Verdant Knight

((Indie RP blog for Stahl from FE13. OCs and other fandoms are welcome! Multi-ship, in the sense that each ship is a different universe unless stated.))

[snuggly-stahl]

Reblog this if you'd like to rp with a Stahl?

[snuggly-stahl]

what

[snuggly-stahl]

i mostLY POPPED IN TO SEND SOME ASKS SORRY

[mawiler-deactivated20160519]

Warning for Trans Youth in Southern Ontario

Avoid Dr. Kenneth Zucker of the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health (CAMH) in Toronto. He will not help you in any way and upon asking many invasive, disrespectful, and irrelevant questions, he will suggest you undergo “reparative therapy” to “fix” you (pictured above). When he finishes writing his “report”, which can take months, he will refer to you in an extremely dehumanizing manner that makes you out to be some kind of oddity (eg “He seems very interested in having breasts.”) and he will not respect your gender or use the correct pronouns whatsoever. Not only that, but when he requests your report cards and school pictures (???) he will really take his time in giving them back when you ask him to. Good luck contacting him outside of an appointment, too, as he very rarely, if ever, responds to emails or phone calls. He has stated he considers trans women a “bad outcome of gay men.” Don’t waste your time with this transphobic piece of shit.

[wistfulwispsofwhite-deactivated]

SIGNAL BOOOOOOOST

[kayeych]

Yes yes yes I’m so happy people are talking about this. That clinic works under the old DSM criteria. If you are looking for physical health or mental health or family support around gender please contact Rainbow Health Ontario or the new trans clinic at Sick Kids.

A lot of parents especially go to that clinic with their kids because it’s affiliated with such a well know national agency and they assume it will be the best support. If you hear anyone talking about it please correct them, it is very harmful. :(

[phryne-fish]

I wrote a post last year about an amazing Ontario doctor who specializes in health-care for trans youth, Dr. Carys Massarella. She is the lead Physician of the Transcare Program at Quest Community Health Centre in St. Catharine’s, and is currently one of only three ‘non-pathologizing’ trans-care health providers in Ontario. ‘Non-Pathologizing’ means that when a trans-patient comes in to speak with her about care and care options, their trans identity is:

 not questioned

 not treated as something needing to be fixed

 not pathologized as a mental illness which requires a psychiatric evaluation before proceeding with care options.  

If you’re a trans youth looking for health-care (or know any trans youth whose families are hoping to get medical support for them), please DO NOT go to/recommend Dr. Zucker at CAMH. He is severely transphobic and is only looking to ‘fix’ trans kids who he thinks are ‘confused’. Instead, two hospitals that are doing good work for transfolks in the GTA and surrounding area are St. Mike’s in Toronto and St. Joseph’s in Hamilton. Both are (surprisingly) Catholic hospitals, but have made reputations for themselves as providing ethical care for the LGBTQ community. Carys herself is a member of the St. Joseph’s health staff, and says that her transition was embraced at the hospital and its catholic staff, including its nuns. As well, Dr. Massarella’s practice, Quest Community Heath Centre, is a fantastic resource if you can get out to St. Catherine’s. 

[disgustinghuman]

Reblogging for new information

[sheretic]

Personally been hearing some things about CAMH that run the gamut from “sketchy” to “terrifying” for years now from people I personally know, so like, boosting.

[austene3]

OFFICER ON DECK!

[queerjock]

cutie reporting for duty

[frommemetoyou]

In the spirit of Sexual Sunday, tell me one kink you can see my muse having.

[snuggly-stahl]

[gothic1997]

when someone walks into a room where you are playing piano and they are very surprised to see you playing the piano

[snuggly-stahl]

Ayy

[casualceramics]

[caterville]

[feroleplayconfessions]

I’d love to give a shoutout to snuggly-stahl. If I recall right it was thanks to her that I’d gotten more info on my Morgan when I’d first started. Not only that, but she’s just an amazing person out of character. And how she portrays Stahl is amazing! Should you guys not be following her I highly recommend that you do!

