18+ && DD:DNE : THESE MUSES ARE FROM A HORROR GORE PORN GAME SERIES, TREAD WITH CAUTION.
an exploration of "stolkholm syndrome", becoming your abuser, guts, gore, snuff films, corrupted & toxic love, foxes, a basement full of bloody tools, survival no matter what it takes, chicken hearts and eating your heart out . . .
01. ONE RULE ONLY ; curate your own online space. we are a DD:DNE / DARK FIC writer which means we write anything. yes this includes [topic / theme] !! if this makes you uncomfortable, hard block us and move on !! DO NOT SOFT BLOCK US. muse does not equal admin. fiction does not equal reality. we tag everything with ' trigger cw '. we are all adults smashing together our barbies on tumblr dot com. i won't be tagging blood or gore on this blog, it's encompassed in every single part of his life and dynamics so, just assume it will be bought up or referenced, i can't be bothered tagging every single post with that cw.
OTHER INFO ; i can't read purple prose very well. i also won't write with people who write in 2nd person. i write / reply purely based on muse and not chronological order. i don't do exclusives, but i do tend to reply faster to people i have ooc rapport with. i only really have interest in ocs with people i talk to ooc so i can get a better sense of their character. asks and memes and prompts are always open to send and continue as threads and is the easiest way to start writing together. i enjoy formatting, i have no expectations on my partner's formatting besides writing enough for me to reply to and not huge or tiny icons.
OOC ; HOUND, he / she / &, 25+, NZST. i love fucked up characters and all their dynamics. my activity is sporadic at best due to offline life taking priority as i work and study. im deaf and schizo and audhd and bpd. happy to chat on stoat if we are writing together as i love screaming about our muses together !! CARRD IS WIP.
1) "I have been found wanting, Natalie thought; I have made myself unacceptable and am not worthy." - hangsaman, by shirley jackson
2) text: "meat must be beaten brutal into tenderness, that any body softens with violence, she grinds salt into the carcass, like a wound, a memory". image: a carcass of beef, cleaned, with the ribs on prominent display, painted in oils and rendered in thick strokes of red, orange, tan and white, on a plain dark red background. the text is cutouts on top, dark red text on light tan. - Family Portrait as Unfinished Meal, by Torrin A. Greathouse and Le Bœuf by Chaim Soutine. collage put together by @invisiblemonstrosity
3) a pale hand crushing ripe red strawberries, green leaves still attached, on a plain white background. - apparently by ouiloved on flickr, but they seem to have deleted.
4) bust photo of a tan person with a spotlight on them outside in the dark, head turned down, shoulder length messy wet black hair obscuring their face. their hand is raised to their chest and they are wearing a white tank top. fake blood is splattered and wiped around their chest and mouth. - i can't actually find this one all my attempts lead back to unsourced tumblr posts if you know where its from. help me
5: "You have no one who has any sort of consideration for you. You have had patience and endurance, and what have they done for you? Half-killed you." - carlyle’s house and other sketches, by virginia woolf
6: "try your whole life to be righteous and be good, wind up on your own floor, choking on blood" - sept 15th 1983, by the mountain goats
7: "such a waste of a girl, such rumination. i am obsessive. i contain nothing but the replay. i am blood and blood and replay. i am please don't go." - i put the coffin out to sea, by lisa marie basile
8: an image of a partially bald baby bird begging for food, drawn in the desaturated greens and black of a trailcam, on top, the text reads "i am asking you for something i need", on bottom, the text reads "why is it so hard to give it to me?" - trailcam baby, by @quezify
9: "was i raised without love? / or was i born unloveable?" - @psychwarded
10: "I, in my corner, with my monstrous needs." - As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh, susan sontag
11: "oh, i know that i'm not whole, and sometimes feel the flies swarming, like much of me is rotten." - roadkill ode, chad abushanab
12: a photo of a cut tree where much of the centre is rotted from fungus, accompanied by the text: "heart rot in pine. heart rot is the softening of a pine trees resinous heartwood, caused by an in-dwelling fungus. not all pines have it, but those that do make the excavation of a tree-hole next cavity easier for the red-cockaded woodpecker."
13: "rot made a home inside my body." - i know it's from "bloat" but cant find the authors name again. i think it starts with a c?
