sondheim & stuff @sondheimm-blog - Tumblr Blog

I REALLY LIKE THIS GUY and i wanna talk about it

#lol

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#literally me

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corn right corn at corn light

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first corn i see tonight

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dang girl are you my appendix because I don’t understand how you work but this feeling in my stomach makes me want to take you out

college board: we, a $$nonprofit organi$ation$$$ $trive to $upply high$chool $tudents with an opportunity for high-level educa$ion and $ucce$$ in college admittan$e with our $AT and AP Cour$es $$$$$$$$$$

idk if it’s best to post this on tumblr but

i dont wanna post it on my finsta or write it in my journal cause neither of them feel like the right fit. i just kinda feel like so unpretty??? like one of my closest closest friends told me “it’s so hard taking selfies when you’re average looking” when i was taking a selfie and she was high but she obviously thought that i’m average at best. and i was complaining about how unpretty i felt to another friend and she was like “well i’ve never really studied your face”. and then like another friend basically backhandedly told me i’ll never be as good as this one girl that i idolize unhealthily. and that really really hurt. and someone else said that it was “impossible for someone to flirt with me” and tru tru. and i just dont want to be in pictures ever ever. and my mom stopped offering me seconds of food when she offers my brother. and she suggested weightwatchers. and all i ever do is think about how big my legs are and the cellulite on my thighs and how i’ll never be pretty. and i’m going into my senior year so this is supposed to be a year i’ll remember forever ya know? so i want to be confident. i just don’t know if i should be confident by ~accepting my hated self~ or actually trying to fix myself. are my friends/families complaints telling me that i need to better myself or am i just being butt-hurt and need to get over it? and i don’t even want to be happy anymore. i just want to be pretty. right now, i’m neither of those.

#tldr; i'm insecure apparently??#my life

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pros and cons of dating me:

pros:

you’ll be the cute one

cons:

holy SHIT where do i begin

insomniac-arrest

feeling when entering a store

walmart- paranoia

7/11- certainty

target- home

super target- your estranged aunt’s home

macy’s- smugness

Home Depot- loss

whole foods- the kale feeling

CVS- the all knowing eye of God

dunkin donuts- a lady yelling at me in a brooklyn accent

walgreens- grandpa’s firm hand shake

costco- endurance

#all accurate except for supertarget #supertarget is like superhome to me!

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13 Reasons Why (2017)

#i cried once when i watched this show and it was this moment!!#13 reasons why

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me to my therapist: yeah idk I’m pretty good!

me to my tumblr followers: I was born with glass bones and paper skin. every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. at night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep.

tankaramo

me: i like this thing! my brain: excellent, it’s your reason to live now. you won’t be able to think about anything else for a few days, weeks or even months. talking about virtually anything else will be a nightmare, but so will be talking about The Thing, because no one shares your level of enthusiasm. have fun!