Shout Out by lostmemorytactics

[themiseryofsilence]

I want the K, lunch buddy!

21: AND THEN THERE’S TONGUE

(( GONNA MAKE THIS SHIPPY AND ALL THAT BCAUSE WHYT THE FUCK NOIT ))

After their usual lunch together, Soren approached Stahl with a slight smirk showing on the corner of his mouth.

"Hm, ‘lunch buddy’," he chuckled to himself, “if it’s not.. too much trouble, there are other types of ‘buddies’ I want to be with you..” he said in a low whisper. He pressed his lips to Stahl’s, kissing him softly but passionately, and playfully flicked his tongue on his lip.

[themiseryofsilence]

"Ah.." he looked down and chewed his lip.

”.. As did I.”

[snuggly-stahl]

"So, um... Maybe we could have dinner together, too...?"

[themiseryofsilence]

⚓

1: Bubble bath

The two sat together, facing each other, in a small, cramped bath tub. The bubbles that Stahl had insisted that they added we up to Soren’s shoulders, much to his annoyance. He blew bubbles away from his face.

"Why did you think that this was a good idea?"

[themiseryofsilence]

Soren sighed and did the same in response.

[snuggly-stahl]

He splashed at him again, this time a bit harder, but not enough to end up hitting him in the face.

[themiseryofsilence]

I want the K, lunch buddy!

21: AND THEN THERE’S TONGUE

(( GONNA MAKE THIS SHIPPY AND ALL THAT BCAUSE WHYT THE FUCK NOIT ))

After their usual lunch together, Soren approached Stahl with a slight smirk showing on the corner of his mouth.

"Hm, ‘lunch buddy’," he chuckled to himself, “if it’s not.. too much trouble, there are other types of ‘buddies’ I want to be with you..” he said in a low whisper. He pressed his lips to Stahl’s, kissing him softly but passionately, and playfully flicked his tongue on his lip.

[themiseryofsilence]

"… I know it was weird, but did you at least like the kiss?" Soren asked awkwardly.

[snuggly-stahl]

"Y-yeah, I did." He sheepishly laughed.

[themiseryofsilence]

⚓

1: Bubble bath

The two sat together, facing each other, in a small, cramped bath tub. The bubbles that Stahl had insisted that they added we up to Soren’s shoulders, much to his annoyance. He blew bubbles away from his face.

"Why did you think that this was a good idea?"

[themiseryofsilence]

"… I suppose it is rather relaxing." Soren muttered quietly. He frowned and nudged Stahl’s feet in return.

[snuggly-stahl]

"See? This is nice." He grinned, this time making a small wave in Soren's direction with his hand.

[themiseryofsilence]

I want the K, lunch buddy!

21: AND THEN THERE’S TONGUE

(( GONNA MAKE THIS SHIPPY AND ALL THAT BCAUSE WHYT THE FUCK NOIT ))

After their usual lunch together, Soren approached Stahl with a slight smirk showing on the corner of his mouth.

"Hm, ‘lunch buddy’," he chuckled to himself, “if it’s not.. too much trouble, there are other types of ‘buddies’ I want to be with you..” he said in a low whisper. He pressed his lips to Stahl’s, kissing him softly but passionately, and playfully flicked his tongue on his lip.

[themiseryofsilence]

Soren sighed and hid his face in Stahl’s shirt.

[snuggly-stahl]

He gave the mage's hair a soft pat, smiling though his face was still red.

[lamebee]

i have the best friends in the world!

[pawlyssuh]

holy shit your victim complex is incredible

[fleshbra]

*i have the most coddling, chickenshit liberal friends in the world!

[rnoonpie]

hahaha because HOW DARE someone feel like shit for being told to die because of their gender identity right that is HILARIOUS what a terrific joke

[macklemorehentai-deactivated201]

Cis people have absolutely no right to complain about being bullied based on gender identity.

