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Solar They/It

i hope every terf dies sad and alone 🙏

mostly just reblogging stuff i like :)

i am a system so some folks in here run sideblogs lol

sideblogs:

@solacescribbles

@mynameisbrutus

@the-skrunkly

@daveed-diggs-itunes

@jack-stan-ifold

@skaia-cycle

@flamingtranssexual

@the-philza-minecraft

@jjs-aesthetics

two separate in their own category (run by 2 gay assholes in here):

@tortured-malaise

@malice-torn

my tags that i . sometimes remember...:

[tokyograndprix]

i really love logging onto tumblr to see the most abhorrent transandrophobia imaginable. like okay you believe in forced pregnancy for trans men. and youre admitting that

like do you realize this is already true? it's not 'shouldn't', they DON'T. trans and intersex men have to fight and claw their way into reproductive healthcare, and when they do get it, they're often horribly mistreated and/or have to mis/degender themselves for basic respect. you cannot call yourself a feminist if you believe in forced pregnancy for ANYONE at all.

[gillyeowalters]

A while ago I had a very exhausting conversation with someone under one of my posts that perfectly summed up, why the TMA/TME binary is harmful. The person self-identified as TME and they have deleted their comments, probably because they realised that leaving evidence of being a bigot is not a smart idea, so I will have to paraphrase.

It started with the comment "lets not pretend like cis men are discriminated against", in the assumption that I was a trans man. I know that they assumed this because when I told them that it was "brave" to post this under the post of a cis intersex man, they became very upset and asked why I, as a cis man, was posting about the experiences of trans men.

I proceeded to tell them that I am talking about these experiences, because I have had the same or very similar experiences due to being intersex.

At that point they decided to tell me, that I was not actually cis then, but trans, and that I just didn't understand my own identity.

I had told them multiple times at that point, that I originally had been AMAB, and only reassigned AFAB to enable my IGM. This user was pretty much saying: trans means transitioning away from your AGAB, you have trans man experiences, so you are a trans man, so the doctors were actually right to reassign you AFAB. They were at this point agreeing with my abusers just because my experiences did not match their expectation of what experiences a cis man can have.

And that is the danger of TME/TMA and why it will never have any validity in my eyes. You are assuming the amount and type of oppression a person experiences based on their AGAB. And if that doesn't match up in your eyes, you assume that a) they are lying or b) that they are to stupid to understand their own identity.

They also half way implied that I no longer identified as trans because I was transphobic and not because I learned about circumstances of my birth and lifelong medical treatment that had been maliciously hidden from me.

The person later gave in and apologized, but then immediately invalidated that, by replying to another intersex user who came to my defense that "we don't get to tell them that TMA/TME is intersexist". A perisex trans person telling two intersex people what they are allowed to call intersexist. That is the state this stupid binary has left the trans community on tumblr. In the end users of this binary believe to have the authority over others experiences and identity. And that is fucking despicable.

[han-the-human]

I'm so pissed off that the movement which villainizes and infantilizes trans men and erases nonbinary and intersex people is being called "transfeminism"

Because I think we do need a feminist movement that focuses on trans people!

All trans people!

And creating a system like TMA and TME is such a bullshit and unhelpful way to do that

Like "yes we will put everyone into two boxes, "good oppressed real trans woman" and "evil malfunctioning women who we all hate and deserve to be murdered with guns". This system is very progressive and feminist and accounts for all trans people. If you have any issues with it then you are an evil transphobic misogynist who clearly hates all trans women."

Wow great. This is what we are calling transfeminism?

[cybergirl2086]

The problem with making jokes to the effect of "kill all men" or "press this button to blow up all TMEs" isn't that some men are actually good, or that it includes trans men and pre-egg crack trans women too. Obviously some men are good and some men are bad; there are four billion or so men in the world

The problem is that making jokes about a thing gradually desensitizes you to it, and eventually you start believing it unironically. That's why people rail on Dave Chappelle for his "comedy" and why making Holocaust jokes is a gateway to genuine Holocaust denial. Jokes reflect what you believe is and isn't to be taken seriously.

Of course, we couldn't literally kill all men, but the joke is built on the idea that punitive measures are preferable to rehabilitation, which is a cornerstone of fascist and fascist-adjacent idealogies. Once you start dehumanizing a whole group of people and calling them degenerates in some way, you open the door to corrupting your feminism with racism, classism, ableism/eugenics, exorsexism, etc. Saying "kill all men" the same way neo-Nazis say "gas the Jews" doesn't help anybody.

