I need to have Izzie join some of my social groups. That's another hurdle she has to overcome.
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I need to have Izzie join some of my social groups. That's another hurdle she has to overcome.
She got to the place she is at because she was the best of my choices.
Closest friend at a lonely time
Who’s the doctor here?
Nursing home patient: *Has dementia, always complains of back pain, doesn’t remember to ask for her Tylenol that is ordered as-needed.*
Wayfaring: *Changes Tylenol order from as needed to scheduled twice a day.*
Patient’s family member: Dr. Wayfaring, why does she need Tylenol?
Wayfaring: Because she complains of back pain and looks like she hurts and she feels better when she takes it. But she doesn’t remember well enough to ask for it when she needs it.
Family member: Is she really in pain?
Wayfaring: Well, every time I see her she tells me her back hurts. She walks very stiffly with her hand on her back. So yes, I’d say she’s probably in pain.
Family member: Are you checking her liver? Did you even know that Tylenol hurts the liver? What are her liver functions?
Wayfaring, thinking:
Wayfaring: Yes ma’am, I am aware that Tylenol can potentially cause liver damage. We are checking her liver enzymes periodically and they are normal. And the amount of Tylenol she is prescribed is well below the maximum daily dose.
Family member: Well why can’t she have ibuprofen instead? Or mobic? That’s what I take and it’s better.
Wayfaring: Because she has chronic kidney disease and a stomach ulcer and those medicines will make both of those conditions worse. And the Tylenol seems to be working for her.
Family member: Does she really need pain medicine at all? I think you should just stop the medicine.
Wayfaring: You know, generally families are happy when their loved ones aren’t in pain. So I tell you what… why don’t you come visit her sometime (thinking: since you never do) and ask her how she feels? I’d be happy to do whatever she wants.
Reading this made me feel legitimately irritated. It’s so frustrating when family members don’t even visit their geriatric relatives but then get all uppity with what the believe is best for them based on whatever they saw on Dr. Oz.
Families be like
Ugh families. I just love the “I want you to fix my mom but don’t use medications to fix any of her medication-necessary problems.”
Attention families who try to make up for years of elder-abandonment with 10 minutes of ignorant temper tantrums:
An All-Inclusive Guide to Making Your First Year in Practice Not Suck As Much As Wayfaring’s
Hi there, just curious if you’d share what things you were looking for in your first job vs what things you value now, now that you’ve been working out there on your own. Anything that must be in the contract that wasn’t there before (or vice versa)? Tips for future graduating residents?
Yaaaaasssss so many advices. So many things. This ask has been in my inbox for months because I have too many things to say about it and I can’t seem to organize it properly.
Let’s break it down into 3 sections: 1) What I thought I wanted 2) What I needed and didn’t know to ask/look for 3) What I want now. Here goes.
What I thought I wanted:
big dolla$$$
super sweet signing bonus
moving allowance
loan repayment assistance
regular 40 hour work schedule
nice patients
independence / autonomy in decisionmaking
ability to practice the way I was trained - with up to date guidelines and procedures and equipment
What I wanted and didn’t know to ask for:
Supportive colleagues - In your first year of practice out of residency you lose every ounce of confidence that you gained as a senior resident. You question minor decisions and are constantly afraid of killing people or being sued. It is extra hard to practice in a new town when your partners in practice are not supportive. Sometimes you need someone to lay a fresh set of eyes on a wonky EKG or a weird rash, you know? I didn’t have that option. It made me study harder and somewhat be more cautious and definitely more creative in my practice. But having a colleague to commiserate with at the end of the day or to consult on difficult cases would have been really nice. You don’t have to be BFFs with your colleagues, but they have to be people you can agree/get along with and trust to take care of your patients in your absence.
Friends - This sounds obvious, but I moved to a new town that literally has no people anywhere close to my age. Even having one person I knew and could confide in would have been wonderful. One person to go to a movie with or watch a football game with would have been a sanity saver for me. Find a place where you can find other people like you.
A reasonable amount of time off - I got less time off in my first job than I did as a resident. That was unacceptable to me. This would be fine if my practice didn’t act like they were going to go bankrupt if I took an unpaid day or even a half day to go to the doctor, but they did. You need a place where you can take one week off every 3-4 months if possible, even if all that time isn’t paid. Medicine is such a stressful job. Make sure they’re giving you rest time.
A non-toxic work environment - I knew going into my job that I was replacing a workaholic and that I was joining a workaholic. What I didn’t realize was that I was also expected to be a workaholic and anything less than killing myself was seen as laziness. Pay attention to the culture at your new job. Ask the docs what they do for fun or to relax and more importantly when the last time was they did that thing. If they don’t have any answers, they’re too busy.