[rnoonpie]

Alright. I just spent about a half hour writing a reply to this from my phone, and Tumblr’s shitty ass mobile app ate the post when I tried to send it, so I’m just going to try again from my computer, from scratch, because I am that angry about this idea.

Let me explain to you a goddamn thing.

I’m going to start and explain my exact level of privilege if it concerns you so much. I am a 22-year-old white, cis, pansexual woman raised Mormon, now ex-Mormon because its culture is full of shitty homophobia, misogyny, internalized racism, rape culture-enforcing, victim blaming, and all other kinds of toxic bullshit that would give me full-blown, hyperventilating, nauseating panic attacks every Sunday.

With that out of the way, I’m going to say this: Is cisbullying as severe or widespread as trans*phobia? Does it has as much of a history as cisphobia? No. No, it absolutely does not. Trans*phobia is a severe problem and cisphobia is a slap on the wrist compared to trans*phobia, which has a history of bloodshed and cruelty and discrimination. I am aware of this. I’m not an idiot.

But cisphobia is still an actual, real thing, and it’s a hypocritical, counterproductive movement that I frankly think is complete and utter bullshit. No one on God’s green earth has the fucking right to tell another human being to die based on their gender identity. I seriously cannot understand how anybody can possibly think this is okay, especially trans*, gender fluid, gender neutral, and other nonbinary individuals, who understand oppression the greatest and know how shitty it feels to be reduced to your identity and ridiculed for it. 

"Well, we’re oppressed, so it’s okay." No. No it is fucking not okay, you spoiled infants. You do not get a get out of jail free card just for being nonbinary. You are being a shitty person, attacking someone for the gender identity they have no control of, and then wonder why everyone’s so upset with you. “Waaah, all I did was tell another human being they shouldn’t be alive and that their opinions don’t matter!! Why are you getting so upset with me?” Do you not see how immature and problematic this attitude is? Yes, being cis is the majority. I understand that. But it is absolutely hypocritical and downright idiotic to think that it’s even remotely okay to attack every cis person based on this judgment, and then turn around and claim that you want equality for everyone, bullying is wrong, no one should be oppressed, because you’re clearly so full of shit that you are the envy of septic tanks everywhere. Nonbinary people as a group are not precious perfect angels, just as cis people are not precious perfect angels. There are shitty, toxic people in every group, without exception. There are good people and bad people in every group, and your gender identity does not define that.

By coincidence, all of my very closest friends identify as trans*, gender neutral, gender fluid, and even intersex, respectively. I am the only cis person in my inner circle. I really honestly do not give half a shit about this fact, being the only cis person. Okay, whatever, it’s what I was born as. But don’t you fucking dare tell me that I’m automatically the shittiest person in the group for the sole fact that I am cis.

I love my friends more than I can explain and I will fight tooth and nail for their rights and their freedom, because I want them to use whatever fucking bathroom they want, I want them to have access to medical care to transition if they want, I want them to be able to live peacefully and happily and be comfortable with themselves and not deal with assholes who would try to hurt them just for who and what they are.

I use my cis privilege to educate other cis people about the struggles minorities go through. I am listened to, understood, and I’ve even broadened the horizons of many of my friends and family, just by coming out as bisexual (pansexual was a very recent self-acceptance, and I am educating about that too). Am I a special snowflake for this? Again, no. I absolutely am not a special snowflake. I’m being a goddamn decent human being and I don’t expect a fucking pat on the back for what I do and say in support of the trans* community.

But I absolutely will not tolerate other people making my cis friends feel like shit for who they are under the extremely flawed and immature reasoning of “well they’re cis, so they have no right”.

Bull. Fucking. Shit.

I’m pansexual. I have been aware of my same-sex attraction my entire life, and then more as I grew up and became educated and learned to recognize the full spectrum of my sexual attractions, and I’ve been very acutely aware that people believe that I’m automatically a whore, a cheater, ‘confused’, ‘just a lesbian who won’t admit it and still has a foot in the closet’. 