So instead of telling men to kill themselves, offer to educate them in feminism and help them be kinder and more empathetic.

[cripposting]

Hey. Btw trans women, trans fems and anyone who can be mistaken for a trans woman got banned from sports today. This is peak transmisogny. It’s absolute nonsense and I’m tired of how transmasculine folks are being asked about this as far as reporters and journalism goes.

And still, “TME” people do not fucking opress trans fems rhe same way rhat cis Perisex people do. Bad journalism, transphobia and specifically transmisogny doesnt suddenly mean a marginalized people are suddenly the opressors.

[malwareproductions]

hey wait a munute. the transtrender thing really soecifically targeted trans men and transmascs. hey thats weird i just realized thst

edit: someone in the replies phrased it the exact way i wanted to

this is EXACTLY what i wanted to say but i couldnt figure out how to say it properly. it was absolutely about nonbinary/gnc people at a core level and i’m sorry i missed that

[perverted-asexual]

Every day tumblr users get closer and closer to saying you can only be trans in a god honouring way.

Edit: my problem is with the comparison and trying to rate people's transness and who's more transgressive. If you attempt to turn this into a trans guys vs trans girls post you are missing the point.

[prey-girl]

Yknow, "TME/TMA" is not an inherently harmful concept. It makes sense. You're either affected by a specific brand of trans misogeny or you're not, and it isnt really a binary so much as a status indicator.

However I've seen so many posts using the term "TME" as a slur for trans men specifically I think if I even see you using the term I can already tell you're a weird and hateful little bigot.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

I mean, everyone can be affected by transmisogyny. Sure, out of every 10 transmisogyny instances, 6 or 7 of them may be towards trans women/transfems. But there'll always be thoss 3 or 4 that aren't, and now your binary doesn't work.

It's one of those cases where outliers DO matter.

I don't like it and find it useless because of that. It erases the fact that our brothers and even cis people can be harmed by the same forces that harm us.

[abra-cadaverrr]

The issue is that it depends on how other people perceive you, which you only have so much control over.

There’s no such thing as a strain of bigotry that only perfectly affects one demographic. I’m a Hispanic trans man in the U.S., and I have this conversation about ICE a lot. It doesn’t matter if you’re not Hispanic, they can and will still target you if THEY perceive that you’re Hispanic or an immigrant. You don’t even need to actually be Hispanic or an immigrant, all you need to do is piss ICE off or even just exist.

Same concept applies to transmisogyny and transandrophobia. I’ve had people mistake me as a trans woman before, and if they decided to be bigoted in that moment BASED ON THAT ASSUMPTION, wouldn’t I be experiencing transmisogyny?

TMA/TME will never be helpful and it will never work because you’re assuming a world where everyone knows everyone else’s identity at every given moment, and that they will only apply the “correct” bigotry to the “correct” population.

[this-is-weird-behavior]

what the theorizing around tma/ tme misses is that transmisogyny, like all bigotry, is a weapon. it is a tool used at the liberty of the bigot to control the object of hatred or disgust, and to control the bystanders into consensus. there is no essential quality anyone possesses that spares you from experiencing a form of bigotry if someone more powerful than you finds it expedient to use it against you.

100% cis straight men exert misogyny and transmisogyny against one another all the time as part of maintaining interpersonal hierarchies. people of all genders exert misogyny and transmisogyny against cis women, especially black women, by transvestigating them, to shore up patriarchal values around womanhood. all of these things are deeply connected to the transmisogyny weaponized against trans women.

who is actually helped by tma/ tme? genuinely, what does it actually accomplish? what goals can be furthered by an isolationist anti-intersectional framework other than like making a handful of people "feel seen"? theory doesn't exist to make you feel seen, it exists to orient your praxis: what is the praxis of tma/ tme beyond like, doxxing teenage boys for asking to be included on a positivity post?

[li-binauje-artisse]

"are you tme or tma"

I, a non binary person, am not interested in definying myself with yet another made up binary notion, you see.

"oh but it just means who is or not affacted by transmisogyny.."

And what if we all started to call people "exorsexism affected" and "exorsexism excluded". And what if we all spoke about it as if it was the default of the trans community. How would YOU feel about that, i wonder?

Oh sorry, you don't like me talking as if exorsexism was also a big deal? You don't like me even mentioning it? Too bad!

(Also i am not naive, most of you people are doing an incredibly bad job at *not* making it about people's agab and some "us vs them" behavior.)

