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I have someone I like for almost 6 years straight and no one has ever replaced his spot in my heart. I have seen a lot of beautiful people/guys/men/boys but they really just cannot replace him. I know why but i also don’t know still. I’m still not sure. My friends even suggested some to me because they’ve seen that I’m quite uninterested with having a relationship. The thing is, for that 6 years I cannot really say that I love him because I haven’t talked to him even once, we aren’t close to each other and I only see him at least/at most once a month or even never in a month. Yes, people call this feeling “crush”. Yes he is my crush. And I don’t know why it took me 6 years before I realize that he really isn’t even aware of me. Yes, I have seen him, and at some point I have seen him SEE ME. Our eyes met twice. But even with that, I feel that I am just a stranger that is easily forgotten. Even with that, I am as hard as a rock, and as stubborn as a child and I still believe that it is him, the one I will be with through the ages. Yes, I am this stubborn and I don’t know what makes me believe in something so abstract. Or worse, it’s not abstract, it is something unseen. But like wind, it is unseen but felt. I know, I am being inconsistent because at one point I felt like I was treated as a stranger but now I felt that he is the one. But that is what I am feeling. Goin back, because I felt that I was a stranger right now, I won’t waste my time on him anymore. I will just work my ass off for my parents and my sister and for God. I will ignore him for the time being. Time will come and our boats will meet in the sea. I sound stupid right now but who knows. This is the last time I will write about him because the next time I will write about him, it would definitely be after our wedding. Yes, stupid me.
P.S. I had a crush on him when I saw him inside the Church
