kolkuh:
he had been young when he first met her , barely more than a toddler and in a strange new city . as such , he questioned little of what she had told him . alone save for two brothers ( one the same as always , and another newly found ) in a new city , without a mother you knew and now under the roof of a father who seems to have little use and therefore care for you , you trust the kind woman who calls herself your tyotya . even now , he’s certain that sofia was related to his father in some capacity , a cousin of some removal he’s sure , but doesn’t feel compelled to ask for the complete lineage , as it did not much matter .
he musters a smile of some kind for her , though it is perhaps not the same smile he would give her a few years ago , it’s empty . it is not her fault , of course , and he not only recognizes her but is thankful to see her alive and well after such time and distance . the old nickname rouses something in him ; if the world had allowed it he might well have been more of a sparrow , or some kind of songbird , and not the young wolf he ended up as .
‘ kolya is fine , tyota sonya . ’ as it had always been , though he doesn’t mind her petnames either . beyond that he felt nikolai would have been too formal for them , after he spent a whole childhood knowing her , and he would prefer not to be reminded of his father every time she called on him , and comrade was too political for a boy who’s care rested more in doctrine and sheet music , though of course that had been a joke he was sure . ‘ it is good to see you again . ’ a pause as she continues , and a frown at her final words , ‘ no , no apologizes . we’re happy enough to have you here . ’
“Kolya.” She repeats the name when he offers it, saying it back with a certain respectful warmth, the kind of tone nieces reserve for distant country uncles or churchgoers reserve for priests. It’s a knowing fondness, as if to say: “I recognize you, and I am glad for it.” But it does not pierce; it refrains from impolite intimacy, especially with a boy now so clearly a man. And it stands in utter bizarre contrast to the previously preferred “little sparrow.” She claps her hands together with some enthusiasm, however, perhaps recognizing the hollowness in his expression and choosing to fill it with mirth. “It is wonderful to see you. So well, so strapping and grown.” She smiles broadly at this, thin lips spreading across her face. “Oh, I so worried about you children.” And perhaps she did, or perhaps she didn’t. For now, the words come genuinely. “But you didn’t need me to worry. Women worry, and young men carry on,” she continues, extending a hand to see if Nikolai will offer his own.
Before he does, however, Sofia offers him a nod. “I am happy enough to be here. And I come to serve. I’m sure it’s been...trying, in so many ways. It’s my duty to provide what I can: a listening ear, charming advice, stories of the old days. Things you’ve forgotten that I haven’t. Because everything does come in circles, and if we’ve weathered it once, we will again.” She drones on in succession. “How are you and your brother making due with your father’s affairs? I must say, I’ve grown so weary of letters. I’ll relish to see for myself.” She sighs, looking to the air, but seeing nothing, returns her gaze to the man’s face. “When everything else has gone, well, our little family lives on, yes?”
She has a way of speaking around the issues at hand, offering herself up, swearing allegiance, recognizing this change in leadership, all without referring to the voki for what it is. But that was what made Sofia Yakovna as lethal a force as she could be: the power to disarm, to speak in flowers, and to wrap even the most dire things in pretty packages.