14: photo of an abandoned house in shades of brown and beige and orange, the walls are wet and scuffed and the drywall has been torn open in places, exposing the old lath. - abandoned, by @jaggedplains
15: photo of a mouldy strawberry, fading from bright red to grey-green fluff - Strawberry Gray Mold disease stock photo, by MediaProduction on gettyimages
16: "you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they're gonna find out" - tumblr post by @twoheadedfawnn
17: "we are meat, we are potential carcasses,' he once said. 'if i go into a butcher's shop i always think it is surprising that i wasn't there instead of the animal." - francis bacon
18: "you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth." - speeches for dr frankenstein, by margaret atwood
19: photo of a python hanging off a roof coiled around a black and white bird, poised to eat it - i heard some noise on the roof this morning, by candycane7 on reddit
20: "all that matters is that you want to hurt me. all that matters is that you want me." - when rome falls, by yves olade
21: "god told me i was forgiven and then he split me open" - god is made of hunger and i am made of dreams, by katie maria
22: "but this is not about love. once a pig is hung and cut straight, cut from rectum to neck, step inside her death like it is a room: that is how to touch her now. the lord said, you must not eat their meat or touch their carcasses. then came the end of the rib." - oh let's just be hogs, by gregory emilio
23: photo of a strawberry cut in half with its leaves attached. it is bright red, steel knife wet. the background is bright white and plain. - cut strawberry by liz west on flickr
24: photo of a handmade cloth sculpture of a dead autopsied pigeon, red zipper like an incision opening to its empty red interior, small cloth and thread organs arranged around it. - pandora: city pigeon, by jessica bartram
25: '"u need a therapist" actually i need to be euthanized' - tumblr post by deactivated user @122mg
ren will fall in love with anyone who is gentle or kind to him. even if its only once.
even if they follow it up with toture. he will focus on the gentleness that came first. he will chase it like a racing dog. even if he never catches it again.
he loves strade because of how he stitches him together, bathes him when we cant move, coos and encourages him, and buys him his favorite snacks while he's out if he's been good
whenever emily spoke, ren's ears stood to attention. he listened and absorbed every word that came from her lips. she was a preacher and her words a sacred sermon. the same was still true even for what may have simply been an idle thought voiced aloud. a twitch of the tip of his tail. ❝ emily, you can do whatever you want, you know ? you're ─ ❞ amazing. astounding. everything ❝ ─ capable of whatever you put your mind to. ❞
she will not just shove her hands inside his maw —that’s too intrusive— but instead stare at his canines very intensely while he eats. = ]
ren is always well aware of the environment around him. cameras were always on him in one form or another, and that included people's eyes. in life, he originally stood out among the crowd as his species. with strade, he was a star, always performing, and now in hell, while his form was . . . more normal compared to other's, he was now even more famous . . . infamous was maybe a better word ?? no laws holding anyone back from advertising his snuff films, or even one on one experiences with the sinner and a weapon of your choice. most of the population had seen ren's guts laid out, before they saw his face, or even knew his name . . . he knew when he was being watched, when he was performing for someone . . .
a bite into his piece of chicken, ( his favorite !! which means it pulled an extra amount of ferocity from him ) fangs digging and ripping flesh, both satisfying and obtrusive the action and noise, they were made for this task, of devouring another life, juice and sauce spilling over lips and enamel ( he was always a loud, messy eater ) , and he feels the intense stare on his mouth ─ his teeth ─ quickly finding the source.
❝ um ─ ❞ he starts, quickly licking what he could from his face, suddenly self conscious, blush spreading in his cheeks. ❝ emily, is there something stuck in my teeth ─ ❞ using a claw to dig in between his teeth, trying to pull out whatever she may have been staring at.
busy body, nosy do gooder, buzzing bee to honeysuckle she. second nature, nothing less than the familiarity of using long limbs, to check up on those within her retinue. he was jumpy, she'd noticed right off the bat, settled her chirpy demeanor and allowed vaggie to handle room negotiations; i'll check on him later! she promised, heeding the stern flash of warning in the angel's steel greys, calming her easy with the assurance that she wouldn't go too far. it'd been some time since then, and her checks came round like clockwork.
