# 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 ⸻ also known as misery needs company, the loneliness of the strongest, the insurmountable trial of waking up every morning, rewriting an ending or two, taping ephemera to dotted pages, hitting yourself with a hammer ( because it feels so good when you stop ), and mercy having a human heart . ╲ rebuilt by reddie, dependent on deepspacetv.
– Xavier...I curse you. You shall never find deliverance! You will be devoured in the act of slaughter...!
– Is that so? May your last words come to fruition.
what was something you realized about yourself last year ?
𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗲 𝟬𝟬𝟭 | accepting !
the revelation could go both ways, really. that eunho realized the people around him were not deserving of the whole-hearted trust that he placed in them, that eunho trusted too freely and was quite stupid for it. pity the fool who believed a singular, unifying goal (the eradication of all wanderers!) would prove a sufficient barrier to the cruelties of ambition. both parts naivety and selfishness, he's come to conclude after hours of sitting alone in his darkened apartment. evenings drinking downstairs only delayed his more introspective moments; burdensome thoughts came crashing down on him as though eunho was the magnet of an mri.
he'd been uniquely oblivious to the notions of others being others. he could muster sympathy for wrongs and suffering, had come to appreciate compassion and a good heart, enough to trip and fall headfirst in love. but a certain dismissiveness colored his opinions. sure, but… the wanderers. they're what really matters. he was not as nice a person as he thought.
have you ever been seriously injured during a mission ?
𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗲 𝟬𝟬𝟭 | accepting !
he wears turtlenecks because the scars make other people uncomfortable. to eunho, they're markers of progress, badges of honor, each healed gash is another wanderer dead and gone (until it reforms again somewhere down the line). the gnarly burn stretching down his back from the lash of a flamma ignis — back when he was just a field agent, though no less willing to jump into the front lines — is the one that draws the most stares, evne if only slivers peek out from his tank tops, puckered and discolored skin still stiff and achey all these years later.
eunho hasn't done the math yet. maybe he's spent equal time recuperating from injuries sustained in the field as he has fighting the good fight. it'd be funny if it wasn't so sad, that he's got no one to nurse him during his convalescence. he tries not to think too hard about it.
𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻, 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗱
where? flux arts' open bar
with who? @inawildflower / choi yeonghwan
decorum is a word decidedly absent from eunho's vocabulary. it isn't to say that he's a brute or a slob — he's softspoken, not rude, and he knows the value in appearances. he can endure waddling around in a constrictive suit for hours at a time. it's just … he sees little point in it. it's as expected a social more as bowing. maybe it's another instance of absent willpower, that he'd lower his head and shuffle off to these events with nary a whimper. or, maybe it's that these events are no longer as unbearable as they could be. it used to be about finding haena's eyes from across a room, stifling the smile she would reel out of him to avoid any observers' questions. eunho has learned his lesson. separation between work and personal life is paramount, even though this would normally be his off-hours. it does get a bit harder when work follows him home, though that's a bit of an exaggeration. work lives one floor down.
the more poetically inclined might indicate how art imitates life — the delineation between teams alpha and bravo made manifest through architecture. and, in truth, eunho hasn't given much thought to his sister team. the question is not of his dislike of the members (since at least one still has fond memories attached, as much as the painful ones still linger), nor any disdain towards their lack of skill. rather, it seems just a sign that eunho doesn't think. so maybe he hasn't learned all that much after all.
eunho's tolerance has gone up quite a bit since his friendship with yeonghwan began. an embarrassing amount of time passed before he realized they were neighbors, but the subsequent nights of drinking and shooting the shit (wallowing, if he wants to be honest, which… he doesn't) have closed the gap. “i could use my evol to swipe the cognac they've got over there, you know,” he whispers, nudging yeonghwan's shoulder. “that makes me sound like i have a problem… doesn't it?”
⋆.˚𖦹⋆✮⋆.˚ happy lunar new year , hunters ! reblog this post if you'd like to participate in this ask meme to ring in the year of the horse . these questions address your muses' personality or their histories as unicorns agents ; no need to run any minor missions by the main , but if you'd like more clarity on anything please don't hesitate to ask !
please make sure your ask box is enabled if you haven't already done so . participation is optional , but answering 3 prompts will count as meeting activity for this week . while you may choose to do so on or off anon , please also be sure to send some questions to everyone who is participating !
