Like once again I am unfortunately having big emotions
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Like once again I am unfortunately having big emotions
without romanticisation, I fear we wouldn’t make it.
my thoughts are certainly… something.
no bc I need to do unspeakable things and I need to do them NOW
For YEARS I missed being closer with him and searched for that bond and wanted to reach out more and I was Always fucking reigned in by other parts and now he’s fucking gone and I Never got to have that bond back. Literally fuck everyone.
-Lo
I am sick of having to accept unspeakable things.
-Will
I feel like I am letting the other parts down. I was made to protect us but the way I was created makes me more adept at putting us in harms way than protecting us… when it comes to this specific situation. I hate it and I hate that I’m failing but I also hate being held back.
I wish it was just me because, god, I know what I’d do.
-will
I’m upset that we didn’t get to see him once more before everything went down.
If K hadn’t been the main part around over winter break, we would’ve made plans to see him then. But K wasn’t around for the years we were close to him, so he didn’t think about it…
God, I just wish something had gone differently. I wish I wish.
It’s so funny and a little odd to me that other parts think of Will as the system dad when like… that is a literal child. Like he is 17 at most. That is not your father that is a baby with trauma.
-Abi
I’m here and it’s been a second and like. the whole system is now being run by parts I don’t have a ton of contact with. And I don’t know what to do with that but it makes me feel a little weird about being here.
-N
Sometimes I’m like “I’m really not doing well right now” and then I remember that I’ve basically been transported from my 15-17 year old mindset to living on my own as a 22 year old and dealing with an incredibly heartbreaking and retraumatizing situation. And with that and mind like yeah. I’m doing my best. I’m working on it. It’ll be ok.
I’m more than just the one who stayed.
-cady
I was so close to hanging up my role. To unburdening. To living without that being my purpose.
I talked so many times about how there wasn’t a need for me anymore, and how that made me feel useless.
But now there is a need for me again. And I fucking hate it. It’s awful. It hurts again and again every time I remember what’s happening.
-Lo
Me and Will are absolutely hopeless lmao but at least we have each other
-Lo
Please don’t hate me for telling you I know. Please get how hard it was for me to say that to you. Please please please don’t just ignore me. I’m hurting so bad and I need you. I haven’t for years but I need you now and I hate myself for it but I can’t fucking stop. I wish I could talk to you.
I wish he hadn’t hurt someone else. I wish it had been me. Then I wouldn’t have to feel this sick inside.