Now that you’re gone, Everything reminds me of you. Paranoid you will come back, Haunting me as the memories already do. How am I supposed to miss the person I never met? Because all that ever came out of your mouth was Complacent lies, gaslighting your way through. Missing pieces because we were never whole, Even from the start. You’d always say “I wish I could help.” “I’m sorry.” But you never did anything. You witnessed me drown in my own sorrow, And stood there worried about your own soul. While I was dying inside, I was grasping for you, Making sure you were fine. It was us against the world, until it became solely yours. As I drowned into the darkness of this fallacious love. Unable to let go, clinging to the scent of you, Praying that things would get better. Regardless of anything, you Always playing the victim. Yet, you had the audacity, After all of this, to claim “It was always you.”
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