Im pregnant again. I dont want it. I relapsed tonight..just one arm..uh i hate that i missed it. How pathetic i feel for enjoying my skin being ... & itll be hard to hide its summer I dont know what has made my shadow cloud so overtake everything, slowly i saw it but hoped itd pass ignoring it, but now im in grey again i only see shadows no colors and the heavy weight on my heart..thats the worst part... why do i feel like this when everything in my life is doing alright.. it never leaves just stands behind me giving a slight shadow as a reminder of the control it has. It flares up here and there then fades away but again never REALLY gone. Those seemed easy compared to what its done before.. i feel like a storms has been brewing slowly getting ready for its fun. But its still waiting only letting its clouds shadow my exsistence
