[smallanomaly]

Star Trek is so inferior to Doctor Who.

They’re stuck in the same time stream the entire show?!  Who wants to watch that??

[smallanomaly]

I'd like to say that I was an absolute fucking dumb ass.

[thebigbiwolf]

its 5am and ive been thinking about this video for two weeks straight

[smallanomaly]

I. Need. More.

[smallanomaly]

Pizza again.

A month and a half ago I compulsively quit my pizza job. They'd left me alone in the kitchen with a massive prep list with still keeping up service. I just had had enough and I put in my two weeks. I was very central to that kitchen and I was refused a raise.

I went looking for a job outside of the kitchen realm to no avail. I looked for a month and had to just fall back into the kitchen grind. I ended up moving out of my boyfriends house back with family until I could make enough to come back.

I've basically been put into this position where my boyfriend and I miss each other a lot and I feel a time crunch to get a better paying job to reunite with him.

Obviously this is such a stress on me. I'm out of my mind nearly every hour of the day trying to weigh this path against another. Which will get me enough money to live with rifaah again, will such a job kill my soul, what so I even want to do, what's the viability of jobs I might actually like, should I get more education.. over and over. I'm chasing threads of possibilities and it's crushing me.

Today I just couldn't hide my anxiety and after a morning of dealing with me, rifaah posited that maybe he's putting too much pressure on me that that maybe I need to be single for awhile to figure it out. This added another rock to my pile.

At times I love him and most others more than myself. I have shoved my own wants and passions away because they're too painful to deal with. They all seem so out of reach. I lack energy to persue.

I just want this to end. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. I'm so stressed every hour of my day.

[smallanomaly]

Death Card Cuttoff

I'm tines past this place was where I could sit what was bothering me. I think I need a space like that again. I can't even find a corner to begin on. It all seems to me meshed together. I'm wearing a printed cut off tee of the death card, the symbol of my sign, and the symbol of transformative change. All through my life I've felt like something is just stuck in my soul that cannot handle change. I think about certain aspects of my life changing and I can feel my literal stomach clench in uneasiness. I needed to shave for years. years. before I finally got the courage up to do so. My partner, whom I have fallen in love with, can't imagine my life without, was going through steady point in life when we met. Over the years I've come to understand aspects of him, and I understand that one of those aspects is utter and open ambivalence to change, and it is through this that he has fearlessly and with light heart has conquered many dimensions of his life. How can I even balance this? He's getting interviewed by huge tech companies in expensive places. I make pizza. I only have food experience. I have debts. I can't drive. Why does he even want me? I feel like I have so little to offer him and it makes me feel physically ill. I love him, but right now, fear of change clouds my vision of love. Three weeks was so long to be away from him, and so many things happened with him while he was away. There's so many new patterns to accustom to, ones that make me so uncomfortable my soul crawls even though they are no big deal really. I haven't changed in many ways. I feel like the same sad, anxious trash person, afraid of change, knowing it's happening. Wishing for..l..I couldn't even say ..I just don't even know.

[king-joaquin]

[recklesscloudz-deactivated20230]

Reblog and you’ll find money soon!

[nudiemuse]

Yes.

Also weird I reblobbed the other money one last night and a freelance check I invoiced for a month ago came in.

[timaeustestifieds]

reblobbed

[justthefangirl]

seriously have nothing to lose

[sherlysthougths]

Did it once might as well let it stack. At least I’m not buying loto tickets

[imsuchacapricorn]

You guys, I reblogged this 2 days ago out of desperation. Today I was looking through my old wallet for coins to go to the vending machine because that’s all I can fucking afford. I haven’t touched this thing since July/ August. When I found a disappointing 15 cents in the coin pocket I went to the billfold to see if any coins were in there. That’s when I saw them. 5 crisp bills amounting to $22. I literally screamed and danced around my room out of joy before remembering that I’d reblogged this post.

Tl;dr - This post is fucking magical and actually worked for me.

[sxvsxde-blog]

I’m broke as fuck. Money gods pls send me like 100k.

