Just Wanna Be Small

Call me Star or Levi/Trigger Warning/EDNOS/5'2/Canada/ SW:170/CW:178/UGW:110

[smolstarkid-blog]

Lmao guess who’s back and fatter than ever? 

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calorie log for november 11th, 2019

I don’t even wanna talk about it

[xanarexxxia]

me after listening to subliminals for two hours straight

[depression-healthy-carrier]

Anyone else kind of scared to get better like depression has taken everything and it is all I have left

[smolstarkid-blog]

looking at thinspo isn’t even keeping the binging urges away. maybe i should just give up and be fat and gross again

[madewithhappiness]

[smolstarkid-blog]

My brain has been screaming at me for pizza for the last hour and I’m going to have a fit honestly. I made the mistake of weighing myself and despite staying under 1200 calories I haven’t lost anything. If anything I gained extra water weight. I’m feeling so frustrated and discouraged, all I want to do is binge right now, but I know I’ll regret it in the morning, fuck it all T.T

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calorie log for november 10th, 2019

Breakfast Can of Gingerale- 130cal 1 Granny Smith Apple- 80cal

Total- 210cal

Lunch Spaghetti Marinara Frozen Meal- 210cal

Total- 420cal

Dinner 3 Cups of Honey Lemon Tea- 74cal Leftover Vegetable Soup- 79cal Lasagna w/ Meat Sauce Frozen Meal- 200cal

Total- 773cal

Net Calories for Today- 773cal

[ijustwanttobegoodenough1]

Sad but true.

[leathersmouth]

adults: so what do you want to do with your life?

me: i just wanna [OPENING GUITAR RIFF OF MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE’S “I’M NOT OKAY”]

[yasyaskovsk]

[naive-personality]

[extihnction]

[radiation-baby]

[genterie]

[fear-of-intimacyy]

me, to myself: it’s fine if you eat. It’s fine if you mess up and gain a little back. You’re fine, it’ll be a-okay, it’s all good kid.

My ed:

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calorie log for november 9th, 2019

Breakfast Leftover Taco Veggies and Sour Cream- 256cal

Total- 256cal

Lunch Bottle of Pepsi (710ml)- 300cal

Total- 556cal

Dinner Homemade Vegetable Soup- 79cal (I’d love to share this recipe, if anyone wants!) Can of Ginger Ale (355ml)- 130cal

Total- 765

Exercise 20 Minute Walk- (-81cal)

Net Calories for Today- 684cal