Don’t forget I was raised Mormon and had to endure 19 years of hearing people preach how people like me were going to hell, were ‘wrong’ or ‘broken’ somehow, influenced by the Devil, and having to smile and nod along with them out of terror of rejection and being kicked out of my home and ostracized by my entire Mormon family on both sides, or being forced to a conversion camp to be ‘fixed’ so I could be ‘normal’ and go to Heaven with everyone else. I think I have a fucking taste of what trans people go through, thank you very much. Not a full, exact, identical understanding, but a taste. That much fear and oppression for a taste.

The only cis people who have no right to complain about being bullied are the ones who actively are transphobic and bully nonbinary individuals, and even then, it should have nothing to do with their cissexuality, but with how they are behaving.

Don’t you fucking dare tell me I’m not allowed to complain when I’m being wronged. Just don’t you fucking even.

I’m fucking done. And if you’re going to go ahead and unfollow me, by all means go ahead because I want nothing to do with your toxic, backwards bullshit.

[sparklyjacquelee]

I still honestly don’t understand how this works. You see some people hating on people who make their lives miserable and you automatically assume that because they use a term that applies to all of those people, you are meant too and this is bullying. 

Yes, I am cis. No, I have no problem with trans people saying all cis people should die. Same goes for black people saying all white people should die. Because it doesn’t work like this. They can’t harm me. At all. I can harm them. This whole essay is a good example of how cis people harm trans people every day by making everything about them, by belittling their struggles with stories of their own abuse. And for the record, no, I do not mean to belittle your abuse in any way, what you went through is terrible.

To say I am a good person and nobody is allowed to vent their anger at a group of people who harm them every day but who they can’t harm even a little bit except for maybe hurting their feelings is the most contraproductive thing you can do. Because with that you put the oppressed group back in their place. Just be quiet, don’t speak up, don’t be angry, be polite, be nice, be careful because when you don’t specify exactly who you mean when you vent your anger, you’ll get a hundred people telling you how wrong you are and how much of a toxic backwards bullshit you’re spreading. 

Again, I honestly don’t understand this attitude, especially from someone who was never allowed to speak up for themselves.  

Oh, and again for the record: No, I do not have trans friends. I didn’t know that was required for being a decent human being who understands the difference between being bullied and people venting legitimate anger and frustration in a presumed safe space. 

[rnoonpie]

I never said that oppressed people should not be allowed to express their anger. I understand that anger and frustration, especially when you’re being told to shut up. By all means, be angry. Scream and shout and stamp your feet and let people know you’re angry, just like I’m doing right now. I understand because I’ve been angry for being oppressed. It just boggles my mind that people out there legitimately believe that wishing death on people is the way to go about this. Death threats. 

I mean, how fucking hard is it to say “People who actively oppress me are jackasses, they make me so angry and I hate them, fuck that shit”? Like do you seriously need to say “THIS ENTIRE GROUP WHICH INCLUDES INDIVIDUALS WHO SUPPORT MY CAUSE NEEDS TO DIE, BECAUSE SOME OF THEM OPPRESS ME.” Because, yes you should specify exactly who you mean or else you’re gonna get some fucking backlash. I know that the “cis people should die” claim doesn’t affect me because I’d like to think I’m not a shitty person. But I’m goddamned irritated that it’s a blanket term for an entire group of people that lumps me in with assholes that would harm minorities as much as they can. Of course I’m fucking angry.

“Oh, and again for the record: No, I do not have trans friends. I didn’t know that was required for being a decent human being who understands the difference between being bullied and people venting legitimate anger and frustration in a presumed safe space.” 

Let me just stop you right there.

First of all, Tumblr is not a safe place. Nowhere on the Internet is a “safe place” to spout hate speech and expect no retaliation, unless you’re in some private forum that’s specifically for trans* support. Because that’s just fucking ridiculous. Freedom of speech means the government can’t shut you up, not that you can just say whatever you want and no one’s allowed to give you shit if they disagree with what you say. This is a two way street. As you demonstrated by disagreeing with me, and that’s fine. I’m explaining why I’m angry and people are welcome to disagree because that’s their goddamn right. 

