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[soughtlight]

#           𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁        𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁           ⸻         also   known   as   misery   needs   company,   the   loneliness   of   the   strongest,   the   insurmountable   trial   of   waking   up   every   morning,   rewriting   an   ending   or   two,   taping   ephemera   to   dotted   pages,   hitting   yourself   with   a   hammer   (   because   it   feels   so   good   when   you   stop   ),   and   mercy   having   a   human   heart   .           ╲           rebuilt   by   reddie,   dependent   on   deepspacetv.

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[lemurianjasmine]

– Xavier...I curse you. You shall never find deliverance! You will be devoured in the act of slaughter...! – Is that so? May your last words come to fruition.

[soughtlight]

what   was   something   you   realized   about   yourself   last   year   ?

𝗮𝘀𝗸  𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗲  𝟬𝟬𝟭  |  accepting  !

the  revelation  could  go  both  ways,  really.  that  eunho  realized  the  people  around  him  were  not  deserving  of  the  whole-hearted  trust  that  he  placed  in  them,  that  eunho  trusted  too  freely  and  was  quite  stupid  for  it.  pity  the  fool  who  believed  a  singular,  unifying  goal  (the  eradication  of  all  wanderers!)  would  prove  a  sufficient  barrier  to  the  cruelties  of  ambition.  both  parts  naivety  and  selfishness,  he's  come  to  conclude  after  hours  of  sitting  alone  in  his  darkened  apartment.  evenings  drinking  downstairs  only  delayed  his  more  introspective  moments;  burdensome  thoughts  came  crashing  down  on  him  as  though  eunho  was  the  magnet  of  an  mri.

he'd  been  uniquely  oblivious  to  the  notions  of  others  being  others.  he  could  muster  sympathy  for  wrongs  and  suffering,  had  come  to  appreciate  compassion  and  a  good  heart,  enough  to  trip  and  fall  headfirst  in  love.  but  a  certain  dismissiveness  colored  his  opinions.  sure,  but…  the  wanderers.  they're  what  really  matters.  he  was  not  as  nice  a  person  as  he  thought.

[soughtlight]

have you ever been seriously injured during a mission ?

𝗮𝘀𝗸  𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗲  𝟬𝟬𝟭  |  accepting  !

he  wears  turtlenecks  because  the  scars  make  other  people  uncomfortable.  to  eunho,  they're  markers  of  progress,  badges  of  honor,  each  healed  gash  is  another  wanderer  dead  and  gone  (until  it  reforms  again  somewhere  down  the  line).  the  gnarly  burn  stretching  down  his  back  from  the  lash  of  a  flamma  ignis  —  back  when  he  was  just  a  field  agent,  though  no  less  willing  to  jump  into  the  front  lines  —  is  the  one  that  draws  the  most  stares,  evne  if  only  slivers  peek  out  from  his  tank  tops,  puckered  and  discolored  skin  still  stiff  and  achey  all  these  years  later.

eunho  hasn't  done  the  math  yet.  maybe  he's  spent  equal  time  recuperating  from  injuries  sustained  in  the  field  as  he  has  fighting  the  good  fight.  it'd  be  funny  if  it  wasn't  so  sad,  that  he's  got  no  one  to  nurse  him  during  his  convalescence.  he  tries  not  to  think  too  hard  about  it.

[soughtlight]

𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻,  𝗻𝗼𝘁  𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗱 where?  flux  arts'  open  bar with  who?  @inawildflower  /  choi  yeonghwan

decorum  is  a  word  decidedly  absent  from  eunho's  vocabulary.  it  isn't  to  say  that  he's  a  brute  or  a  slob  —  he's  softspoken,  not  rude,  and  he  knows  the  value  in  appearances.  he  can  endure  waddling  around  in  a  constrictive  suit  for  hours  at  a  time.  it's  just  …  he  sees  little  point  in  it.  it's  as  expected  a  social  more  as  bowing.  maybe  it's  another  instance  of  absent  willpower,  that  he'd  lower  his  head  and  shuffle  off  to  these  events  with  nary  a  whimper.  or,  maybe  it's  that  these  events  are  no  longer  as  unbearable  as  they  could  be.  it  used  to  be  about  finding  haena's  eyes  from  across  a  room,  stifling  the  smile  she  would  reel  out  of  him  to  avoid  any  observers'  questions.  eunho  has  learned  his  lesson.  separation  between  work  and  personal  life  is  paramount,  even  though  this  would  normally  be  his  off-hours.  it  does  get  a  bit  harder  when  work  follows  him  home,  though  that's  a  bit  of  an  exaggeration.  work  lives  one  floor  down.

