Slight recovery?
I haven’t posted in a long while, because I got a new job which is taking up a lot of my time.
This brings up a whole loads of different issues and coping mechanisms which I don’t want to think about now, at 7pm on a relaxing Sunday night, but it has been very distracting, which I suppose is a good thing.
I’m actually working with my friend I was talking about, my #thinspo, and seeing her more often has helped me put her and the issues I have into perspective. Almost like removing the veil of delusion I had about her and how she lives. She’s also my best friend and has been through some shit herself so we talk a lot about that and everything else.
I also have my music which is invaluable therapy. I’m learning the flute, I’m about grade 2 (I’ll be taking my exam soon but it’s not a priority since it’s not the reason I started) and that hour is my favourite hour of the week.
Mia is still there, but quieter now. I’ve put on weight over the past year but not excessively, so while I want to slim down I’m not obsessing over it like I was before. I know that given half the chance I would jump on any option to help me lose weight so I’m actively trying to avoid those kinds of places and situations.
I have however recently become vegetarian. Partly because of the health implications and partly moral. I’ve found a lot of really nice meat-free alternatives so husband isn’t affected too much, but it turns out he likes them too! He just needs to add some chicken now and again.
So, here’s to recovery, to not counting calories, and to being vaguely comfortable in my own skin.