[muscovado-sugar]

I never reblog these, let’s give it a shot. BIG MONEY, BIG MONEY

[niuniente]

I reblogged this last week and withing an hour I got a client after a month of silence! Literally gave me money to eat for the rest of the month.

[doveclove]

Crazy enough but my mom randomly gave me 200 dollars after I reblogged one of these the other day…

[districtdollface-deactivated201]

Amen

[deenadolly-deactivated20150921]

Reblobbed.

[breelandwalker]

I have a theory that these posts actually gather energy from the wishes of people who reblog them and that’s why they work. Plus, yanno, they get passed around by witches…a lot. :)

[lux-obscura]

Financials are getting a little rocky here (new job was a pay cut and was supposed to be an hours increase but ended up being more of a cut/lateral move) and I’m still trying to figure out how to downgrade my spending (seriously how can I cancel some of my cable services and end up paying MORE than before fucking packages fucking Verizon…) so in the meantime I could really go for a cash infusion until I get myself sorted.

[lux-obscura]

Ok this is such a ridiculous coincidence but I JUST reblogged this this morning and between then and now my tax refund hit my account 3 days early. Draw your own conclusions.

[slimy-soda-jerk]

Might as well

[lardbelly-deactivated20170904]

sorry i just need some at the moment :/

[roderik195]

Me need money 😐

[heavyryan]

Never hurts

[hearturs]

[gardenofgod]

Morel Mushroom and Wood Anemones.

[stirringsagacity]

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Requirements:

Excitement

Stable Internet

Microphone (camera wanted but not required)

LGBTQA Friendly

I’ll provide books and material 

Info:

Start date: 09/20/16

Start Time: 4 PM PST (7 PM EST)

Game: Monsterheart

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[smallanomaly]

I feel disgusting.

First of all I'm peeling everywhere from my sunburn. As a pizza cook, I'm constantly covered in flour and sweat from 500 degree ovens. I can't tell what's my skin and what's flour. I have sauce in my hair, 20 hour old bacon grease on my stomach, underwear and pants from a ripped trash bag. I've been waiting for buses for an hour. How'd I get here even.

[smallanomaly]

My curls are glorious, admittedly.

[smallanomaly]

My Alexander tech teacher said that I’ve made a lot of progress in the last couple months and I'm proud of that. I’ve learned so much about the body.

I’ve figured out how to move my lymphatic system, pressure points in the wrist to support the shoulder, relaxing deep muscles that connect front to back in my legs and stomach.

But I think the thing I treasure most from these experiences is learning to be kinder to myself and too just accept where I’m at in my body. It’s never going to be perfect.

[smallanomaly]

Fell off my bike and chipped my teeth.

Now I’m stressin about getting it repaired before I have to leave to Puerto Rico in a week at a cost that’ll still allow me to even go.

[ancientpeoples]

String of bronze buttons in the form of pairs of breasts, likely grave gifts, each 7/8 in long (2.2 cm)

Roman Cyprus, 1st–3rd century A.D.  

Source: The Metropolitan Museum of Art

[smallanomaly]

On a lighter note, I downloaded the entire Tallis Scholars Renaissance sacred music volumes and I’m so excited to plunge into those. Lol

[hematitehearts]

Fluorite all the colours of the rainbow!

Requested by micanificent

[098098655789]

I'm medical debt trouble again

As most of you may know I have an auto immune disease called Ulcerative Colitis. It’s debilitating and very expensive. I had paid off most of my medical debt but more has come in. It’s about 600 more than I thought it would be. I set up a go fund me awhile ago to help cover the costs last year. I always kept it up just in case I needed if again and it looks like I do. Please. Anything helps. I can’t work most jobs because of my illness so I’m stuck working at a local card shop which is easy on my health but doesn’t pay much. I’m also a full time college student at VCU which isn’t cheap either.

https://www.gofundme.com/9a3898wk https://www.gofundme.com/9a3898wk https://www.gofundme.com/9a3898wk

[smallanomaly]

I got to have an Alexander technique lesson today after two weeks of not being able to make it. We worked on the formal lunge, table work, and my personally favorite, the monkey. I'm so glad to be back at it. If y'all have never heard of Alexander tech or are curious, look it up. Find someone in your area that practices. It helps everything.