Sohrabamaan @sohrabamaan - Tumblr Blog

I wish I could send myself through these texts

Sohrab Amaan

If I could listen to your heart, what would I find?

My thoughts have rust on them, as if I haven't spoken to anyone in years.

All my life I cared about people more than myself and that lead me to nothing. I lost myself in order to gain their love. That's what I child do to receive love from other people if he/she never get it from family.

I can change it even if I want now, because it's my nature now, being responsible one for others even if my own life is already a disaster.

- Sohrab Amaan

I failed to draw attention to my inner instincts, which caused me to fall into worse kind of pain. A pain that I would never come out of, a pain that which will take me instead of going away. Something I regret all the time, but can't change the past— can't change the future.

— Sohrab Amaan

I'm numb from the heaviness I feel within me. It feels like I can't move anymore, can't do anything other than looking at the sky in daytime and wishing for a star to fall.

My thoughts hinder my works and before starting something I want to tackle those. This is I decide every morning and by the evening I lose the courage to keep fighting. Because it's exausted to fight with your own self.

I will keep fight because I was born warrior, but this mind made me a salve of its own.

I wish I could break out the invisible chain I feel in my feet.

Tried to keep myself busy, but I can't run from my overthinking. It's a part of me, a flaw which I'm scared of. And nobody would accept a flawed human who have no control over his thoughts.

— Sohrab Amaan

Every night I promise myself not to break out, and every morning I find my pillow wet, my dreams shattered, my feelings broken, my fate far away from me, and I have no idea what happened last night.

I can't think beyond you; my start is you, and only you know where my end is. Is it in your arms? Or is it in a graveyard, buried beside your name? Or is it that I will never meet you?

— Sohrab Amaan

#beyondyou #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark aesthetic

Heart weren't made to get fixed.

- Unknown