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Mom’s leaving today. I’m sad. I’m sad because I realized I’ve neglected Mom so many times. I realized that Mom is very sad, because she didn’t know before. She didn’t know how to go further because no one had told her. She didn’t know she could go to a graduate school or a medical school because she thought she was content with what she had. But she looks back on her life now, and she sighs deeply. I tell her she’s an intelligent Mom, intelligent woman. But she tells me that I should never be content. I sigh a deep sigh because Mom sighs and because I’m afraid.

It’s scary, even insane how fast my emotions change. I was about to explode then I’m so calm. I was about to cry then I’m laughing. Just by one soothing assurance from Mom, I’m well again. My emotions fluctuate and I wish Mom’s always happy because then I would be always happy. Love you Mom.

12.12.15

그대의 자질은 다름답다. 그런 자질을 가지고 아무것도 않겠다해도. 내 뭐라고할수 없지만. 그대가 만약 온마음과 힘을 다해 노력한다면. 무슨일이든 해내지 못하겠느가? 그러니 부디 포기하지말게 . . .

세종실록 22 권중 (엄마가 알려준 말)

Tortoise and Hare

I have completely forgotten about this lovely tale of Tortoise and Hare. Hare runs fast,Tortoise slow, but in the end, Tortoise wins the race! I’ve realized I’m the Hare and I want results quickly, almost instantaneously--and I’m often impatient and unmerciful with myself.

However, beyond the speed and instant gratification is the steadiness of a hard working Tortoise. You may be tempted to take a nap. You may be tempted to give up. You may be tempted to not even start. But step by step, you will eventually reach your end if and only if you keep on moving, just like the steady Tortoise.

What a wise story. And what a pity that it’s only told to children as a bed time story. Adults should be reminded of the beauty and the value of the steady Tortoise.

12.10.15

Reminders

1. Read and pray regularly and frequently

2. Eat regularly and frequently

2. Remember . . . that I am created in the Image of God that I am LOVED that my identity is in my Father, Lord Jesus that my trust is the LORD that there is One who loves me regardless of how much I achieve

so... don’t be swayed by hurtful, thoughtless words of others be sad but be strong because my roots lie deep in the LORD and I will be able walk and work steadily.

12.7.15

by His Amazing Grace

God loves me so much, and I didn’t know it. I will never be able to comprehend the depth of his love, but I’m so glad I can feel just a portion of it. I’m thankful that I can be thankful. I’m so grateful for the time of healing that He provided.

I feel so refreshed and renewed, strengthened by the Grace of our loving God.

God gives us instantaneous healing when we desperately cry out, desiring Him more than ever. He never neglects us but trains us to be honest with him. Honest to point of being ashamed.

So Dear God, let me hold on to you tightly and let me find my identity solely on you and let me love you more than anything else so that I can find my identity in the love you’ve shown to me and let me be shaped into a tree with roots so deep that I can’t be shaken by things of this world.

I love you.

12.7.15

Jeremiah 17

Thus says the LORD: “Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the LORD. He is like a shrub in the desert and shall not see any good come. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness in an uninhabited salt land.

“Blessed is he man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for is leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.”

12/2/2015

Summer Sky at Wilson Park, Wayne, and church.

Summer School (July - August 2015) miss my boys and girls!

#SATishard

Areas that *Need Improvement*

1. Emotional decision making: Be wary of making hasty choices that often hurt the people around me. Make sure I seek God first -- ask my parents -- ask others -- and pray again.

2. Avoid saying things like “You don’t understand because you never went through it!” Saying such words is very hurtful. It’s disregarding the other person’s experience and feelings.

3. CALM DOWN and stop talking back . . . Be careful of how and what I say when I feel anxious/angry/frustrated. Take a breath and calm down and think again and pray before I say another hurtful things.

4. Perseverance that depends not on the circumstances nor my emotions but solely in the Lord. Dear God, please give me the diligence and perseverance and discipline to keep on going and keep on studying.

5. Eat more frequently and in small amounts. YUM.

9.11.15

Thinking

Yesterday, I got to skype with my friends at Dartmouth. First thing they said: “Wow Soonsoo! Your hair has grown so long!”

In March, I had my hair cut really short. It barely touched my shoulders. Now, my hair extends well beyond--almost full 5 inches below my shoulders. Today is the first day of September, and I can’t help but awe at the speed of time.

Time ticks. No matter how desperate you want to stop it and rewind, time goes on. And essentially, we are getting one step closer to our end. Sadly, we don’t know how our time ends, and this state of uncertainty creates (at least for me) anxiety.

People say things like “I have so much time” or “I don’t have much time.” Can we own time? Is time something to be owned and controlled? Time is indifferent to our emotions, our needs, and our wants. Not one Hollywood actress can beat the time--she will be wrinkly with white hair some day. Yet we desperately wish we could beat the time.

Time is merciless and merciful. We can characterize time however we want, but nothing changes. We don’t have a time machine.

Time doesn’t need to pause for a break. It requires no rest, no food, no care. So strong on its own that it is scary.

But we are blessed to be given Time. We are blessed that with time, our hurts can be healed and our sins forgiven. We are blessed that we are not stuck in a black hole of sameness. We are so blessed to be given Time. And we should treasure every second of it-- because we don’t know when it will end. So I want to be wise and use time wisely. Use time wisely...and be joyful always. :)

9.1.15

At least once a week on the Dartmouth College campus, I see a student, eyes glued to a smartphone, literally walk into a tree or a pole or a peer. I don’t mean to laugh (and usually I suppress the urge), but c’mon, it’s a little bit funny. Sure, if...

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pictures I like ... @ Budapest

Roma with friends~

Rome was such a charming city.

There were too many people, especially on the buses and subways -- I had to squat and twist my arms to fit ... Also, there were too many Indian ajussis on the streets trying to sell selfie sticks, chargers, and tourist packages to us. They would say Ni Hao and Gonitziwa, and Minjee and Susana would stare them in the face and shout, “We are Koreans!” LOL

Although I couldn’t digest properly and had to take pills every day, and although it was scorching hot that I felt my skin burn, I LOVED being in Rome. Such a charming city.

I’m so glad I traveled with friends. I’m so glad they are so strong and so bold. Oh God, I traveled so much last few days here in Vienna, and I’m so grateful. Thank you.

6.2-5.15

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