MY DISORDER IS NOT YOUR COSTUME!

solivan , the cool anti-endo system pursuing their psych major

[solivan-edu]

im back.. again! people didn't know how to act on anti-willo-solivan, as they were constantly putting csem links in my post comments, so I made the difficult decision to delete the blog.

this lets me start brand new while I fix up another intro post, reblog some old stuff, and so on.

first things first, i am against any non-traumagenic systems -> INCLUDING endos, willos, tulpas, polyminds, ect ect.

I am pro-kink and NUANCED pro-fic. I use the pro-fic label for a quick view point instead of repeating what I think over and over again to asks because it gets tiring. Do not label me as a proshipper, a darkshipper, or anything of the sort. I do not like their communities in any way, I do not like the profic community either in any way—don't start screaming at me for "trying to defend myself from being in an icky community", as before, i do not like any of these communities.

I occasionally discuss kink topics with proper warnings and tags, but despite my stance on fiction, discussions of it will not be brought here. Do not involve me when someone else's kink/fetish grosses you out or makes you uncomfortable, you won't get the response you're hoping for.

I do not like blankqueer labels. I do not like radqueers, radnormals, or anything. Do not follow me. You can reblog and like my posts. Multiple people have falsely accused me of producing csem, which isn't true and never will be.

Lastly, I AM A MINOR! I am bodily a minor with multiple adult fictives who help run this blog. Nothing more, nothing less. Do not take an adult-alter age and run with it.

[scourgefell]

I'm gonna do something really controversial. Going to debunk the claim that JK Rowling posted an upskirt photo of a trans women.

Why? Am I defending JK Rowling? No. She still misgendered Freda and made fun of her appearance. She still sucks here and is a bigot.

I'm doing this because I believe calling this upskirting and sexual assault diminishes the meaning of both terms, because the photo posted objectively does not meet the definition.

Here is the photo JK Rowling posted of Freda.

This image comes from a live debate filmed two years ago. You can see at about 25 minutes in that this image comes from the exact same camera angle that the debate was being filmed from. It is the view that the audience would see of Freda the entire length of the debate.

[Screenshot from the debate video]

It is not an upskirt. This is simply what Freda looks like from a front view, while sitting down in the outfit she was wearing. If this is an "upskirt" and therefore sexual assault, than the entire audience and the camera crew was sexually assaulting her as well for simply viewing her from the front.

https://youtu.be/Va3i-_Fbfpo

[solivan-edu]

hope we can rant about this but; As a non-human alter, seeing people say that i cannot consent is... absurd? Non-human alters typically stem from dehumanisation, so it's just even MORE dehumanising to see that to some people, I am not allowed to consent?

It makes me question what i can really do. What am i supposed to do? these people make me feel like i'm going to be treated like an animal, and that frightens me and makes me hesitant and so unsure?

I might jyst be overthinking it but like :(

- Ant (she/her)

I'm really sorry those posts made you feel that way.

When people say things like "non-human alters can't consent because they aren't human," they are treating the experience far more literally than it actually is. In CDDs, non-human alters are still dissociative self-states within a human brain. Calling a non-human alter "incapable of consent because they're an animal" isn't a clinical concept—it's someone projecting their own assumptions onto an internal experience. For a lot of people, non-human identities are deeply connected to trauma, dehumanization, protection, symbolism, or how the mind organized overwhelming experiences. Telling those alters they're "basically animals" or that they have no autonomy can end up reinforcing the same dehumanization the alters are often coping with. I've said it once and I'll say it again, radnormals and others saying this have no clue of how CDD alters work. It's mostly full of singlet children who are usually repulsed by sex, so I wouldn't listen to them really. Ultimately, systems are still people. If the body is an adult, everyone involved is working toward recovery, and there is internal agreement and healthy communication, reducing a non-human alter to "an animal that can't consent" doesn't reflect how dissociative disorders are understood. It strips away the system/alter's agency by pretending that an internal identity is equivalent to a literal non-human creature. This includes littles too! You deserve to be treated as you want and not have your identity weaponized against you.

[depressedjesusfaker]

It's not corn, it's porn.

It's not grape, it's rape.

It's not pew pew, it's gun.

It's not unalive and unalived, it's murder and murdered.

It's not CP, it's CSAM.

[solivan-edu]

Hey dude so like I’m reading through your pinned post, so far so good I respect it, but then I see “Multiple people have falsely accused me of producing csem, which isn't true and never will be” obviously that is a HORRIBLE accusation regardless of the truth. Do you have a post detailing what happened here or anything? Have they’ve been addressed thoroughly and you’ve shown how they’re false…?

https://www.tumblr.com/radically-normal/822090039728177152/i-just-want-everyone-to-know-that?source=share (DO NOT HARASS, JUST REPORT)

1. I believe it stemmed from how it was being discussed about people finding and sending me my own CSEM when I was "exposed" for being pro-fiction because people didn't agree with me and wanted me to get triggered enough to get pushed off the platform. Obviously I understand people are upset about me not being open sooner, but due to bad experiences with harassment in the past + my account never discussing it regardless, I didn't think it was worth mentioning.

