It's 2020

and I'm finally here, I'm not openly queer and I'm an adult full of existential fears

[smarie2000]

I would definitely be doing better in school if my OCD didn’t insist that I rip out my notes and rewrite them until they’re perfect while my Anxiety tags along and keeps me from learning

[smarie2000]

People can definitely hear my aggressively passionate one man broadway show through the dorm door right now and yet I just continue to get louder.

Oh well

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It’s Monday

And for being a Monday its been...like a Monday. We’ll just watch Dan and Phil and pretend like the day never existed 

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This is my first Valentine’s Day (aka “Single’s Hate Day”) alone in 7 years and being 19 I’m almost embarrassed to even make this statement

Is it because I was in a relationship for six years and got broken up with or is it because I spent my whole teenage hood in a relationship that didn’t last...I don’t know, but the point is...nope I don’t have a point I just want to keep posting because it’s the only thing distracting me from reality

[smarie2000]

I think I might actually classify as a failure already and its only February of 2020

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I literally regret my life

My ex gave me valid advice about a crush after I had already made the regrettable mistake and now I’m doing what he had suggested and basically can I have a redo  😭 😭 😭

[smarie2000]

I should’ve been born before computers existed

Now that I’m an adult in a world controlled by technology I get defeated more and more everyday with my lack of knowledge 

[smarie2000]

This Fafsa makes me wanna dig my grave and send myself off early

It was nice knowing you world

[smarie2000]

I’m putting my two weeks in

Being an adult is too difficult

[smarie2000]

I’m back

And 2020 is definitely the year for ideas to come...will I be back here in 2020? Well that’s a great question....probably not

[smarie2000]

When facebook’s updating so you make your yearly trip to tumblr

@last-thing-i-knew

[smarie2000]

“We’re going on a trip in our favorite running shoes. Nowhere else to go, cuz Pokémon is slow”

[smarie2000]

I bring all the pitchers to the yard

[smarie2000]

Only my best friend sends me on my way with this.

[smarie2000]

I swear my life’s just falling down a well

[last-thing-i-knew]

Well sorrryyyy that I don’t always just assume :p

[smarie2000]

Still. I tried to trans my cat.

[last-thing-i-knew]

It’s 2017 for all we know he wants to be female.

[smarie2000]

He LOOKS it

[smarie2000]

I swear my life’s just falling down a well

[last-thing-i-knew]

Well sorrryyyy that I don’t always just assume :p

[smarie2000]

Still. I tried to trans my cat.

[smarie2000]

I swear my life's just falling down a well