somewhere inside that night

andrew/19/songwriter they/them

[snowdaysforever]

“do you really like me for me” is one of the sadder things i’ve heard in my life

[snowdaysforever]

hi i’m back just to rant but i still can’t believe you stayed over and i don’t know how long i’m going to wait but i think i really love you and i don’t see this feeling ending anytime soon

[snowdaysforever]

FUCK

i think i still love you!

[snowdaysforever]

2017 is starting off by...something working

[snowdaysforever]

missing you

[snowdaysforever]

somebody please take care of me i don’t think i can do it all by myself

[doctor-autobot]

[snowdaysforever]

haven’t made a post here in awhile

i met you outside of the venue/restaurant and you asked me if you thought that your alternate name you used on facebook was okay after you asked me for a lighter. (i told you it was fine, but maybe had some weird implications, and i can still remember the pensive look you took on when i said that. you’re so expressive, it makes your paintings make sense) i had pall malls that week. i didn’t have any money so i went cheap and regretted it. they taste so bitter. i haven’t bought them again. it was electric, talking to you. i don’t know what it was. it still is, the past tense is a lie. i think i love you a little bit and i hope you never read this. you’ve screwed with me. i know you have your own emotional problems and i understand, oh i understand. kissing you made me dizzy and not having you around made me nauseous. you would show up and it was like the sun burst through for a second, and then, when you weren’t there, it was more like forgetting how the sun ever felt. you threw me for a loop, you still do. i don’t know how to describe it well. i’ve never been good at words. you’d disappear and i’d get upset. i’d delete you on social media, i’d block your number, but then when i saw you again i would admit to it and we would both laugh, and oh god i love your laugh. you were confused. i think you still are, from what i know of your situation. nothing’s ever easy. i don’t want it to be easy. i will stand at whatever distance you set and i’ll be your reflective surface until i am finally dried up, but i would love for you to jump in.  “i was worried you wouldn’t even pick up” “i’ll always pick up for you” you’d leave, and i would get upset again, this time vowing to not talk to you again. it’s harder when you call. it’s even harder when we’re next to one another. you make it hard to breathe. all my bravado, my prepared spiels, they vanish, ants under the magnifying glass of your smile. i have to keep finding new speechwriters because you keep firing them.  i can’t get enough of you. 

[sinfilth-moved]

self care is drinking 3 pots of coffee and getting into a knife fight w god

[junglefan2]

[snowdaysforever]

in other news, plan your acid trips

[snowdaysforever]

you know it’s funny when you meet somebody who you wind up liking a lot...it makes everything a little weirder

[snowdaysforever]

i haven’t made a substantial post here for a long time and that’s due to getting bored and also a massive decrease in my overall mental and emotional health.  come back to me

[snowdaysforever]

i’ve had a real shit time of it lately 

[snowdaysforever]

i haven’t been here forever

[snowdaysforever]

wow

[juviavevo]

instead of arguing whether pineapples should be on pizzas or not, we should all stand united in order to combat the real evil which is sparkling water