⋆˚࿔ HORSE
do you consider yourself impulsive , or are you more of a planner ?
how important is independence in your life ?
when is the last time you've run from a challenge ?
⋆˚࿔ GOAT
who's your closest teammate ?
if you could switch to another team , which would it be ?
what advice would you give your younger self ?
⋆˚࿔ MONKEY
how good are you at multi-tasking ?
would you rather have a silver tongue or a silver spoon ?
have you ever fallen for a scam ?
⋆˚࿔ ROOSTER
what was something you realized about yourself last year ?
how many backup plans do you have at any given time ?
are you more loyal to people or ideas ?
⋆˚࿔ DOG
are you looking for a promotion this year ?
what's your most desirable trait in a partner or collaborator ?
how often do you revisit paused plans ?
⋆˚࿔ PIG
how do you deal with frustration ?
what does trust look like to you ?
do you pressure yourself or do others pressure you more ?
⋆˚࿔ RAT
is financial or emotional stability more important to you ?
do you like your super hunters character ?
who is your least favorite teammate ?
⋆˚࿔ OX
have you ever been seriously injured during a mission ?
do wanderers frighten you ?
what is one skill you hope to improve on this year ?
⋆˚࿔ TIGER
do you work all the way through a long task without stopping , or do you take breaks ?
what is one relationship you hope to improve this year ?
how would you quantify your work/life balance in percentages ? ( i.e. 70/30 , 50/50 )
⋆˚࿔ RABBIT
how would you describe your aesthetic sense ?
do you consider yourself cultured ?
how independent are you in your work ?
⋆˚࿔ DRAGON
would you rather life be easy , or would you seek out challenges ?
are you a fan of large gestures ?
do you fall asleep to silence or background noise ?
⋆˚࿔ SNAKE
do you compare yourself to others often ?
what is your greatest strength ?
( for alpha / beta ) are you looking to move up the leaderboard this year ? ( for delta ) who do you think will top the leaderboard this year ?
like with most things, it's his fault, and it's because he didn't think things through. it wouldn't do to skulk to the walls, because there are precious paintings on them and he doesn't want to inadvertently knock over something fragile, especially if someone's already bid on it. neither does he want to hop into the stairwell, because what if someone is looking for him? (they're always looking for him. everyone wants something from the captain of team alpha.) when people call him shadow lumiere, it's inaccurate in multiple ways — for one, he's nothing like lumiere, who is as elusive as he is powerful (and okay, maybe eunho can see where people are coming from now), and secondly, his powers have nothing to do with shadow. they're about light, about the way it bends, not the absence of it.
so, in conclusion, he does not have to find darkness to hide. he can disappear just by standing in the middle of the room and using his evol.
frankly, it's a miracle this is the first time someone's run into him. the other unicorns agents must be able to at least sense the evol energy at play, but the regular fundraiser attendees would have no idea a giant roadblock is right in their path. eunho's trying to be cognizant of his surroundings, mindful of who's coming close so he can sidestep them without the pedestrian any the wiser. technically speaking, one might be able to spot two floating dots shifting around the space, right about where his eyes would be, but they don't take in any information coming in from behind, and so it seems both of them are equally as helpless as they collide.
“ah,” is eunho's response to the crash, a staccato half-word. he drops his evol and his whole self comes into view, earning himself a more appropriate squeak of surprise from nearby. he leans over his temporarily-fallen comrade with outstretched, uncertain hands. “sorry. are you all right…?”
