[weltenwellen]

Hanif Abdurraqib, A Little Devil in America: Notes in Praise of Black Performance

[stuckinapril]

Tbh

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, “When My Friend Is Low, We Walk by the River”, Instructions for Traveling West

[mournfulroses]

Charles Baudelaire, from a letter featured in The Selected Letters of Charles Baudelaire

[medusaistearful]

I've been unraveling for years. It wasn't sudden. I vanished little more each day. I'm not asking to be saved. I don't believe in saving. Transactions. That's my truth. What benefit do I bring to you.

But some days I just drown in this fog. It sits in my bones, thick, suffocating and endless. That's worse to see no end to it. But some days I just watch it rise and I pretend I'm not sinking further. That I'm not fading.

I pretend and pretend so well. A smile plastered on my face that I forget to tell myself the truth. That I'm dying inside yearning to escape my own skin and run away from who I am.

[weltenwellen]

Ocean Vuong, The Emperor of Gladness

[weltenwellen]

Warsan Shire, from “Backwards”, Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head

[sorrrowfull]

[angelicdewdrop]

[petalsinfall]

[heavensghost]

I know I could have loved you but you would not let me

[expressions-of-nature]

by Arseny Kashkarov

[leoaries]

not to be dramatic but! my bedroom windows!

[leoaries]

october update

[leoaries]

forgot about november but here's a december update

[leoaries]

february update finally got string lights but not enough also this plant is slowly taking over my life

[ayliffe]

– R. Todd, 1925

[fromhersoul]

[weltenwellen]

Czeslaw Milosz, New and Collected Poems: 1931-2001

[typewriter-worries]

[ Text ID:

I would like even yet to see clearly,

To not lie to anybody, or to myself,

And to invoke, supposing they were there,

my good intentions. ]

[queengreendown]

In general, I want someone to share my tastes with. My sensibilities. I'm curious about what I'm capable of, and I would like someone to be curious alongside me...with the same gentleness that they [should] give themselves. And it need not be a prison. It need not be a promise that can't be kept. I wish we could share freedom with each other. The question I want to ask you is: do you know how to go home? Are you skilled at returning to yourself with your dignity intact?