But Tumblr, like any place on the Internet, isn’t a safe space because it’s a public community where any person from any walk of life can see your content and make a decision to challenge you on it. 

”[…]the difference between being bullied and people venting legitimate anger and frustration[…]”

I do understand the difference, because I’m not a goddamn child, and it’s exactly why I’m furious.

And no, don’t you fucking twist my words. Having trans friends is NOT a “requirement” for being a decent human being, and don’t you dare even imply I treat people that way, especially not my friends, so help me God. That’s like saying “I’m not racist; I have black friends!” and then turning around and being a racist shithead anyway, like using your black friends as tools to prove your “lack of racism”.

I met each of these people not knowing their identities, just loving them for who they were, and things just came out. My best friend I’ve known since I was 5 years old? It wasn’t until I was 18 or so that she told me she was asexual, and even later that it was understood she’s more gender neutral with feminine leanings. The intersex friend told me about themself after we’d been friends for a couple of years. Nothing’s changed; we carry on as usual. Meeting other friends during teenaged years, under assumptions they were cis, then being educated as they explored their identities and became comfortable with themselves and explained their nonbinary genders. When a friend tells me “by the way, can you call me ____ now and use X pronouns?” I fucking do it, no questions asked, because I love and respect them, even if adjusting to different pronouns for longterm friends is difficult. (And it’s a goddamn walk in the park compared to what they’re going through, so I’m not even going to think about complaining about that.)

If your friendship with people revolves around their gender and/or sexual identities, so you can prove you’re not a homo/trans*phobe, go fuck yourself. I make friends with people based off of how much I like what they have to say, and if I think they’re a nice person. 

“This whole essay is a good example of how cis people harm trans people every day by making everything about them.”

IT FUCKING CONCERNS US BECAUSE YOU. ARE. ATTACKING. US.Like we’re not fucking allowed to be upset, either? Which I really don’t understand at all? I’m not asking for a fucking cis pride parade because I’m a little butthurt (which I’m not, and the idea of a cis pride parade makes me laugh), I’d just kind of NOT LIKE TO GET TOLD I NEED TO DIE FOR NO GOOD FUCKING REASON. And most of the time it’s not even trans people doing the attacking. Funnily enough, it’s MOSTLY CIS PEOPLE I SEE DOING THIS. Yes, trans people do it! I’m not fucking ignoring them. They’re guilty of it. I will absolutely acknowledge any examples thrown my way.

I would never belittle the abuse trans* people go through. But you know what, I don’t care if you’re cis or trans* or otherkin or whatever, if you’re acting like a jackass over something like this, I’m going to get mad because you’re acting like a jackass, not because you’re a minority.

And you know what else, I hate that there’s a goddamn “oppression hierarchy" going around here on Tumblr. Like, if you’re not oppressed enough, you’re not allowed to have opinions on things. My level of oppression is “cis white, so I’m scum, but I’m a woman, so I obviously need protecting, and I’m pansexual, so I’m a super precious bitty baby who can do no wrong! Oh no, add my invisible mental illnesses in there too (I’m being medicated and undergoing therapy for severe anxiety and depression, I’ve dealt with Attention Deficit Disorder my whole life and had to drop out of high school because of it and never graduated as a result, I have bipolar tendency manic-depressive states, and to top it all off I have a fucking neurological hearing disorder that makes me want to fucking murder people for the sounds they make when they eat. Misophonia, look it up. If that doesn’t make me sound batshit fucking insane, I don’t know what does.) if anyone really, really wants to know, which I’m sure no one does, but. You know. Just in case. So with these ups and downs, like…where does that even leave a person? They’re white and cis so they suck, but they’re also a queer, mentally ill woman, so they can do no wrong? By all accounts, it doesn’t make any sense. That’s why I’m calling this all bullshit. 

Because shaming people for their race, sexual orientation, and/or gender identities, no matter how oppressed or not, is fucking bullshit.