2. I obviously have no proof or idea on how to prove my innocence, but I know I am innocent regardless. All I have is my word that I would never do such a thing to anyone because I wouldn't ever subject someone else to the suffering I was put through.

[anti-willo-miku]

we are so back

Welcome! Sorry for the delayed response, i was at work and had a pretty hectic day ^-^

[solivan-edu]

Ooufff!! I hope your day gets better!!

[anti-willo-miku]

it did bc it turns out the crab rangoons at where i work are amazing

also im glad ur back, hopefully nobody gives u shit and remember to take breaks when u need it! ^_^

[solivan-edu]

crab rangoon.. ouhhh.../pos

always good to be back! I will, make sure you take breaks when needed too!!💚

[solivan-edu]

Hi!! I’m so happy to see you back, I hope yall are doing okay !

- @anti-willo-dean-winchester

YES HELLO HELLO, ITS GOOD TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN!!!

[solivan-edu]

why are you anti radnormal

1. I don't like the way they talk about people with paraphilias or radqueers (a majority of groomed minors)—often depicting themselves hanging them or doing something violent to wojaks (which have been transphobic caricatures for years now!).

2. I don't like how they speak about littles or non-human alters as its a majority of minors who have no business in what ADULT-BODIED systems say they can do. Every little and non-human alter aren't an uwu innocent baby at times, some can and will do adult activities when they give the go ahead.

3. Multiple radnormals have FALSELY accused me of producing CSEM, said I was an adult, and didn't even discourage harassment. I've contacted these people to get their posts down, but alas, no avail.

[solivan-edu]

Happy to see you back!! :D

-Mark

It's always good to be back! I missed you🤫🤫🤫

[solivan-edu]

Hi solivan, lovely to see you back again! I hope you're doing well :]

hiii!!! thank you, i hope everypony is doing well too💚

[anti-willo-miku]

we are so back

Welcome! Sorry for the delayed response, i was at work and had a pretty hectic day ^-^

[solivan-edu]

Ooufff!! I hope your day gets better!!

[nyaneru--neru]

if you say "child porn" you dont care about victims AT ALL.

send post

[anti-willo-kinger]

why do I go away for two weeks and then find out there's drama in the awv. why do you people have to ruin everything

(of course it's because of the discord server and shipcourse, lmao. it really feeds my NPD whenever I'm proven right. Shipcourse is dumb and y'all worry too much about it)

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT THO DON'T ASK ME DETAILS I DO NOT KNOW.

I block all shipcourse tags from both antishippers and proshippers I don't like any side of it and I don't see any discussion about it, because it's triggering for me and I am NOT going to look into it so don't ask me please

[the-laverre-gym]

ok nonny privledges are back

[anti-willo-solivan]

me when I get over someone being mean to me on anon

[the-laverre-gym]

anons are the only way people talk to me on this website

[anti-willo-nyarlathotep]

Idk whats going on in the AWV, so excuse me. But, like. You don't gotta be friends with endogenics etc. but like, being a complete and utter dickhead towards them isn't helpful either. i dont like endo's as much as the next guy, but civility is important

I get they're ableist, but people CAN change and grow if you give them the room to do so, i don't see endo's as "oooh evil big bad irredeemable people." People also don't change if you demonize and bully and harass them., and just generally make them feel like shit.

I dont think people are saying that we should sit there and hold hands and sing songs together, to just put it plainly, i'd rather extend all people kindness than be unkind because lord knows being unkind is the easier choice, and if that means i'm making friends with endo's then so be it

BINGO

[plut0-plan3tzz]

"Endos aren't claiming to be disordered!! We're not claiming to have DID or OSDD!! 🥺"

Y'all literally added two lines to the DID/OSDD flag and called it yours??

Y'all can't create lies about yourself to make you seem less ableist when it's clearly bullshit

Stop pretending you have a neurocognitive condition that can only be caused by trauma when you don't have trauma.

— ⛔️ (?)

[anti-willo-nyarlathotep]

Just to be clear. I'm specifically criticizing the idea of blocking EVERY pro endo or endo on the basis that they are (pro)endo.

I'm not criticizing blocking people actively harassing you.

I'm criticizing the act of being so unwilling to have your ideas or opinions challenged that you can't even interact with our hear people who have different opinions than you.

This polarization in internet communities, the trend of always needing to be pro or anti X, no nuance, no in between, is toxic.

"Oh no, I love this person's opinions and educational posts, such a shame I have to block them because they're [pro-endo, profic, etc, etc]" That kind of attitude.

If you don't do that, I'm not talking about you.

If you do do that, you're creating an echo chamber around yourself.