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Stefan + plaid

SO I JUST STUMBLED UPON AN OLD VIDEO ON JIMMY0010′S CHANNEL

FEATURING KICKTHEPJ AND OMG

PJ LOOKS LIKE SCENE KID

IT’S LIKE

NO

N

O

I DON’T WANT TO BE REMINDED BY SHITTY FUCKBOYS WHO ARE LIKE THE MASTERS OF MIXED FUCKING MESSAGES I WANT TO WATCH MY YOUTUBE BOYS

FUCK YOU SCENE KID. YET ANOTHER PART OF MY LIFE YOU HAVE RUINED

#rambles

so i’m trapped in this weird negative spiral and i’ll try and explain it but it’s not really easy to understand but it’s really fucked me up so yeah

all i’ve been fucking doing is putting others before myself no matter how much it kills me or how much i have to sacrifice

and whenever i think about myself it makes me feel worse. whenever i think about having to sacrifice what i want to do (and it’s always me who has to change plans or cancel stuff or make the effort) i have to remind myself “they need you to do it, you’re helping them”

and all i get in return are lies and excuses. after my tainwreck extravaganza of a party earlier this month i didnt even get a single thank you but i got a trashed house and a grounding

not one person has asked me to hang out with them this summer

not one person has ever cancelled something so my plans can fit with theirs like i’ve had to this summer

but it’s okay, because these people are the ones i have to think about first. because it’s selfish if i think about myself

bad people don’t get good things, that’s something my mum used to tell me when i was naughty when i was younger

and i’m a bad person clearly because i’ve had to sacrifice my entire summer for people who don’t even say thank your for trashing my house

and i’m probably not going to get the grades i need to get into the university i want despite trying really hard this year because i don’t deserve them whereas those same people are going to get what they want and do what they want

but it’s okay because they deserve it. i’m sure they tried hard too. i’m sure they spend every night worrying about their future because they’ve always been plagued by bad luck from the universe too

but no, because they’re not bad people. because bad people don’t get good things.

and i shouldn’t think of myself like i deserve something because that’s selfish and selfishness is bad.

cue to try to think about all the others, whereas i’m not even on the back of their minds.

lather

rinse

repeat

#rambles

Not sure if it's because my hormones are changing or if it's because I've came to the realisation I'll be alone forever or the fact I'm forced into a platonic friendship thing with the only boy I ever really liked or if it's just how it is but goddamn every man I've seen today is hot

#rambles

Saw scene-kid today I think we've fallen into the vague platonic acquaintance category It's not so bad except my feelings for him and everything I'll work through it, considering I'm destined for disappointment and unhappiness

motionwaltz

#CUTE POETRY MEME

Please go see Magic Mike XXL like its so much better than the first one and Donald Glover is in it singing Marry You and Matt Bomer has more screen time and sings Heaven and it's actually great and makes you feel good about yourself and there's so much different types of representation and the genres are a bit over the place but it works and it gives a really positive message and stuff plus like 95% of the time there's shirtless men which ofc because it's a film about stripping

#magic mike xxl #rambles #please go see

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how do you convey the emotion “thats cool i guess but he’s still literally one of the worst people alive”

deep-sexts

#niatt #chayer

I still can't believe how stupid and desperate I was last night Though he started it. If you don't want to kiss a girl you used to kiss in nightclubs don't actually go up to her I'm going to blame him even though the one I should be blaming is myself

#rambles

Scene kid made a reappearance today And I think that's all I'm going to say about that

#ramblss