the  more  poetically  inclined  might  indicate  how  art  imitates  life  —  the  delineation  between  teams  alpha  and  bravo  made  manifest  through  architecture.  and,  in  truth,  eunho  hasn't  given  much  thought  to  his  sister  team.  the  question  is  not  of  his  dislike  of  the  members  (since  at  least  one  still  has  fond  memories  attached,  as  much  as  the  painful  ones  still  linger),  nor  any  disdain  towards  their  lack  of  skill.  rather,  it  seems  just  a  sign  that  eunho  doesn't  think.  so  maybe  he  hasn't  learned  all  that  much  after  all.

eunho's  tolerance  has  gone  up  quite  a  bit  since  his  friendship  with  yeonghwan  began.  an  embarrassing  amount  of  time  passed  before  he  realized  they  were  neighbors,  but  the  subsequent  nights  of  drinking  and  shooting  the  shit  (wallowing,  if  he  wants  to  be  honest,  which…  he  doesn't)  have  closed  the  gap.  “i  could  use  my  evol  to  swipe  the  cognac  they've  got  over  there,  you  know,”  he  whispers,  nudging  yeonghwan's  shoulder.  “that  makes  me  sound  like  i  have  a  problem…  doesn't  it?”

[deepspacetv]

⋆.˚𖦹⋆✮⋆.˚   happy   lunar   new   year   ,   hunters   !   reblog   this   post   if   you'd   like   to   participate   in   this   ask   meme   to   ring   in   the   year   of   the   horse   .   these   questions   address   your   muses'   personality   or   their   histories   as   unicorns   agents   ;   no   need   to   run   any   minor   missions   by   the   main   ,   but   if   you'd   like   more   clarity   on   anything   please   don't   hesitate   to   ask   !

please   make   sure   your   ask   box   is   enabled   if   you   haven't   already   done   so   .   participation   is   optional   ,   but   answering   3   prompts   will   count   as   meeting   activity   for   this   week   .   while   you   may   choose   to   do   so   on   or   off   anon   ,   please   also   be   sure   to   send   some   questions   to   everyone   who   is   participating   !

⋆˚࿔   HORSE

do   you   consider   yourself   impulsive   ,   or   are   you   more   of   a   planner   ?

how   important   is   independence   in   your   life   ?

when   is   the   last   time   you've   run   from   a   challenge   ?

⋆˚࿔   GOAT

who's   your   closest   teammate   ?

if   you   could   switch   to   another   team   ,   which   would   it   be   ?

what   advice   would   you   give   your   younger   self   ?

⋆˚࿔   MONKEY

how   good   are   you   at   multi-tasking   ?

would   you   rather   have   a   silver   tongue   or   a   silver   spoon   ?

have   you   ever   fallen   for   a   scam   ?

⋆˚࿔   ROOSTER

what   was   something   you   realized   about   yourself   last   year   ?

how   many   backup   plans   do   you   have   at   any   given   time   ?

are   you   more   loyal   to   people   or   ideas   ?

⋆˚࿔   DOG

are   you   looking   for   a   promotion   this   year   ?

what's   your   most   desirable   trait   in   a   partner   or   collaborator   ?

how   often   do   you   revisit   paused   plans   ?

⋆˚࿔   PIG

how   do   you   deal   with   frustration   ?

what   does   trust   look   like   to   you   ?

do   you   pressure   yourself   or   do   others   pressure   you   more   ?

⋆˚࿔   RAT

is   financial   or   emotional   stability   more   important   to   you   ?

do   you   like   your   super   hunters   character   ?

who   is   your   least   favorite   teammate   ?

⋆˚࿔   OX

have   you   ever   been   seriously   injured   during   a   mission   ?

do   wanderers   frighten   you   ?

what   is   one   skill   you   hope   to   improve   on   this   year   ?

