Today I learned that grief is a very weird thing. Today started off bad with my mom yelling at me about school, saying that I haven't been doing any work... which I was like, no, yes, I have, so I get ready for school, and I go. SO i get ther and my friend Sandra comes and I was like YAY... but I get the school thing sorted out and they call my mom again and she gets mad... like what more do u want u literal fossil... but anyways I leave and I hang out with my friend and she got me this donut and it had like it had brownie batter inside of it OMG IT WAS SO BOMB... bte we had to go to the daiso next to my school for an unbrella because it was raining bad. SO we leave, and I meet up with this one guy, and I pierced his vertical labret, and I DID A AMAZING JOB. After we went to hang out with hes was so chill and fun asf to hang out with him, and I hope to hang out with him again. He made walking in the rain fun like bro chill ass dude. I get home,e and everything is fine. Next, I called some freinds eatsome foodf,ood everything was fine. Until my friend told me about what was going on with a certain person from my past. BACKROUND this person and I had a very odd fallout. I will say that it was mostly my fault,nah, I WAS ALL my fault, but I have matured and used those experiences to become a better person, and I have apologized to this person. My friend texted me saying if I knew what happened to her. I told her no, and she explained to me that she died... my heart dropped. The first thing I did was ask her if she was okay, and then I called this person Ihaven't talked to in a while to check on her friend to see if she was processing it okay. We talked for a bit until it hit me. This person and I had such a good connection, and all I can think aboutis how badly I treated her. I was feeling so many emotions at once, and they hit me hard.d I hope she rests andis at peace. I would explain more, but this is all I can really say. I'm still kinda processing this.