some sinners could be jumpy, agitated and flighty, paranoid and vicious. she could sympathize, ren was especially so. it showed in the little details that seemed to make up him, what brief glimpses she'd seen anyways. where she lingered in well remembered hallways, a dreamy figure to keep sound eyes and ears on all her guests, what few they had, as best she could ── when she could. if they weren't comfortable, safe, secure, then she was sorely failing. how could one better themselves fighting at the shadows around them with naught a speck of light in the endless dark? even the midnight sky needed stars to see morning through. she'd hoped, baited breaths and fidgety fingers, that with enough time and care ren might find a sanctuary where there seemed little. improvement seemed difficult to gauge but she thought, believed, with enough encouragement he'd soon get there!
color her shocked, parted lips and bewildered brows in stark replacement of cheerfully anxious regularity, startled out of speaking at the demolition behind his door ── she's slow to scan, trail her red gaze from the erratic display to the wild, hunched figure. however confused she may be, oh, her heart hurt to see him this way. worry rises up, surges, in great waves; a flood to sweep any caught in her tide. she cracks the door open further, a soft crunch of glass under darkly heeled boot in her entry. light flicked on, and she carefully closes the door behind her, allowing for privacy. whatever happened here, prying eyes need not see, he didn't deserve to have his business aired out; this was no freak show.
she's as light as air approaching, kneeling down on long legs clad in black, sharp knees, and smooths her fingertips across the surface of his glass held paws. not grabbing, simply skimming the surface, speaking in soft shushes and worried lilts.
❝ hey, hey. sshhh. are you okay, ren? focus on me. ❞
they could work on clean up later, for now she had to get him calmer, as calm as the fox could be anyways which ... didn't seem like much, really, but a start was a start. she tries to hide the downward curve of her lips at the deep gashes, raised red, oozing and painful, suppresses her wince. the gore under his claws and the shine on his teeth told her enough, and she does her best not to linger. she doesn't quite touch the area, no, instead gestures with a brush of her index finger and sweeps concerned saucer plate eyes up to capture his own in hers.
❝ we'll get you cleaned up, first. don't worry about this, really. but, what── what happened? do you want to talk about it? ❞
he fails to remove himself from his instincts, fight or flight, freeze or fawn. he had done something wrong, he had broken unspoken rules. there had to be punishment. always punishment. and the longer delay between the act and the consequence, the worse it was. fear and anxiety would build and build until ren would be stumbling over himself to make himself useful and keep out of the way, small and polite, how he's meant to be . . . a well trained dog. strade made it that way, and vox took advantage of already established habits.
the fox flinches at her gentle touch. it's not made for him. it's misleading. it's a trap. a venus fly trap. sickly sweet, but his nerves scream of the teeth closing in, fur standing on end. charlie, you have cornered a wild animal. but . . . her sickly sweet voice and gentle touch, draws him in. ren jumps head first into this trap. if it means more gentle touches. more reassurances. he didn't care what came after. he'll savor the poison if sweet enough.
focus. her voice and touch brings him back. pulling him slowly out of crisis mode, trembling under her kind hands as dilated eyes lock with hers, her reflection in the yellow hues. ❝ i don't know ─ it was all of a sudden . . . ❞ he thinks desperately on when he got back to the hotel. trying to think of some trigger, but the more he thought, the more it just felt like he had been boiling for a long time . . . he had the chance to be free and he denied himself . . . ❝ he keeps killing me. it hurts when i come back, more and more . . . ❞ who is he without his ouroboros ?? he complained but he went back when given the chance . . . ❝ this is so stupid ─ i'm so stupid ─ i might just live in the tower ─ i'm wasting everyone's time ─ your time by being here ─ by trying ─ i wanted this ─ ❞
of Dom/Sub/Switch flavors || all acts are consensual. || REVERSE! highly encouraged.
DIALOGUE - dom.
"That's it, baby. You are almost there. Just a little more."
"Fuck, you are so beautiful like this."
"Shh, ah-ah, not a sound, baby."
"God, you're fucking soaked down there."
"Take it all, it's all yours."
"Holy shit, your mouth is dangerous."
"God, you're so fucking tight."
"I want to be down here forever."
"Swallow, baby, all of it."
"That's my good girl."
"That's my good boy."
"Woah, slow down darling, I am not going anywhere."
"Eyes on me. Don't you look away now."
"Ask me, baby. Ask me for more. You know how to."
"Louder, I can't hear you."
"Show me how much you want it."
DIALOGUE- sub.
"I can't. I can't anymore. Please."
"I am close. So fucking close."