⋆˚࿔   TIGER

do   you   work   all   the   way   through   a   long   task   without   stopping   ,   or   do   you   take   breaks   ?

what   is   one   relationship   you   hope   to   improve   this   year   ?

how   would   you   quantify   your   work/life   balance   in   percentages   ?   (   i.e.   70/30   ,   50/50   )

⋆˚࿔   RABBIT

how   would   you   describe   your   aesthetic   sense   ?

do   you   consider   yourself   cultured   ?

how   independent   are   you   in   your   work   ?

⋆˚࿔   DRAGON

would   you   rather   life   be   easy   ,   or   would   you   seek   out   challenges   ?

are   you   a   fan   of   large   gestures   ?

do   you   fall   asleep   to   silence   or   background   noise   ?

⋆˚࿔   SNAKE

do   you   compare   yourself   to   others   often   ?

what   is   your   greatest   strength   ?

(   for   alpha   /   beta   )   are   you   looking   to   move   up   the   leaderboard   this   year   ?   (   for   delta   )   who   do   you   think   will   top   the   leaderboard   this   year   ?

[soughtlight]

𝗶𝗻  𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗻  𝘀𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 capping at 3 ! ( 0 / 3 )

like  with  most  things,  it's  his  fault,  and  it's  because  he  didn't  think  things  through.  it  wouldn't  do  to  skulk  to  the  walls,  because  there  are  precious  paintings  on  them  and  he  doesn't  want  to  inadvertently  knock  over  something  fragile,  especially  if  someone's  already  bid  on  it.  neither  does  he  want  to  hop  into  the  stairwell,  because  what  if  someone  is  looking  for  him?  (they're  always  looking  for  him.  everyone  wants  something  from  the  captain  of  team  alpha.)  when  people  call  him  shadow  lumiere,  it's  inaccurate  in  multiple  ways  —  for  one,  he's  nothing  like  lumiere,  who  is  as  elusive  as  he  is  powerful  (and  okay,  maybe  eunho  can  see  where  people  are  coming  from  now),  and  secondly,  his  powers  have  nothing  to  do  with  shadow.  they're  about  light,  about  the  way  it  bends,  not  the  absence  of  it.

so,  in  conclusion,  he  does  not  have  to  find  darkness  to  hide.  he  can  disappear  just  by  standing  in  the  middle  of  the  room  and  using  his  evol.

frankly,  it's  a  miracle  this  is  the  first  time  someone's  run  into  him.  the  other  unicorns  agents  must  be  able  to  at  least  sense  the  evol  energy  at  play,  but  the  regular  fundraiser  attendees  would  have  no  idea  a  giant  roadblock  is  right  in  their  path.  eunho's  trying  to  be  cognizant  of  his  surroundings,  mindful  of  who's  coming  close  so  he  can  sidestep  them  without  the  pedestrian  any  the  wiser.  technically  speaking,  one  might  be  able  to  spot  two  floating  dots  shifting  around  the  space,  right  about  where  his  eyes  would  be,  but  they  don't  take  in  any  information  coming  in  from  behind,  and  so  it  seems  both  of  them  are  equally  as  helpless  as  they  collide.

“ah,”  is  eunho's  response  to  the  crash,  a  staccato  half-word.  he  drops  his  evol  and  his  whole  self  comes  into  view,  earning  himself  a  more  appropriate  squeak  of  surprise  from  nearby.  he  leans  over  his  temporarily-fallen  comrade  with  outstretched,  uncertain  hands.  “sorry.  are  you  all  right…?”

[soughtlight]

심  은호  (  𝑻𝑯𝑬  𝑨𝒁𝑼𝑹𝑬  𝑫𝑹𝑨𝑮𝑶𝑵  )  ⸻  drawing  influence  from  :  전지적   독자   시점's  yoo  joonghyuk,  呪術廻戦's  okkotsu  yūta  and  fushiguro  megumi,  james  gunn's  superman, 進撃の巨人's mikasa ackerman,  恋与深空's  xavier  shen,  and  chainsaw  man's  hayakawa  aki.