심 은호 ( 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑨𝒁𝑼𝑹𝑬 𝑫𝑹𝑨𝑮𝑶𝑵 ) ⸻ drawing influence from : 전지적 독자 시점's yoo joonghyuk, 呪術廻戦's okkotsu yūta and fushiguro megumi, james gunn's superman, 進撃の巨人's mikasa ackerman, 恋与深空's xavier shen, and chainsaw man's hayakawa aki.
jumps on you all like the pixar lamp !! what's good linkon cityyyy, reddie here to bring you resident emo cries-in-the-shower boy and the ace of unicorns, shim eunho ! more on him under the cut, please hit the 🤍 and i will come running into your dms ( once i return to the land of the living )
the chronorift catastrophe is the single worst day in his life, but he's hardly known any better ones since. born and raised in linkon city, his whole family is buried under the rubble of wanderer attacks — his father, mother, and little sister gone in an instant. both his evol and lumiere himself save him from getting killed, and from then on, he's only had a single goal: to get rid of the wanderers once and for all.
sixteen years old at the time of the hunters association's formation, he was technically still too young to attend the academy. he wouldn't stop bothering them until they accepted him a year ahead of his peers, on the condition that he also graduate high school on time. eunho will let nothing get in the way of his goals, so he goes above and beyond. he's the top-ranked student of his school. he goes on to be the top-ranked recruit of the hunters academy.
unicorns is chomping at the bit to have him, and because he knows they deal with the worst of the worst ( as the best of the best ), he welcomes the assignment with open arms. what he does not expect is to be put in charge of people — and if anybody bothered to ask eunho, he'd tell them he shouldn't be.
but he's one of the faces of the association. handsome, tall, and strong, eunho becomes one of the youngest hunters to get a double-digit solo kill count. the fame chafes at him. he's never been very good with people, not since his family died, and now he can't even stop by a bakery without being swarmed by adoring fans who refer to him as shadow lumiere. it gets exhausting fast, just as his responsibilities do.
the one bright spot in his life since the catastrophe is his relationship. he never expected to find someone, always so sure he'd die at a wanderer's hand, but this connection is something precious, something fragile, something cherished. incongruously, he's less careful about it than he should be. if the others could see how meaningful it is to him, how it only makes him stronger, then surely they'll accept it. after an official report, though, it's not that simple or easy anymore.
he tries to protest both the demoting transfer and the promotion. the most hq acknowledges is that this is one of the only times he's spoken up about anything; usually it'd be his vice-captain doing all of the talking. he threatens to quit. unicorns counters by saying they'll revoke his license if he does. and if he continues hunting wanderers without one, he'll be considered tenebra. they'll hunt him to the ends of the earth and drag him back kicking and screaming. eunho is a weapon. they will never let him retire — and isn't that what he wanted all along ? helplessly, he lets himself sink into darkness.
an already apathetic leader drifts into an entirely absent one. he barely pays attention to mission briefings, goes off on his own when he can, and seems adamant on not connecting with another human being for as long as he lives. if the association wants to make him a thing, then a thing he will be.
pandia shakes him out of his stupor, if only for a moment. the scene he comes across, among the first to answer the distress signal, reminds him of the catastrophe. he recalls his purpose — defender of the innocent, slayer of monsters, all that good stuff that's said about the cartoon him on tv. the fallen members of charlie and echo are more souls for him to avenge. but more than that, there are people who are still here ( even if they are out of his reach, even if he pushed them there ) that he can give his life to defend. and so he will.
the revelation doesn't last very long. it's hard to stay motivated for a long time. eunho likes the sound of ideals, but in practice, he gives himself plenty of leeway — large enough gaps to fall back into bad habits like wallowing. subordinates will notice that he tries to be more present, failing more often than not, and if he starts racking in more team kills... surely that's a good thing ?
knows something unnatural, maybe even man-made, went terribly wrong with pandia, but lacks the sufficient motivation to do anything about it. eunho's focus is on the day-to-day, taking missions below his rank to hone his skill and save as many lives as possible. but it's starting to eat at him, sallow cheeks and dark-bagged eyes scored into his flesh. it won't be long before he sinks into another abyss.
connections forthcoming, but given the limited skeleton pool i'd love it if we could work something out individually !
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You already know the story. You will die. Everyone you love with also die. You will lose them forever. You will be sad and angry. You will weep. You will bargain. You will make demands. You will beg. You will pray. It will make no difference. Nothing you can do will bring them back. You know this. Your knowing changes nothing. This poem will make you understand this unfathomable truth again and again, as if for the very first time.