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no but fr tho, men fuck off

come back when you're a girl

#i should pin this #trans inclusive too! bye bye now

Any time I'm trying to match my breathing with someone elses I can't help but think back to having naps with my mum as a little girl and trying to match my breathing to hers, especially while she was asleep and I wasn't (I could never manage it of course, I was tiny and she was a grownup). Apparently in this specific circumstance I'm in that thought makes me want to cry really really badly.

#I'm silly and selfish and sad because I want my mum right now. I wish she was giving me a big hug and telling me it's ok #I wish I didn't have to be the one being the grownup here #I wish I could lay my head on her chest in that kinda uncomfortable sponge latticed top she used to wear #and feel in leave a mark on my cheek #but I can't feel that because then I'll cry and I'm not allowed to cry because I'm the adult here #and it'll just make everything worse #I'm not going to spend another time in that one specific situation ever again. I've just decided against it.#no more laying like that trying not to cry. I'm simply just going to not feel like that #nooooo wait that's just actually trying not to cry but it a more advanced way. fuck #I wish I could just cry in this situation and have it be noticed #sorry. I'm feeling strange right now

When I feel sad or rejected I get a physical sensation in my chest that feels like a big T shaped of water droplets dripping down the inside of my chest cavity and arms, and if I get enough of that feeling it turns into me crying.

#I guess it's interesting to see how many feelings I experience as physical sensations

It's always good when a cis woman is (actually) incestuously attracted to someone. Frankly I'd be kinda shooting myself in the foot a bit if I didn't support that.

Ah wait I was mildly mean about Americans. That always gets me more hate mail than the incest thing, oops...

Ultimately I kinda just think Americans all want to play soldier and will never interrogate this beyond finding an ideology that lets them play soldier without feeling cognitive dissonance.

#gun leftist type people seem to start at the gun position and then get the leftist bit #because americans are obsessed with guns

That's obviously not to say I only cared about the story because of the incest stuff. I more mean the fact that something so obviously about the state of US politics in such a visceral and intense way (the newspaper reports for were really positive examples of this) otherwise went into such a weird direction disconnected from reality and into weird wish fulfilment territory. Which is fine, I get it, it's nice to imagine people being willing to die for trans people, but it was very American.

#I really do not mean to sound like I'm shitting on it. I obviously wouldn't be talking about it so much if it didn't resonate with me #it just sorta was two stories stitched together with a slightly painful seam #or to put it more correctly: an ao3 story written in chunks

Stan Miller, whoever you are, thank you for translating incest Yuri manga many years ago and accidentally setting off a chain reaction that lead to all this.

you can have sex with your mum when you grow up if both of you feel like it

#you probably shouldn't

I'm still kinda sad that "There is no Allegory" went in the direction it did. Because there was a lot of stuff in there that really really hurt and was really well done. The way that even in that relationship there was this Sword of Damocles of transmisogyny hanging over them, that the trans sister would be blamed and the cis one would not. It hurt really bad. And then the rest of it was very American but not in the good way where it's hyperaware of american issues. it was kinda just about AR-15's.

#I'm very glad I read it #It's scary the author has seen my posts about it

I'm making an imaginary political stance out of nothing here, but when you reach a certain level incest enlightenment you loop back around to being kinda disgusted and upset when a girl wants to call you her sister.

I'm sorry. I promise I do understand. It's just not for me. A relationship like that could never work out. You're not my sister and I don't think I can pretend. It just makes it hurt even worse.

#this is not even remotely an actual stance anyone should seriously have #I'm just a weird person #I tried it. I swear I did #but it just made me feel bad. because it's not real #and I didn't want to be related to the person calling me that #I wanted my sister #and we all know the deal with that...#so it just hurts #It's poking at a wound and not in a fun hot way #I just can't do it and I kinda hate that I can't #because I'm sure I'd be great at it. at pretending for someone.#but it makes me hurt and worse it makes me feel disgusted and grossed out.#whatever #but hey welcome back to weird sad introspection time

I really really should be happier for people getting to live out a fantasy of theirs, but I can't help it. You're not related! You're just not! I thought my anti-fauxcest ways were largely in the past, but no!

#fauxcest delenda est

There were two sisters doing gay stuff and their mum was using them as inspiration for her Yuri she was writing. I don't remember the name of it and it's gonna bug me.

pumititamami

twin daughters yuri is sacred to the himejoshi mom

#there was a manga like this and I don't remember the name

qqchurch

okay.

Really the main thing that differentiates me from her isn't my feelings or political views or anything like that, it's the fact I'm way bore likely to go :T unironically

soviet-siscon

Auntposting will continue until morale improves

soviet-siscon

Or worsens. Or anything really. She's kinda mean and I don't really wanna talk about her :/

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