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Dad,

living without you is harder than I could ever imagine.

I am trying to make the best of it, because I know that‘s what you would have wanted.

but if you want to know the truth -

it breaks my heart, every day, to live in a world where there's no you.

I still needed you.

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You hurt me so much and don't even realize it. I have no right to complain about it, but it doesn't change the fact.

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To be honest I don't even want to think about how many months you've been dead. Because it will be more and more months until it's been years.

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It's only four months until you've been dead for a year. It can't be true that I haven't been able to see and talk to you for so long. How am I going to get through all this?

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Because it hurts. The first Christmas without you, the first year ends without you.

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Systematically ignore Christmas and New Year's Eve? Check.

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„Das Leben hat die seltsame Angewohnheit, dir die Menschen in den Weg zu stellen, mit denen du zusammenstoßen sollst. Es liegt an dir, dich dafür zu entscheiden, es von Dauer zu machen.“

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Wann waren wir jemals in der Lage, die Dinge loszulassen, die uns am meisten wehtun?

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I wish I could heal what others have ruined in you.

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tell me, what am i to you?

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How far would you go?

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Ich brauche deine Wärme, auch wenn ich mich entferne.

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You make my heart dance

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How can you make me shake like this?

You break the ground beneath my feet.

My heart is bursting.

And it feels so good.

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„Verräter verraten vor allem sich selbst.“

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Wie Stiche in meinem Herzen.

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Ich atme für dich.