The world as I see it

Trying to make it through my 20's without crashing and burning

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Just a few words to get out of my head

Dear future classroom,

Hi, Hello, we haven’t met yet, and I sadly do not know when exactly we will meet in person but I wanted to say a few things before we get formally introduced.  First off, Hi! How are you? My name is Amanda, currently I am 26 but that will not be the age that I enter into you. I could be 30 before I get to call you mine, Lord knows I’ve been waiting 3 years and I haven’t had the opportunity to call you my own.  

I wanted to write to you in regards of what you can expect from me, and sadly it isn’t a lot of promises. I can’t promise you that the last name that I have will be the one that is shown bright on your door, some crazy fool might want to marry me, BUT I can promise you that my name will remain Amanda.  I can’t promise you that your paint will stay nice, and that your floors will not get dirty.  I can’t promise that your door might not break, or a light might not go out.  I can’t promise that the room wont be loud, and that you wont see tears and struggles.  I can’t promise you things will stay perfectly neat and organized, you might get dirty and beat up, I actually cant promise you much of anything, for I cannot predict the future. But even though I can’t promise you a lot, there are some things that I can indeed promise you.

I can promise you, that along side all the curriculum posters, ABC’s and 123s your walls will also be covered with artwork made by students in art class and free time.  I can promise you decorations that come and go with the seasons, and most importantly your walls will showcase the students achievements and milestones.  I can promise you that the loud noise will be students laughing, asking questions, engaged in deep discussions, and friends catching up on what they did over the weekend. I can promise you that the shouting will come from students because they couldn’t hold it in their heads anymore. I can promise you a classroom with eager to learn students and an even more eager teacher to show them what the entire world as to offer. I can promise you a class that will respect you and love you just like I have grown to love and respect you.  I can promise you that even though you will see struggle along with some tears, you will also see students overcoming obstacles and children shooting for the moon and landing among all the stars. I can promise you that you will see a student finally understanding something, and you will never be able to forget that smile he or she has across their face.  I can promise you that you will see students who believe that they can do anything if they set their mind to it, and a teacher that will always support them in their endeavors.  

 I can promise you that you will see a teacher that not only will come in early but also will stay late. I can promise you that you will see a teacher that loves her students, and will do anything to see them achieve any goal. You will see a teacher that yes may yell at times, but also act silly and dance to the beat of her own drum. You will see a teacher that not only teaches a class but also learns from her own students because they will teach me more than I will ever learn.

Classroom, I wish I could write you everything that you will see, but I don’t even know that. I just know that throughout the many years I hope to call you mine, you will see good days, and you will see bad days for life isn’t perfect and rainbows. I promise that no matter what type of day it is, that WE will get through it and that we at the end of the day will be ok…I promise!  As the years go by, there will be time for me to move on from teaching but there are just a few things I want you to remember. Remember that you mean the world to me, and I am oh so very thankful that you allowed me to share such a wonderful safe happy space. Know that I will have enjoyed every second of everyday entering and exiting your door. I thank you for all the good times and memories you have given me. I only ask one thing of you, be nice to the new teacher that may enter your room, for he or she is petrified and probably new. Show them the ways, and remember, in time they will show you more than you could ever dream of.

Sincerely,

Your future teacher

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Sundays are for....

Sundays are for waking up without an alarm 

Sundays are for staying in bed just because you can 

Sundays are for brunch 

Sundays are for sipping coffee slow and sweet over the paper 

Sundays are for staying in your pjs till 3 

Sundays are for snuggles with whom ever makes you smile 

Sundays are for day dreaming 

Sundays are for remembering, reminiscing, and reflecting 

Sundays are for starting over and waking up 

Sundays are for Netflix marathons 

Sundays are for reading and drinking tea slowly 

Sundays are for you, and whatever your heart wants to do 

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Insert number of day and the word challange