(Reading comprehension checkpoint in case anyone is dying to put words in my mouth: no i am not saying that transmisogyny is not a big deal and this is a post specifically about people having a particular behavior. Not about a whole (or even one single) community. And no i don't really want to use "EE" or "EA". This is a vent about how the trans communities are absolutely unable to not try to re-heat a binary system to force me into. Now ignore this or not, i am getting very used to block inflamatory people on sight.)

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

gentle reminder that if u feel hungry soon after eating, it might be bc you’re eating mostly carbs without adding enough protein. try eating a handful of nuts or smthing alongside your next meal.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

and you don’t have to change the recipe or anything! you can eat what you were going to, just add some cheese cubes or a handful of nuts or salami slices on the side. u don’t have to change your meals, just add a little extra protein

[kreature-ofthenight]

thats nice but what do I need to do If I wake up around 3 am every other night with an unquenchable hunger for flesh even tho I ate normal balanced meals trough the day?

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

spoonful of peanut butter

[trustworthymedicaladvice]

another way to manage the undying hunger for flesh is to eat 15-20 live crickets. their souls are weaker than most other animals that size but they are easy to get a hold of and have the best flavor

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

this checks out!

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

a few people have commented that sometimes heartburn gets mistaken for hunger. I’d never heard that before. If you regularly feel hungry after eating certain types of foods (and adding protein/fat doesn’t help) maybe try chewing an antacid. the digestive tract is dark sorcery basically. an ancient worm coiled in your body whose impish mischief u must appease

[readerregretsnothing]

BloodyMary + Simon’s mischaracterization

This has been said a lot across multiple platforms and I can’t tag everyone, but I need to talk about the way Simon has been mischaracterized because of BloodyMary. I have a lot to say, bear with me here.

Prefacing this with why I think Simon has been mischaracterized so badly:

I know most of the problem comes from people in the fandom who haven’t engaged in the source material. I see SO many fics tagged with ‘author has not watched Iron Lung’.

I think the biggest issue is that PHM has a much larger fanbase; it’s had a fandom since 2021, the movie was in most cinemas for months, and it had millions of dollars worth of advertising. On top of that, it’s relatively easy to pirate, whereas Iron Lung hasn’t been until very recently. There have been edits since the day it premiered, Ryan fucking Gosling is in it. My point is that it’s a far more mainstream piece of media, and because of that, most of the BloodyMary writers/fanartists come from the PHM fandom first.

(Please don’t pirate Iron Lung, or any indie films)

Iron Lung, on the other hand, showed almost exclusively in requested theaters, for a few weeks at most, and then came to YouTube in May. It’s had virtually no advertising aside from Mark himself, less edits/art/fan content etc, and it’s also a genre that is less appealing to a wider audience.

(I came from the Iron Lung side and was very late to PHM, so I was around for the early tumblr/ao3 characterization of Simon.)

All that to say I GET IT. I get that most people have come from the PHM side, haven’t had access to Iron Lung to characterize Simon properly, and wanted to write fics etc.

But please. I beg you. Simon’s character development is so insanely important to the dynamic he would have with Grace. He’s not stupid or incapable or blindly violent and I’m SICK of people making him useless. There’s a lot ableism and racism (Simon, of Korean descent, worshipping Grace, a blonde-haired, blue-eyed white man, for instance) in too many fics, but that’s another whole conversation.

I can pull up receipts for some of this for better examples, and I will because I feel like I need to.

Simon’s intelligence:

Simon is treated like he’s stupid in the movie. The C.O.I. There’s multiple times where Ava and David repeat themselves like he might be confused.

[ “Are you sure it was a skeleton?” Ava to Simon ]

We then almost immediately see him mapping the blood ocean from the inside of the SM-13. No lights, no window, no equipment and no outside help. He manages a fairly accurate map of his surroundings, some of which he expands with X-rays from places he isn’t even in anymore.

Violence/The Butcher:

Yes, Simon has a history of violence. He’s absolutely far from being innocent HOWEVER! It was him doing what he was asked. Religion is an insanely easy way to manipulate vulnerable people, and Simon was, up until a point, indoctrinated by Eden. In a flashback we see him as a child, standing over a pile of bodies with blood on his hands. There’s no scenario in which he’s not innocent, but there’s a lot more to the situation surrounding it.

In the movie, he lashes out more in fear than in a genuine attempt to hurt. The camera, he even admits is him acting out of fear, and he regrets it. He apologizes repeatedly for it. Ava sent him down there and he still apologizes. He apologizes to the sub when he hits the control panel. He yells and then looks guilty every time.

