeeee (to somehow survive on unemployment benefits as I look for another job, but still).

I feel like a teenager, even though as a teen I was rarely excited for the summer holidays. I've been thinking this is ideal timing for starting to exercise again, for writing, for reading a bunch.

Only thing I'll miss this summer from my (old) job will be the air conditioning.

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Ce qu'il y a d'insupportable dans la résilience c'est l'idée que toute cette souffrance ne conduise finalement qu'à être normal. Accepter que ce que les autres ont sans effort, sans même en percevoir la valeur, ne nous est donné qu'au prix d'une double peine : le martyre et ensuite le chemin de croix de la guérison. Il serait plus souhaitable que la résilience en tant que dépassement permette aussi de surpasser le normal comme un supplément d'être. Devenir fou, devenir une voyante ou une sainte. Mais non, la plupart d'entre nous allons faire nos courses incognito, sans qu'on puisse deviner à aucun signe particulier ce qui nous est arrivé.

Neige Sinno, Triste Tigre