jumps  on  you  all  like  the  pixar  lamp  !!  what's  good  linkon  cityyyy,  reddie  here  to  bring  you  resident  emo  cries-in-the-shower boy  and  the ace  of  unicorns,  shim  eunho  ! more on him under the cut, please hit the 🤍 and i will come running into your dms ( once i return to the land of the living )

the chronorift catastrophe is the single worst day in his life, but he's hardly known any better ones since. born and raised in linkon city, his whole family is buried under the rubble of wanderer attacks — his father, mother, and little sister gone in an instant. both his evol and lumiere himself save him from getting killed, and from then on, he's only had a single goal: to get rid of the wanderers once and for all.

sixteen years old at the time of the hunters association's formation, he was technically still too young to attend the academy. he wouldn't stop bothering them until they accepted him a year ahead of his peers, on the condition that he also graduate high school on time. eunho will let nothing get in the way of his goals, so he goes above and beyond. he's the top-ranked student of his school. he goes on to be the top-ranked recruit of the hunters academy.

unicorns is chomping at the bit to have him, and because he knows they deal with the worst of the worst ( as the best of the best ), he welcomes the assignment with open arms. what he does not expect is to be put in charge of people — and if anybody bothered to ask eunho, he'd tell them he shouldn't be.

but he's one of the faces of the association. handsome, tall, and strong, eunho becomes one of the youngest hunters to get a double-digit solo kill count. the fame chafes at him. he's never been very good with people, not since his family died, and now he can't even stop by a bakery without being swarmed by adoring fans who refer to him as shadow lumiere. it gets exhausting fast, just as his responsibilities do.

the one bright spot in his life since the catastrophe is his relationship. he never expected to find someone, always so sure he'd die at a wanderer's hand, but this connection is something precious, something fragile, something cherished. incongruously, he's less careful about it than he should be. if the others could see how meaningful it is to him, how it only makes him stronger, then surely they'll accept it. after an official report, though, it's not that simple or easy anymore.

he tries to protest both the demoting transfer and the promotion. the most hq acknowledges is that this is one of the only times he's spoken up about anything; usually it'd be his vice-captain doing all of the talking. he threatens to quit. unicorns counters by saying they'll revoke his license if he does. and if he continues hunting wanderers without one, he'll be considered tenebra. they'll hunt him to the ends of the earth and drag him back kicking and screaming. eunho is a weapon. they will never let him retire — and isn't that what he wanted all along ? helplessly, he lets himself sink into darkness.

an already apathetic leader drifts into an entirely absent one. he barely pays attention to mission briefings, goes off on his own when he can, and seems adamant on not connecting with another human being for as long as he lives. if the association wants to make him a thing, then a thing he will be.

pandia shakes him out of his stupor, if only for a moment. the scene he comes across, among the first to answer the distress signal, reminds him of the catastrophe. he recalls his purpose — defender of the innocent, slayer of monsters, all that good stuff that's said about the cartoon him on tv. the fallen members of charlie and echo are more souls for him to avenge. but more than that, there are people who are still here ( even if they are out of his reach, even if he pushed them there ) that he can give his life to defend. and so he will.

the revelation doesn't last very long. it's hard to stay motivated for a long time. eunho likes the sound of ideals, but in practice, he gives himself plenty of leeway — large enough gaps to fall back into bad habits like wallowing. subordinates will notice that he tries to be more present, failing more often than not, and if he starts racking in more team kills... surely that's a good thing ?

knows something unnatural, maybe even man-made, went terribly wrong with pandia, but lacks the sufficient motivation to do anything about it. eunho's focus is on the day-to-day, taking missions below his rank to hone his skill and save as many lives as possible. but it's starting to eat at him, sallow cheeks and dark-bagged eyes scored into his flesh. it won't be long before he sinks into another abyss.

connections forthcoming, but given the limited skeleton pool i'd love it if we could work something out individually !

[ahotknife]

oh emily wilson translation of the iliad we’re really in it now

[boykeats]

[ID: text excerpt with all text highlighted in yellow except for the last sentence, reading:

You already know the story. You will die. Everyone you love with also die. You will lose them forever. You will be sad and angry. You will weep. You will bargain. You will make demands. You will beg. You will pray. It will make no difference. Nothing you can do will bring them back. You know this. Your knowing changes nothing. This poem will make you understand this unfathomable truth again and again, as if for the very first time.

/end ID.]

[namjoohyuk]

[soopspoons]

I know I’m late, but congratulations. Congratulations!