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[socialzorua]

The worst part about being gay and learning later in life is how hard crushes hit you. I never really had crushes when I was younger and now when I have them as a grown adult, they hit me like a truck. I honesty feel feral and need to go back to therapy because how else can I get this all out.

[socialzorua]

I know this has been discussed but one of my favorite parts about Imogen and Launda is how they care for each other. Imogen knows that Launda has a fear of her agency being taken from her so she is always trying to give Launda that.

Whether it be when she brought her back or now with the freaking kiss. She always ask and gives Launda a choice. “Can I kiss you?” Ugh Imogen Temult, I love your gay little heart. Launda is so obvious in her care for Imogen and trying to comfort her with her dreams and always encouraging her. But Imogen always doing her best to give Launda agency in any situation will always make me emotional. They are meant to be

[socialzorua]

What I can’t wait for is the 4 sided dive where Laura tells us she’s been planning this from the beginning but then Launda broke Imogens rock and they kept having gay drama.

[youngbloodbuzz]

i still cannot get over the fucking implications they've been in a situationship since the beginning and have possibly already kissed before. like are you telling me we were RIGHT and they were basically "married" since the beginning but moved SO fucking slow and they only just NOW kissed (again possibly)

i need these two on the next 4 sided dive so fucking bad I NEED ANSWERS

[socialzorua]

Other ppl have mentioned and covered a lot of the points about how Imogen screams queer (other than her relationship with Launda) but I need to scream more about Imogen Temult.

The reason Imogen is much an obvious metaphor for queerness because she has been so othered during her life. She’s raised by a father and I’m sure they were close but once her powers come into play, he distanced himself and so everyone else. God if that doesn’t ring true to so many ppls coming out story. Imogens dad doesn’t even want to feel this way towards Imogen. He loves her but she makes him so uncomfortable. He’s also worried about what other ppl think because they aren’t a fan of her either. Just her being makes him keep her at arms length. I loved the Matt described it as a “gulf” between them. Because that’s it right there. Not all homophobia parents are “I hate you now and I’m gonna disown you.” So many homophobia parents say “I love you” but their kids can feel the new distance btw them. Yeah it’s okay that you’re gay but suddenly your relationship with them is changed. There are awkward pauses where there wasn’t before and hugs are more rare and slowly but also suddenly everything is different. It’s just so obvious with Imogen even without Laura having to say it all explicitly.

[socialzorua]

I love the way Laura and Matt handled Imogen returning to her home town. As a southern woman from a small town watching Imogen try to avoid it so hard was so relatable. It’s familiar and she hates it. Not just cause she left on bad terms but because it felt like a prison of her own making for literally years. She was so miserable and isolated because of her powers and didn’t even completely realize it till she left with Launda. Imogen is one of the some relatable characters Critical Role has ever made. She tried so hard to fit in and be small so her small town and her dad would accept her but it never truly worked. Her dad always keep her at arms length and the town saw her as an oddball. Imogen accepted this for years until she stop because she stood up for Launda. A woman who was so similar to her and was so kind to her. It’s so hard to fight for ourselves but so easy to want to protect other. Idk of this just rings true to me or all southern woman or woman in general but it fucking hits home. Plus Imogens quiet feminine rage which is slowly turning less and less quiet because that woman is fucking fed up and she should be.

[makosgotmoxie]

“Makin’ My Way” performed live by Sam Riegel, Ashley Johnson, and the Laura Bailey during tlovm watch party

[socialzorua]

This is so amazing

[socialzorua]

I’ve been loving The Legends of Vox Machina but I’m truly over the moon for an animated M9 series. I started watching campaign 1 because I loved the cast and wanted more lore. I first fell in love with the cast by falling in love with M9. They are so well done as characters. They feel so real to me. They’re assholes but I get why they’re assholes. Also I love them being assholes. They’re home.

Also this is a whole other note but watching Beau and Yasha fall in love made me accept myself and my queerness so much more and made it easier for me. I just love M9 and I’m so happy that this is happening much sooner than I thought it would. (I genuinely was prepared to wait like 5 years to see M9 animated)

[winterlorn]

I’ve been thinking about how everything that happened to Ava may, for another person, well have been like a villain origin story. She lost her mother at age seven, along with the feeling in most of her body. She was emotionally abused by those who were supposed to take care of her and is then murdered by that caretaker, before her body is once again used without her consent and she suddenly has not only life and full mobility, but superpowers. If Ava hadn’t been exactly who she is, she might well have let the loss and the abuse and her anger at those things consume her, may well have seen the world as a hostile place that never wanted her, and goddamn now she has the power to strike back at it for all it ever took from her.

But she never does. If trauma is a universal thing in the backstory of any villain, Ava has plenty of trauma to turn her in that direction. What protects Ava from that fate is that she loves. In spite of it all, Ava loves the world. Loves Diego, loves the books she got to sneak in, the articles, the world she glimpses through her television, she believes there is just something wonderful and marvelous out there, and when she gets a second chance at life, she tries her hardest to finally experience all that. She runs on the beach, she learns to swim, she makes new friends and falls in love. Her response to dying, rather than to let anger at what killed her consume her, was “what doesn’t kill you makes you more grateful to be alive.”

The difference between a hero and a villain is that the villain turns away from the world, the hero turns towards it. The hero loves the world. And Ava does. In spite of everything, Ava does.