If you go on social media these days whether it be the book of face, or the twit tweeter, and the insta-gramcracker, you'll see some type of "I nominate (insert name here), to the (insert challenge name).  The main ones that i see are the infamous ice bucket challenge, write 3-5 things that you are thankful for, for five days, name 3-5 positive things that happened, for 5 days, etc. I myself was nominated for both ice bucket challenge (completed and donated) and then write what i was thankful for (I only got to three days).  With all of these challenges going about, I know that it can seem annoying because your stalker feed is just non-stop about the above said topics. But in the end, I think that these challenges give people that time to reflect on their days, and even when their days are the worst day ever, they sit and go actually 5 great things happened, or I am still thankful that i have these things in my life. Almost like because you are posting something to social media, you sit and find the light at the end of the dark tunnel.  Though, this post isn't about those challenges, its about the one thing that really caught my eye and this was the 100 days of happy challenge. Simply stated, you post pictures everyday for 100 days of things that make you happy and hashtag it with #100days.  Now my friends and sorority sisters have participated in this challenge and so normally I checked it out,  Now before I pledged my commitment of posting 100 days of boring happiness pictures on the instagram, I decided to make a list in my head. "i could post about my dog, family, friends individually, and the cliche boyfriend photo, and coffee the nectar of the gods, etc. But when I was done, i was only up to 20 days, and i realized "Shit Amanda you have 80 days to go" So I began to start thinking about my life, and actually reflecting on it.  I drank my tea, and began to look out my window all hipster and emo like, and then it hit me. I have changed, and yes some for the good but i feel like i lost a certain part of me. When I was younger, I used to be this wide eyed girl, that always shot for the moon and had this if I missed at least i was heading for the stars attitude, Sadly then I graduated college, and go thrown right into the "Real-world" and now i sit here at the age of 25, a little less wide eyed, and a lot less over-the-top-happy self. I feel like I have become hardened, frustrated with things i can't change, and very over the fact of being stuck. I get the saying of "give me strength for the things I can't change" but the things that i CANNOT change are the things that make me sad the most. I can't make my friends move closer, and I can't move to them (I have no money), and i can't make my student loans disappear (i am a teacher I will be in school forever), and i can't magically make my job pay me more money (Don't we all wish that).  i guess you could honestly say I am a 25 year old female going through a quarter-life crisis, struggling with the transition from kid to adult, and all trying to get my life in order. Now am i saying that I am not happy? No! because I am, and I am not saying that I am negative, because I am a positive person. i actually get the saying of "You are too nice, and too happy in the morning." And YES I know that I NOT alone with these feeling? Because I know that there are more than 100 25 year olds that feel the same way I feel. What I am saying, is that even though I like the person that I am now, I think that I could use a life make-over. (Okay Amanda enough with this babble). All of these things really got me thinking, and I guess I came up with my own challenge...a journey almost.  The journey to get my groove back, a challenge to find the girl that was once wide-eyed, and bring her back out of hiding. So i set fourth on my challenge, and if its done in a week great, 30 days, 365 days, so its going to take that long. The main thing is that I am doing it. No stopping after just a week, but to keep trying. Will it be hard? yes, Will i have my bad days and good days? Of course! But what I need to do, is stop getting in my own way, and just finding what really makes me happy, and allow for the things that make me sad and or angry to go away, and as TSWIFT would say "Shake it off" So to start off on a happier note, even though my friends are far, it makes me cherish my time more with them when I get my time with them. Even though I have student loans, at least I graduated college and have a degree. Though my job isn't much for pay, i am doing what I love, and at least I have a job in this utter crazy economy.  End crazy stupid babble. 

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My life story

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So for reasons that Grace is too classy to complain about, she’s no longer going to be uploading to the Daily Grace YouTube channel. A channel that, it turns out, she never owned and, in fact, all of the content that she produced there over the last three years is also not...

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I love grace!!!

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The holy trinity and the queen ♥

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All four perfect!

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I love these three so much!!

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NEW VIDEO: "The Most EPIC Infomercial EVER” - as always, I’ll be stalking/following people who reblog - especially if you reblog answering the question in my video!

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I love this man

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"It's ok to be fabulous AND flawed"

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When did that happen...

When did the line of adulthood come way too close for my liking, when did I turn 24 and when did I become old as dirt...Well at least I feel as old as dirt.  When did my life become waking up at the crack of dawn, going to work, coming home, cooking dinner, and then going to bed. When did my weekends become about catching up on a TV show, or getting "errands" done?  When did going to bed at 11 become late, and when did staying up after 1am a HUGE accomplishment.  Where did my long nights, long talks, and not caring about how many hours of sleep I got go? When did my problems become if I have enough money to pay my bills, or what gift am I going to get for the wedding? When did I have to schedule time to meet my friends because our schedules are full of doctors appointments, working late at the office, and having to be up early...When did all this happen...When did 24 years go?  When did I become an adult? 

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When life hands you lemons....

When life hands you lemons, the correct response would be "You make lemonade" Well I for one I have never been one for lemonade. So I revamp that statement by saying "When life hands you lemons, kindly exchange them for oranges and then find someones who's life has handed them champange or vodka and make a mimosa and or a screwdriver." 

When life knocks you down, you need to get back up. When you fall off the horse get back on and continue to ride. Well I revamp that saying "When life knocks you down, quickly get up, dust yourself off, and tell life that she hits like a bitch" 

Life is all about ups and downs, its about climbing mountains and trying not to drown in the ocean. Cause lets face it when we are growing up we keep going from pool to pool until you graduate college and then someone throws you into the deep end with out your floaties on, or drops you off into the middle of the ocean and they say good luck on trying to find your way back and don't drown while swimming.  

You wake up one day and are smack dab right in the middle of the real world and reality sets in.  24 and completely confused on where you are and what you are going to do with your life. 24 and no where, where you thought you would be when you were 18. Home doesn't feel like home, and your friends are either coming or going, and it seems like EVERYONE but you is getting their shit together...Having babies, getting married, a job in their major, making bank, living on their own, and there YOU are living at home, begging for a job that has to do with your degree, paying bills, and there in the next room your roommates oh wait I mean parents.  Everyone telling you that your day will come and everything just takes time, well time is a bitch, and waiting sucks, and yes I get that there is a light at the end of the tunnel but if someone could hurry up with that flashlight that would be GREAT!  

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Keep doing you kid

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I agree with this whole heartedly. 

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Just keep going with the flow of life

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Amen 

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When I get bored, I make what I call art. I love this quote! You just have to adapt to your surroundings and understand that you will always get through what you are going through. :) 

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Truth Johnny Depp....Truth