Believe in the you who believes in yourself.

emotional mess since Banana fish/multifandom/sheith/Mikayuu 

[anxietyproblem]

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

My life feels like a harem romance anime but I love thriller and adventure as genre..

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Whenever i don't look at something i feel like it's growing on me and impacting me postively. But whenever i rest my gaze on it, it suddenly withers away while i try to save it.

And i feel like it's not the things fault, it's my gaze, my brain that is messing up with it.

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

I think I've found a word for it. Just saw a reel about it and boy it surely is the worst dissapointment when people respond to emotional things with physical actions, worse sexual attempts

Like, read the room. Context matters.

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

People that are too much of a free spirits rub me the wrong way because i tend to restrict myself in thousands chains - which i dislike - and expect others to suffer like me too.

I am just too afraid to live freely like this and become "egoistic" like that to just try to live more accordingly to what i feel instead of my principles

But i am afraid my feelings are unstable and my principles are stable but it does not seem that any of these two are able to bring me lasting happiness.

[what-iz-life]

Normalize not forcing connections with people. If somebody doesn't see the value in having you by their side, don’t try to convince them.

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Ich sag immer ich hätte nicht hierher ziehen sollen und langsam fange ich an es zu glauben

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Du bist ziemlich behindert geworden

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

How can this change so much

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

wonder if it were a fit for future

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

U cant change your interior

Only the outer experience

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

I'm nervous

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

i have a hunch i am not monogamous

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

You must be happy i cast away every expectation

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Warum schafft eigentlich jeder es happy zu sein, except me?

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Ich würd gern mit irgendwem drüber reden aber ich will nichts negatives über dich hören

[soundlylisteningthestrings]

Ich frage mich ob dass eine depressive Episode ist, die sich anschleicht.