[socialzorua]

“Matilda, you talk of the pain like it’s alright

But I know that you feel like a piece of you’s dead inside

You showed me a power that is strong enough to bring sun to the darkest days”

“You can see the world, following the seasons

Anywhere you go, you don’t need a reason”

A girl who the world turned their back on and was treated terribly for most of her life. Just for her to finally find some peace in her found family. The only difference is that Launda wasn’t allowed to let go of her abuser, Delilah, but maybe now she has a chance to throw that party.

[socialzorua]

I thought that’s been in my head since the rock incident is how Delilah has a way of controlling Launda without her knowing it.

Picture Launda going home with Orym. Of course they met the Voice of the Tempest. Orym has to report to his boss and his friends want to meet her. Orym has spoken about her often. Launda see her and immediately feels a pulse of distrust in her head. Keyleth is kind to them and welcoming but Launda cannot shake this feeling. Keyleth is not to be trusted but Launda isn’t sure why.

Behind the veil Delilah is screaming cause she is faced (via Launda) to one of the ppl who killed her.

[socialzorua]

I keep thinking about how Imogen was probably going to keep running and leave the Bells Hells. She couldn’t see what was happening. All she knew was that the plan was to run. But she’s Imogen, so she had to check in on Launda. When Launda didn’t answer that’s when she knew she had to go back.

Imogen loves Launda more than anything. Imogen has lived her life in fear of the storm in her nightmares and feeling disgusted of the ppl around her and their thoughts. She couldn’t lose her one comfort, the kindest person she knows, her Launda. Launda is her person and Imogen would never leave her behind.

So she turns back and tries to convince Ottohan to end this. Ottohan reads her mind and realizes how much Launda means to her. Imogen has been trying to keep the storm at bay. It feels like it will end her. Ottohan wants to bring about that end.

Imogen practical begging Ottohan to take her and spare Launda is one of the most heartbreaking moments in this whole campaign and maybe all of CR.

I have a lot of thoughts and I can’t fucking wait for next week

[socialzorua]

Growing up A league of Their Own was my favorite movie. I never really understood why because I wasn’t super into baseball or softball but I mean it’s a good movie right?

Yes but no I was gay. That movie is amazing but also completely erases how queer the AAGPBL was. I think that both me and the film were in the closet. I feel like baby gay me could still feel some of it even if they continued to try and hide the gayness.

Now with this new show, it lives a new life and a more truthful. It’s also strikes just as close to home for me know as an adult. It’s dumb but it feels like it was meant for me. I feel like that’s a highmark of a good show sometimes.

[sharkodactyl]

how do i even boil down laudna and imogen’s relationship to a tag. it’s like. i have a thousand voices in my head and yours is the only one that sounds like music. i was alone until i met you. you’re the only person in the entire world who isn’t scared of me. we’re both sorcerers with our own incredible magic and yet we’re both puppets to powerful forces we don’t understand. you’re my best friend. you’re the only one who stayed. i love i when i hear you whispering to me in my mind. the only love i understand is the love i feel for you. you’re my girl. i’m your girl. wake me up if you have nightmares and i’ll sit with you so you don’t have to be awake and alone. i’m going to protect you even though i’m just as fragile as you are. i’m buying you tea to help you sleep. i will not go without you. when i met you it felt like i’d known you forever even though i’d just seen you for the first time. we’re both farmers

[sharkodactyl]

IT’S JUST LIKE–

[socialzorua]

One thing I love about the party starting to find out about Dusk being shady was Imogen casting detect thoughts. She fully did that because she wanted to know if Launda and Dusk were dating.

She knew that Dusk ask Launda out and that Launda didn’t give an answer yet. Then Dusk saves Launda and she see the two of them walking together holding each other. She fully did that detect thoughts out of jealousy and instead got a hint of Dusk future betrayal.

[drawinganchors]

Okay okay okay so there is a lot that happened tonight in terms of Laudna and Imogen and their relationship with one another but can we please just stop for a second to think about Laudna’s reaction to being asked out 🥺🥺

Like she made it pretty clear that even BEFORE she died she didn’t garner a lot of romantic attention, but like she has spent the last 30 years of her life being treated as some disgusting and scary monster. She really truly can’t imagine that anyone would see her as beautiful and worth of love and admiration. It’s no wonder she has no idea that she may have feelings for Imogen because that kind of relationship has never even entered the realm of possibility in her mind! She’s elated that Imogen even seems to enjoy her company at all.

I wonder what Laudna thinks of herself. Does she think of herself? Does she like herself? I don’t think she hates herself, but I have a heartbreaking suspicion that she doesn’t really view herself as person. The world put Laudna in this little box and labeled her a “thing” and Laudna fixed that box up and made it a home.

[socialzorua]

On another Imonda note, I feel like one of the reasons they are not officially together is because both of them make some assumptions about the other.

I think Imogen assumes she knows that Launda doesn’t have feelings for her because of her mind reading powers. Imogen in general is always slow to react and more reserved in her feelings unless very frustrated.

And Launda would never assume that Imogen would feel anything else for her but friendship. Even tho Launda puts her best foot forward she knows how ppl see her. She knows why she was alone for 30 years before Imogen. She’s grateful for whatever nugget of affection Imogen will give her. It’s one of the reasons she sings Imogens praises so often