Lonely Wanderer

One step forward three steps back, The rain is coming fallin' fast. Just give in to misery and only then I'll be... happy

[soullesswalker]

I wish living is not so hard.

I wish it is much simpler with vibrant colors and full of energy.

I wish I have more will in my soul.

I wish I love life as much as i am looking forward for death.

[soullesswalker]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. I got one whole year to make it up for myself before i can put an end to this. Cheers to best last year of my life.

[dorites-deactivated20241117]

Just found out neanderthal passed on the DNA for depression and now we know why they stayed in caves and painted horses all fuckin day 

[bobo543732]

Reblog if you’re a depressed neanderthal who stays in their cave and paints horses all fuckin day

[mirayama]

Favorite villain from Psycho-Pass (requested by anonymous) 

[soullesswalker]

My heart is aching too much. Please make it stop.

[soullesswalker]

you did fucking well. surviving and going on. you did well. i am proud of you

Thank you. I hope you know how much this mean to me. Thank you 💙💙💙

[ziggyplayedd]

things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

[sandersstudies]

Almost all of these are about variety. Humans need stimulation! We need enrichment! We literally cannot do the same thing every day!

The other day I was feeling miserable, so I hopped on a bus and rode it all the way back to where I’d started, and my brain, which had finally had some proper stimulation via new environments, was suddenly ready to go again!

This is why taking walks/drives and trying new hobbies are good for you! Don’t turn yourself into a sad zoo animal! You need some pumpkins to roll around in your enclosure!

[drerry]

Do not pity the dead Harry, pity the living. And, above all, those who think you and Draco Malfoy are straight.

[drerry]

Do not pity the dead Harry, pity the living. And, above all, those who think you and Draco Malfoy are straight.

[kezzie369]

Back to uni like

[soullesswalker]

Which will kills you faster, a headshot or a stab at the heart?

[soullesswalker]

It should’ve been different. I am still alive. I am prettier now. It should’ve been different yet my feelings stay the same. It should’ve been different yet I’m still the last choice. It should’ve been different, according to them.

[soullesswalker]

 I was 18 when I repeatedly tried to kill myself. At one point I was almost succeeded.

I am still here. 20 and counting. I never regret my suicide attempts. But I do regret the reasons why I tried it. I thought nobody was there for me. I thought my family did not want me. Thought that I am diseased and hated. But those are only my thoughts. I have friends who stayed next to my hospital bed, mother who tend me without feeling tired, dad who cried for my skin and bones, and brother who bring me to doctors every time I need to. I am diseased and loved.

[thegraveyardfairy]

💀

[soullesswalker]

And the Mountains Echoed by Khaled Hosseini

[sweetestsecrets]

Aries  - people are always wanting to crack you open like a fortune cookie so that they can learn something about themselves; the world always wants us to show it how to grow, without ever thinking to wipe the crumbs off the table once they’re finished. Taurus  -   stop holding words behind your back; stop expecting others to fill in the blanks of the things you’re too afraid to say out loud. Gemini  -  there are a million lives sitting on your bookshelf, resting, waiting to be a part of your life; that must mean that all the brave protagonists in their little patchwork dream worlds dream about your life the same way you dream about theirs. Cancer  -  there is sunshine in your sleepiness, just like there is honesty in every syrupy cliche i’ve ever written about you; every word i write about you has been written before by everyone who has ever been in love, but there are solar systems under your collar bones and nothing in the world could stop me from telling the world. Leo  -  sometimes love is nothing more than sharing a piece of coffee cake over your glass top kitchen table; sometimes love is going to bed early just so you can fall asleep at the same time.   Virgo  -  your body doesn’t have to feel like a eulogy; i may never learn how to see mine as a friend, but it is more than my fireside sacrifice and the day i learn that will be the day i stop being a martyr to myself. Libra  -  i have learned that broken bottles against a wall hurt less than cigarette smoke breathed in along with bitter december air; sometimes what seems loud and violent is a cry out against things that want to creep inside you and pull you apart from the inside out. Scorpio  -  i hope you have learned to walk away without wandering back; i hope you will someday learn that some people don’t want to be saved, they want to snap your ribcage and hemlock your mouth shut.   Sagittarius  -  winter is creeping in again, and there is sadness pawing at your frosty windows; so roll your melancholy into little flower bulbs and store  them in a paper bag in your basement, and don’t bring them back out until the sun glows warm enough to make them bloom into something beautiful. Capricorn  -  nostalgia likes to pull your hair and bite at your ankles, but i have a found a way to quiet its taunting: think of the past like it is its own world, like a place everyone has been but can never go back to; everything that has ever happened to you still exists in its own thimble universe, whether or not you ever find a way to break back into it. Aquarius  -  the longer you live, the more places you will be able to go back to; if that isn’t a reason to keep breathing as long as you can, i don’t know what is.   Pisces  -  i get metaphors stuck in my head the way you get feelings stuck in your pencil, but the ending is always the same: words never feel as fiery once they’ve been written before, and sometimes a toothpick does a better job at unsticking than a pencil ever could.

next week’s horoscopes, maria s. (via sweetestsecrets)

[kiomiri]

it’s that time of the semester, may our favorite egghead bless us and make everything in our favor