[ “I’m sorry, about the radiation. I didn’t know.” - Simon to Ava ]

When he does act with intentional violence, it’s towards the eel, when he realizes he’s dying and the blackbox needs to make it to the surface.

Whilst I do think he would initially lash out towards Grace, he would also immediately back off when he realizes that Grace isn’t an active threat. He would be insanely wary, he’s trapped in another unfamiliar situation that he’s not in control of and has no method of escape from.

Simon and the Hail Mary:

There’s a whole ton of fics where Simon isn’t able to operate in Mary: can’t handle zero gravity, couldn’t pilot, etc.

Simon who comes from a civilization that moved off earth before Grace was even born?? He’s lived on Mars and then on Eden and at least one other space station before the events of Iron Lung. He knows space and space travel. Is the Hail Mary what he’s used to? No, but its basic functions are essentially the same. Mary’s controls are supposed to be intuitive, and Simon piloted and restarted the SM-13 using pretty much ONLY his intuition, he hardly looked at the manuals.

Rocky would be a shock, the state of the pre-quiet rapture universe would be a shock, the amount of resources available to Grace would be a shock.

Simon calling Grace ‘Angel’:

Simon was part of a cult. He’s deeply distrustful of religious and authority figures, having had a bad relationship with both. Both of those things are very important to Simon’s character development.

[ “Let’s not get into that. I hear enough of that kind of talk on Eden.” - Simon when asked by Elli if he believes in God ]

He argues about it with David earlier on in the film.

The point is, Simon’s relationship with religion is inherently negative. Even The Light/The Portal is made to look like an angel [ Molly Brown/Deadlymelodic, the concept artist for the movie describes it here ].

I don’t think Simon would want to associate Grace with something that has caused him that much damage. Would he call Grace an angel in a pain med induced state when he first wakes up on the Hail Mary? Maybe, but I don’t think it’s something he’d continue, and if he did, I think that it would be sarcastically.

Simon constantly tries getting a reaction from people. He spends a lot of time in the movie arguing and talking back to Ava, David and then Elli, baiting them into replying or admitting what they’re doing to him. Yes, he’s scared and remorseful, but he’s also sarcastic.

[ “Sure, things are somehow faster when I don’t know what I’m doing.” Simon to David ]

Grace, a scientist, the least religious person possible for Simon to meet in any scenario, would absolutely have a reaction to being called an angel. It’s more likely to be discomfort than anything else, especially if he understands Simon’s relationship with religion.

There’s no way in hell that Simon would become blindly devoted to Grace. There’s a very clear power dynamic in the “Grace-saves-Simon” scenario and Simon would be very aware of it.

Anyways, that’s most of what I have to say in the shortest possible format. Full disclaimer I love bloodymary, and I consume a LOT of content related to it. I swear I’m not coming at this from the perspective of a hater.

I don’t normally engage in fandom discourse but I’ve been lurking on this for weeks now and I wanted to say something.

[angel-bunny-writes]

"transmasculine nonbinary people" and "transfeminine nonbinary people" with no mention of transneutral nonbinary people is creating a binary, actually.

and no, these categories don't include intersex people.

[perverted-asexual]

I think I've made this post before but I truly believe that a lot of trans discourse would disappear if we acknowledged that transmisogyny and transandrophobia go hand in hand and aren't necessarily strict opposites.

And I firmly believe that both can affect all trans people due to the combination of transphobia, malgendering and misgendering that we experience.

Plus allowing both terms to be used freely regardless of which way your transitioning allows more freedom for the nuances of intersex, transneutral and nonbinary individuals without pushing them into a binary or forcing them to disclose the details of their agab/transition.

[largemandrill]

“More non-binary characters should be TMA” explain what you mean by that without once mentioning the character’s assigned gender at birth or otherwise inserting them into a binary. Quickly.

[boycreaturefeature]

”transandrophobia/anti-transmasculinity isn’t real” When i was younger one legitimate thing i had against transitioning (in the future) was that instead of being a women scientist, instead of being progressive and boundary breaking, i would just be a man. What would all the little girls think if i abandoned them, left the harshness of female hood to become a man instead, became not an idol they looked up too?

[sunlit-lycan]

When I was younger, I rejected my own masculinity out of fear that I'd have to be the toxic men around me. It also felt like betraying my feminism.

I've since unlearned and recreated my own masculinity, and still absolutely adore women

[faerie-fangs]

if a transmasc related to a post i made about being a woman I would be saying yay yippie hell yeah because fundamentally all humans are the same species