Solaria

Always creating, mostly music, written, and visual media For Everyone the Sun Touches Hi :) they/them 22Ko-fi is Here :)

[solaria-creates]

Hello! It's Me ⁺₊⋆ ☀︎ ⋆⁺₊

Solaria, they/them

My name for the creative content I produce here is Solaria, so that'll be what you know me as! I have multiple projects always on the go, but I mostly will be posting about-

Music and Songwriting

Visual Media (Mixed Media, Printing, etc etc)

Creative Writing (Poetry, Short Stories, etc etc)

What's most important to mention is that my creative works, who I am and what I care about intersect greatly. Some of my content may be "political," and some of my content may require a TW and I'll always work towards labelling my work properly. Let me know if there's any way I can make my own content more accessible or properly labelled.

Community is very important to me, I enjoy cooking good food, and I take care of Isopods as a hobby. I'm sure I'll end up sprinkling some more fun facts around. I hope you have fun here, and have a great day!!

[italiangayhound]

the hunt

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first time posting here, kinda nervous /j

[chellustrates]

hand size difference

[jeansagain]

you and me forever

[fruitblush]

Oilspill

Prints

[wormsermonizer]

🐟 this is an old drawing redone bc the original was too tiny to print huuuuuuuuuu

[h11tch]

mannnn

[xgermankittycatx]

*not even 0.001 seconds later*

me realizing i have free will, a pen, and a single brain cell.

[alleesaur]

taking it day by day, or even half hour by half hour

[helenvaughans]

[cipheramnesia]

Ever since I had the thought about not needing a hole, my whole self perception as a trans woman has been more accurate while being thrown completely off kilter.

[cipheramnesia]

I learned zero depth vaginaplasty was a thing and that was like well hold on a second that sounds much better for me, personally. Like, really rekindled my feelings about further progress on the physiological side of my transition.

[cipheramnesia]

Parallel to all this, I began re-thinking how I see myself with regard to pronouns. You know, as one does from time to time. What resonated with me was this notion of agency over myself. I got to self determine how labels got applied to me, and that's pretty good. But I want more because I'm a greedy fuck. Those are my pronouns, but I mean - my pronouns. My gender. My trans-ness, and mine alone. It shouldn't be something other people get to use, cuz it's me, right? It's like, suddenly I've found myself seeing who I am, what my gender is, as something other people get access to as a privilege.

It's a personal, important part of myself that I think ought to be handled more carefully. And okay professionally, sure, the she/her pronouns stay, because they're a firewall in that context. Socially and personally though, that's a choice. That's when I quietly pulled my pronouns from public circulation, also about when I decided to ditch any kind discourse related interactions. Pulled all that shit back up, and went over to no pronouns except for people who know me. Not that I particularly expect that adjustment to receive notice or respect, it was for me.

Still, it was interesting, basically not any different per se, still a trans woman, there's just an asterisk involved now. A very small shift which has made me significantly more comfortable as a trans woman(*), over being functionally in no way different from being a trans woman. There's a firm yet polite bouncer who will escort anyone off the premises who isn't on the list. Trans woman (not for you).

[cipheramnesia]

That's been, for me, a really interesting if incredibly small shift. Empowering even. I think about it a lot, because by any measure that should be a nonbinary type situation, but it's not the vibe for me. Could be for someone else, not for me, okay.

The most recent shift since then has been learning about sensitivity preserving nullification and it feels like, okay, I knew it existed, but I hadn't been in the right place to connect all the dots until now. Everything has come into focus. Gender with an asterisk, being a trans woman, but not for other people. The gender that's all about me, all for me, no one else gets it without an invitation.

The relationship between any trans person and their genitals tends to be more complicated than the average cisgender citizen of the world. There's a whole range of social and psychological and physical and sexual and etc etc information tied around genitals. This isn't news. And personally, as good as it feels, for the most part I feel like my dick is just off limits anymore. I don't want it going in someone, I don't want to be used to fuck a person. In many ways the fact that it still works great after nearly ten years on HRT and multiple antidepressants is actually kind of frustrating - I wish it didn't!

But here we are, and I'm lying in bed and thinking to myself about nullification, and the feelings are heady, a deep down feeling of fulfillment as a trans person and a woman and a trans woman(*), to not only be a trans woman (but not for you) in spirit but also in body. It's complicated and messy, but simple in that I'm assured as I've always been since I started HRT of being a plain jane binary trans woman. It's all the same but (*), y'know. It's great.

[aro-aceattorney]

Prank’d

[girlmothra]

The Chaos King - Deltarune Fan Art

Watercolour and Ink ✍️ Play Deltarune don’t use Al and free Palestine 🤘

[blacktabbygames]

When we were in Tokyo last Winter we sat down for a 5 hour in-depth interview about Slay the Princess. I don't think we'll talk this much about the game again, at least not in a setting like this. So if you want to hear our thoughts on the game, here's over 100 pages of them.

Slay the Princess’s Tony Howard-Arias and Abby Howard: “I mean, that she loves you. She loves you unconditionally” - I.N.T

Introduction - 紹介 “We are unknown, we knowers, ourselves to ourselves: this has its own good reason. We have never searched for ourselves—ho

[abby-howard]

Really really cool interview!! This was such a lovely, in-depth talk about the game. I had a great time chatting with our interviewers, and they asked amazing questions about the emotional and philosophical core of Slay the Princess <3

[mechtroid]

Holy shit, what an interview. Definitely recommend everyone A) play the damn game, then B) come back and read this. One of my favorite interviews of all time, I think.

[boomercades]

GAHH had some free time to finally doodle some mettatenna— sigh now it’s back to the grind…

[keymintt]

you were born in phoenix after all

[weepingwidar]

Salman Toor (Pakistani, 1983) - Fag Puddle with Candle, Shoe and Flag (2022)