"Don't stop, please."
"Fuck, you are vicious. I want more."
"Give it to me."
"If you stop right now, I am going to fucking kill you!"
"God, you are in so deep."
"Is that all you've got?"
"Punish me."
"You feel so good. I am going to lose my mind."
"Stay down there, I am not done with you."
"Do I taste good? Show me how much you like it."
"Let me sit on your face when I cum."
"Keep going. Keep fucking going."
ACTION - sender focused.
(attach REVERSE! to switch roles)
sender trails kisses on receiver's stomach and leaves a trail of hickeys.
sender drags their tongue over receiver's inner thigh before biting it.
sender grinds on receiver from behind while both are dressed.
sender grinds on receiver from behind while both are undressed.
sender nibbles on receiver's earlobe while fingering the receiver.
sender grunts/moans against receiver's neck while finishing inside the receiver.
sender masturbates to reach an orgasm while the receiver is watching.
sender chokes the receiver while fucking the receiver roughly.
sender grips receiver's head while riding receiver's face.
sender performs oral on receiver under the table.
sender puts a pillow under receiver's hips.
sender puts a blind fold on receiver.
sender spends a long time kissing receiver's body.
sender rides the receiver with hands handcuffed behind receiver's head.
ACTION - receiver focused.
(attach REVERSE! to switch roles)
receiver pulls sender into their lap to kiss their neck.
receiver tugs on sender's hair to get sender down on their knees.
receiver dragging their tongue over receiver's navel to follow a trail down.
receiver grips the pillow while sender is overstimulating them.
receiver getting fingered by sender in a public setting.
receiver performing oral on blindfolded sender.
receiver orgasms while getting edged by sender.
receiver spends a long time kissing sender's body.
receiver spilling a drink on themselves to have sender undress them.
receiver gripping the back of sender's head while fucking them in the shower.
receiver gripping sender's hips to finish inside the sender.
receiver kissing sender while both orgasm simultaneously.
up high in the VEE TOWER there wasn't much commotion going about. it was a slow day , which was emphasized by the loudness of sharp CLAWS tapping against the tempered glass of VOX'S private aquarium.
in the tank there still floated REMAINS of the last unlucky employee who had walked in at the wrong time.
[ there was never a right time to disturb him when he was down here , in his chambers ]
it was times like these that he wished that his little PET could reform faster. watching the old floating patches of FUR that he could see begin to bob to the top was getting terribly boring. even the fresh KILL from moments ago couldn't excite him.
finally , though , his MILLIONS OF EYES all around the city lit up in recognition of his current favourite TOY [ well , his favourite whenever VAL was pissy and ALASTOR didn't want to play ]
in an instant , he was there right by the LITTLE SINNER'S side , slightly outside THE TOWER whether he wanted him to be or not.
❛ REN ! there's my favourite little guy , my my , you came back quite far from home. almost like YOU were trying to manifest away from me. c'mon , that's not the case though , right ? i mean , it's not like YOU'RE actually scared after that little . . . FEEDING SESSION. and if you are then that's just not fair. YOU were the one who wanted to see what SHOK.WAV ate. ❜
not to mention , HE was late coming back to the PENTHOUSE the night before. surely there was no correlation though.
ren's fur reacts to the electricity before he even hears it or sees it. standing on end to the static charge that approached him, buzzing that suddenly results in vox appearing by his side in a bright flash.
he was still gaining feeling back in his digits, flexing fingers to try and bring them back to life, other hand gripping at his own wrist, claws digging into flesh, red trickles down his skin, like an offering for mercy. but he knows it'll never come. an ear twitch. the worse the death, the longer it took for him to come back to his senses.
❝ no, sir. ❞ ren quickly reassures, loud and sure of himself, well practiced in his show of submission. he almost utters a retaliation, ( he's a wild animal still after all, chained and collared but not domesticated ) . a defense, but it goes unvoiced, energy forced out through his fingertips instead. one more deep dig into his wrist before he releases himself from his own onslaught, meeting the overlord's screen with yellow eyes.
❝ i'm not scared. i was just . . . getting some fresh air before i came back inside. i . . . haven't been here long. ❞ he could still feel the echos of teeth tearing him apart ─ predator or prey, ren never knew where he was meant to fall anymore. ❝ i was on my way back inside, ❞ he repeats, as if a mantra or a reassurance.