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♡ erin / ewin ♡ 25 ♡ they / she ♡ femme nonbinary lesbian ♡ artist + (rookie) voice actor ♡ was @cieloisqueen ♡

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you don't even know who i am

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i was testing some colors and i ended up turning this into a full piece, so here's my updated persona that i haven't posted :D

can a lesbian be THIS purple??? (the answer is yes)

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on the topic of my sona, here’s a less chibi-fied sketch page of them :3 i have a lot of fun with them!!

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i was testing some colors and i ended up turning this into a full piece, so here's my updated persona that i haven't posted :D

can a lesbian be THIS purple??? (the answer is yes)

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hello phantomhivers, have a post-it sharpie doodle from last month (i think)

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oh, another update that i never gave, since my posting essentially came to a drastic halt around pre-pandemic times (with a few scattered posts far and few in between), in early 2021, i had come to realize that i’m nonbinary!! and in mid 2023, i’ve finally realized that i’m a lesbian!! after these discoveries, i have never felt happier in my life, i’m finally living comfortably in my identity and living my truth. :)

i've had such a wonderful support network too, i have wonderful friends and an amazing partner who love me and accept me for who i am, and who embrace me for all the weirdness that i have to offer, and i could not be more grateful.

i absolutely feel like my lesbianism is so deeply woven into my gender identity that i really can't separate the two. and in a way, i've never really felt like... traditionally feminine? femininity that i had seen in the media and that other girls practiced around me was something i never resonated with, it always felt so off to me. my femininity that i feel is not, and will never be, for the eyes or the appeal of a man. my femininity feels unbound from any patriarchal standards, and i highly resonate with the femme identity for that reason, but even then, it doesn't feel feminine in like... a "female" way, if that makes any sense. i've always just felt like a little critter.

as silly as this may sound, when i had seen chiikawa last year and heard about how they really don't have a gender, and that they're just a small cute thing, that's when it had finally clicked into place on how to word my experience with my gender. i'm not really a girl, i'm just a small cute thing, and that's what i've always been!! so that's my experience, i've been living my little femme creature life, and i'm incredibly happy :]

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don’t worry cielois fans, don’t you EVER think i forgot about you

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i forgot to share this as well!! i made this selfship drawing for my lovely partner of their drifter and arthur!! the tiniest littlest critters :] <333

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finally changed my layout (this is a temporary layout until i can get a more recent pfp with my current sona), an end of an era </3 (i just put the pfp and banner on my placeholder acc LOL not all is lost)

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okay final warframe doodle dump i’m done i’m done i promise… for now. i’ve had a lot of catching up to do LOL

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while i’m posting warframe doodles, might as well post this silly comic i did of my dearest partner and i’s operators, it is both of their first days on earth <3

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first time posting on tumblr, kinda confused how all this goes but i have my hope to find my people here! ✏️

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also i did in fact spam like pretty much every follie drawing on here because y'all are the only ones who actually draw her fat. i know i shouldn't be using twt as a good frame of reference, but it is so unbelievably refreshing to see people ACTUALLY draw bigger body types, it feels so peaceful over here T__T

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everyone PLEASE! she'll lose all of her ideas if you keep fighting over her!!!

i've been super into warframe for the past six months or so, and when follie was teased, words could not describe the EXCITEMENT i had for her, and i sketched this in response to the incel backlash a couple months ago lol

anyways i hope y'all are having fun with the shadowgrapher update!! i know i am!!! <333

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every so often i check my notifs and i'm like... woah, my posts STILL get traction, that's absolutely wild. tumblr is a magical place for that

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i'm coming back here, i decided to look at which posts were still getting likes and. wow. some of those posts are DATED. my quirk chungus cielois posts </3 but it was like 2015-2017, those WERE the years to be doing that, but those are HARD READS.

but denying myself of that cringe is denying me of myself, like yeah, it's a bit embarrassing to look back on, but it's who i was: some obnoxious teenager who was deep in fandom hell and enjoying it with people of like minds. it's how i made so many of the connections i have today, and i don't regret that in the slightest. idk if people are still preaching "to be cringe is to be free", but i still live by it. i was free then, and hell, i'll still be free now. what a crazy journey fandoms have taken me on, and how crazy is it that it has changed my life so drastically. wild! anyways those are my thoughts for the afternoon

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bestfriends lol 🩷💙

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every so often i check my notifs and i'm like... woah, my posts STILL get traction, that's absolutely wild. tumblr is a magical place for that

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completely normal claude and sebastian banter, nothing out of the ordinary