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[smokilisa]

*me making up a song*

"I feel like shiiit, and my chest huuurts, I should really get this checked ooout, but I don't have health insuranceeee"

[smokilisa]

I'm really fucking depressed. I keep remembering shit that I forgot, traumatic shit. I feel gross, angry. I don't know how to keep doing this but I know there is more memories buried in my brain. I don't recall most of my childhood, whatever I do remember isn't that great, everyone pretends like I had a great childhood but I don't believe that. I just don't know what to do. I love my job but I want to quit, when my family texts me I just want to throw my phone and scream. I want to be left the fuck alone but I fear being lonely. What do I do? How do I wade through my own head when I don't like what I find, but I can't escape it either not without ending everything including my progress. I am so lost.