Every Second Counts

Forget the Risk & take the Fall, If its what you Want then its Worth it all. Ask me Stuff!

[somewoundsdontheal]

You have an amazing ass, maybe post a semi nude?. Please (;

Thanks How about this; I'll send you a good one ;D

[somewoundsdontheal]

The aftermath

Years go by,

Back to square one,

Dancing with the devil,

Walking away,

Finding myself in a public bathroom scoring one more line. .

[somewoundsdontheal]

Falling apart...

If I had to choose a word that describes my feelings for you it'd have to be love, no other word can come close to what I feel. Love to me means that you will remain by their side through it all no matter what. It means trusting them & hoping they don't betray you. Love is fighting against the odds to be with that other person. It means staying strong & over coming obstacles together. But to me It also means stepping down when their happiness is no longer being with you; its tearing yourself apart & allowing your world to come crashing down in flames just to let them walk away & find happiness even if it costs you your happiness. It's choosing them over yourself; trying to find strength that you don't have. It's simply giving someone your destruction button but trusting them to not push it. But no matter what; in the end; you will always lose. Love is the game & the winner will never be YOU.....

[somewoundsdontheal]

I'm not as strong and only one bump on Saturday is all i needed. My body was weak, I wished for more than to be sober as I remembered every time the comedown got worse because I stayed up more often the more prominent she became in my life. I won't lie to you, it felt good and I have also been around the block a time or two since I turned 15 but in my 14 year old mind I see myself now and even after this weekend I am still proud of my progress because in the end the progress is the whole story.

It is never easy, once it gets you & finds your weakness you'll never be free. The only reason I resist is because my baby keeps me strong; while he's in my tummy he should be healthy. Before I found out I was pregnant I was snorting daily line after line I wouldn't let myself crash because it's such a bitch to recover. I was on it for the 2months I didn't know I was expecting. But when I found out I had no more. Tonight I'm wishing I could have just one line; I found out my baby's dad has been cheating I feel worthless I feel broken but I can't fall back...

[wordsnquotes]

You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.

Joel Osteen, Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential  (via wordsnquotes)

[nakedly]

You did a terrible thing, it doesn’t mean you’re a terrible person

(via nakedly)

[somewoundsdontheal]

Has the monster made any reappearance in your life?

Believe me when I say it's there all the time tempting me & it's hard to stay strong. It's breaking me. I've done drugs since I was 15; it's all I know & I feel so lost without them. I don't know who I am.

[somewoundsdontheal]

For my followers 😘😘

[seabois]

The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby (via seabois)

[valiantschool]

Drugs become addictive the day you decide to use it to fill the gaps in your heart instead of using it for short entertainment.

(via tvlkinghevds)

[somewoundsdontheal]

Feeling alone...

6months pregnant, 6months sober I find myself feeling alone although my baby boy is in my tummy. I hate myself but love my body for allowing me to carry a life. I cry all night & smile all day; pretend to be happy. It's hard to keep saying no to the monster; I need to feel complete.....

[somewoundsdontheal]

A mother?

a person who gave me life yet makes me wish i was dead.

a person who calls herself my mom & says she loves me yet puts me down & makes me cry.

a person who I'm suppose to trust & love but her actions make me not.

My mother says its all me; but in reality she doesn't love me the way she loves my brother or sister, she pushes me to the side & treats me so different.

But i exaggerate when i say this she says...

A mother i wish i had one but i don't.....

[somewoundsdontheal]

To my Followers

Thanks for all the love & support I have been receiving through messages I appreciate it so much I really needed it.

[somewoundsdontheal]

Weak moments

I'm not going to sit here & pretend I'm over drugs... I think about it more than you think but I stay strong not for me but for my little baby growing inside me. Why would I hurt an innocent baby that has no fault. I sometimes feel so low, & unhappy but when I hold my tummy it makes me complete. Leaving drugs & staying clean is hard but I'm doing it for my baby 💕

[somewoundsdontheal]

Where'd ya go!? How are you doing? You're not alone!

Sorry I know I was gone for a bit; I had a few complications turns out I have a cyst in my ovary that's leaking fluid so I can't work now :(

[somewoundsdontheal]

You're pregnant? Congrats! :) How are you feeling?

Yes I am thanks; I'm 11weeks as of now I'm feeling great & staying sober for my baby thanks for asking :)

[somewoundsdontheal]

8weeks pregnant