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NC ✈️ nowhere else. Just NC. Je parle un peu français https://teespring.com/E-G-O http://sophisticatedignoramus.tumblr.com/tagged/me

[sophisticatedignoramus]

This is my fav filter on Snapchat. Before they ruined snapchat.

[sophisticatedignoramus]

How a ugly nigga didn’t commit suicide.

Yea, this is a super long post. Sorry 😕

4 years ago on November 22,2014 I tried to kill myself. I was 22. The night before was a Friday and I just threw myself at the woman I loved at the time. I was chasing her for 2 years before I made my move. I didn’t just chase her for no reason. I was led on. We were cuddle buddies. We made out. I touched her in places a friend shouldn’t be touching. We had late night talks about any and everything all the time. She was my best friend. Like before that time I’ve never experienced anything like it. It’s hard out here for an ugly nigga. I wasn’t desirable to women. She was the first gorgeous woman to give me attention and show me that how I looked meant nothing. What mattered was my heart. See I never experienced a woman’s touch, attention, interest. Growing up I was constantly made fun of because I was dark skin and ugly. I let it bother me and I gained weight. So not only was I black and ugly, I was fat. High school was hell (we aren’t going to go there in this post). I spent a lot of my adult life working out and trying to lose the weight I did gain. On the night before she came over and kicked it with me and played call of duty. She played for hours. While she’s playing call of duty I’m drinking some good ole Bacardi pineapple fusion (mixed with kool-aid). I had about 4 cups before she stopped playing. I laid down in my bed and she went to my roommates room to go to sleep (my roommate is her cousin). I don’t know why but I was feeling bold as fuck and text her saying “yo come back in here take off those leggings and let me eat you out while you play CoD” (I’ve never ate a woman out I had no idea what I would’ve been doing). She replies lol then comes back into my room and tells me how I’ll never have a chance with her. How she’ll destroy me emotionally if we were in a relationship. All that good ole jive. One thing I forgot to mention was that I just lost two aunts back to back. Like I lost one in October then another in November.

Anyway.

She starts rubbing my back and I lose it. I vent and tell her how stressed I was with loosing my aunts, wanting her for 2-3 years and being led on, everything not going my way in my life at the time. After I vent I ask her for some weed. (I do not smoke weed. I was in a bad place to want some) she’s like “are you sure.” I’m like “yea”. Fast forward 2 hours we rolled up and started smoking. We crack jokes like we did before and I’m beginning to believe that I can come back from this. We were okay. Or so I thought. We head back inside and I notice the sun is up. Ya boy had no sleep! We go to my room, I get ready to lay down and she grabs her things to go. As she leaves I go in for a hug and she stops me. “I think we should keep it cordial for now.” She said as she put her hand out for dap. I’m stuck. Drunk and high I mouth the words “I can’t hug my best friend?” I couldn’t even get the words out. She just looks at me and I mouth the words again. “I can’t hug my best friend”. We stare for a while then she turns around to leave. I laid down on my bed. Hearing the front door close I realized what I’ve done and how things will be completely different now. “But how. I loved her. I did everything I could for her. How could she not feel the same way about me. It’s because I’m ugly.” These were some of the things I said to myself while I laid in bed. “Chris. This life hasn’t done right by us. Check the bathroom for some pills. You know she left some.” I get up and go check the bathroom. Nothing. Damn. “You know what it’s all good. We got plenty of knives” as I walk from the bathroom, Past my roommates room, Through the living room to the kitchen, A fuckton of memories just flooded my brain. Some good. A lot bad. As I get closer to the kitchen my other roommate leaves his room to go to work. He asks me if I’m good. I say yea. He leaves. “Is this really the end for me. I can’t take it anymore. I’ll never be happy. It’s not worth it.” I open the kitchen drawer and I swear as I grabbed a knife I got a phone call. It was my sister. She was calling to wake me up before she went in to work. I cut my finger vertically. I ask her if she’s okay. She asks if I’m okay. I lie of course and tell her yes. She hangs up after saying “I love you talk to you later bye”. I dropped my phone and burst into tears. As much as I’ve hated myself and my life I loved my little sister to death. I began thinking about how she’s be affected. Then my moms. Then my aunt. Then my cousins. “Im the only male role model they have. I can’t do this”. I get up go to the sink and rinse my finger off with cold water. I throw the knife away. Go back to my bedroom. I close the door. Lock it. Lay down in bed and cry. For an hour. Then go to sleep.

Look at me now four years later happily married and happy. I do what I love (stream video games via twitch) andddddd yea. That’s it folks.

No one knows about this. I’ve never told a soul about me nearly killing myself. I don’t know why but I felt the need to post it on my blog. I guess I felt it was time someone knew my story. I know it’s a long read but I appreciate you taking the time out to read this. No matter what guys think of your loved ones and those who’ll truly be affected by your absence. Suicide is not the answer. I’ll be an ear for any of you that need it. I love y’all.

[sophisticatedignoramus]

Prepare for a super long personal post.

[fuks]

[imrubio]

Lmaooo

[gunzonyatmblr]

bruhhhhhh lmaoo

[siege1]

Even the dolphin looks a little uncomfortable, lol

[chvrlieherbs-deactivated2022021]

^^^^ right lol i look at the dolphins eye and i cant stop laugh now😭💀

[fukkce]

imagine driving then all of a sudden you see this lmaooooooooooo

[stoicdaydreamer]

Yall really make me wanna rent a Uhaul for this type of foolery💀

[samoforthesocalledavantgarde]

Lmfao I love black people so much

[ohboydonald]

I’m dead 😂

[meme-theft]

Wut

[a-conversationn]

Why would you lie

[thathighguy]

I trusted you

[i-hate-chick-fil-a]

Everyone can help with at least one of these things.

1. Call Out The U.N., make sure they direct their efforts toward this cause 

2. Support the International Organization For Migration (IOM).

3. Fight the “root causes” of slavery and trafficking 

4. Hold social media companies accountable 

According to the IOM, smugglers have previously used Facebook Live to broadcast videos of imprisoned migrants in Libya to send these videos to migrants’ family members as a way of extorting money for their release. The IOM is asking social media companies to ban the use of their services for the sharing of these types of videos. You can also write to Facebook, and have this stopped. 

5. Donate to global anti-slavery companies 

6.  Help raise awareness! 

7. Shop slave free 

Atlanta is in the top 3 across the world for sex trafficking. Sad but true

[fikfreak]

Shameful…but we can do something even in our little corner of the world…the law firm I work at matched charitable contributions on giving Tuesday…so I gave what I could spare…little things like this can help…educate yourselves and friends and coworkers on the history of colonization and imperialism, and the western world’s constant meddling that creates the perfect storm for these kinds of abuses…come on y’all let’s each of us try to do something to help out!

[markparham]

You Are Going To Have So Much Success In 2018 (pass it on)

[tubesock]

View this post on Instagram

[mxxn-kitten-deactivated20180722]

Who is this man

[kingkhufu94]

Hes back lmao

[chleopatraapaige]

is this Dwayne Wade

[the-dimepiec3]

What the fuck just happened

[weavemama]

???????????????

[likehercoffee-deactivated202008]

that’s who gotta listen to all the fire mixtapes

[jvzmy-n]

Black girl probs

[k-wonderpaluza]

😂😂😂honestly

[blackgirlslovebts-deactivated20]

mine be half way on 💀

[futureblackwakandan-deactivated]

I get so scared tbh

[perfectlyuglylife]

Tell me why this morning I woke up and mine was in my pants 😩 what’s really goin on

[itskyalenotkyle]

When you don’t know who you’re robbing

[bloodclaatpussyclaat]

Lmaooooooooooo. This is so elaborate

[applesweetchelle]

CUT IT TF OUT 🤣🤣🤣

[kiefbowl]

This is my favorite video

[blocboyt-deactivated20181205]

By this time next year I’m going to be at a better place in my life.

[trappeds0ull-deactivated2020072]

Amen

[bethanyyazzy13]

[melanin-king]

[legendaryshayne-deactivated2019]

I’ve been looking for this for ever

[cartnsncreal]

Deandre Hopkins skips practice and players react to Bob McNair's words

McNair, the owner of the Houston Texans, addressed player protests saying, “We can’t have the inmates running the prison.” The backlash to his comments was swift. Star receiver Deandre Hopkins was reportedly a no-show in protest, and other athletes and their family members were extremely disappointed and disgusted. 

This is completely outrageous! Nowadays, white supremacists don’t even hide the fact that they hate Black people.

[sophisticatedignoramus]

Small update

So I’ve been video game streaming on twitch for almost 4 months now. As I’m growing and getting blessed I’ve been finding more and more black gamers and I love it. Before I started streaming I barely knew any black gamers and lost hope of finding any to be honest. It’s amazing the support we bing to one another man. I love it #SupportBlackStreamers

[cartnsncreal]

well said