Diversity. This may just be me, but I went into family medicine because I get bored easily. I need variety of patient types and disease types and socioeconomic groups and everything else. I realized quickly in my practice that most of my patients were privately insured elderly white people. As in, the most boring demographic for Wayfaring.
A Balanced schedule. I figured that when I joined a practice that had been established for 30 years that the workflow kinks would have been worked out and it would run like a well oiled machine. In reality I would have 8 physicals a day and 5 of my most complicated patients in hospital follow ups back to back, all scheduled for just 15 minutes. There has to be balance in the schedule. You have to be able to take a little extra time here and make it up elsewhere.
What I want now:
fair dolla$$$. In actuality, what’s fair is actually considerably more than what I was making in my first job. I was grossly underpaid, particularly considering this being a rural area where nobody wants to work (typically those jobs are paid much higher). It’s not about the bottom dollar value for me. It’s about compensating me in a way that is comparable to my peers.
Colleagues who can be both friends and mentors. See above.
Good benefits. Two years of no dental or vision sucks when your most expensive problems are dental and vision related. Life insurance and retirement plans aren’t something most 30 year olds think of, but they’re really important, and I didn’t have those to start with.
A flexible schedule. The whole world doesn’t need to fall apart if I need to switch my regular day off or if I need a half day to go to the doctor.
Administrative time. Preferably a full week day, but a half day is great too. I’m happy working 4 10 or 12 hour days a week to have one week day off to catch up on work I’m behind on or get my hair cut and get my taxes done and see my psychiatrist, you know?
Knowledgeable and helpful staff. I need staff who don’t perpetuate old wives’ tales and notions like “you need a zpack for that cold”. I need to work with people who will ask if they don’t understand something rather than just make something up and who can help me educate my patients. I need folks who are prompt and who can anticipate some needs.
To not be responsible for other peoples’ paychecks. In private practice, if I take time off or scale back, the practice loses money and thus our staff lose hours or money too. The staff in my first job were horribly underpaid and I don’t like the idea of the entire burden of the practice’s finances hanging on my shoulders. Sign me up for that hospital-owned practice, please.
To not have to turn patients away based on payer source. This is a national problem and is definitely not limited to my first job. But my first job wouldn’t let me take Medicaid patients at all. It made it completely impossible for me to build any sort of pediatric or OB practice in our town. I don’t like the idea of turning away a patient because their type of insurance doesn’t pay as well. I want to just treat patients and not have to worry about their payments. Hello, single payer healthcare system. Get on it! Obviously I will still have to worry about whether my patient can afford their meds or whether their insurance will cover their meds, but I won’t have to pick and choose what patients I accept based on their payer source.
To deliver quality, up to date care. To work with people who will back up my evidence-based decisions and not practice based on feelings and patient satisfaction. To work with people who will encourage me to learn more and do new things.
There you have it folks. A lil summary of what I want, what you might want, and what I’ve learned in these first (almost) 2 years of practice. Here’s to better future jobs for us all!
Reblogging for future review…thanks!
Probably one of the most important #medblr posts you can read while still in med school/residency. Thank you, @wayfaringmd for allowing your suffering to result in potentially-greater job satisfaction for the rest of us.
However: NO thank you, @wayfaringmd, for getting this ear worm of a song stuck in my head.
How night shift feels when day shift shows up, being super loud and turning on every light imaginable
Why is obseity not written in as characteristic of a type of eating problem.
Especially as some people are supper putting 'curves' the obseity side of the spectrum on a pedestal
Izzie I'd bring a draft. Doesn't want to talk. Doesn't want to share a moment and then walks away to the bathroom cuz I'ma joined an activity that turned into a couple thing.
Money tracking projection back from March 26. About 3 months ago. Worth noting that back in Janish time I had about ½ a grand. And now 6 months later I’m at 10 k. Yay so proud of myself.
Not sure if the check next to the 5,085 means I will be able to pay for the semester or that I should also have that on top of the 8,885.00.
Either way worst case scenario I’m on track to be on track or slightly below target. However, I didn’t account for the trip I took which was nice. Best case scenario I have a least a month till June and I’m already ahead of the projected amount . Yay🎉
Is it time to go at the world together?
Okay, can I just talk about this comic series for a second? This has got to be the most hilarious comic series I have ever seen. This is AJ & Magnus, a Calvin and Hobbes inspired comic series about an adopted kid, his talking dog, and his 2 gay parents. The humor is really good, very quick and to the point. This series is beautiful, please, give them your love!
zangief one of his dads is zangief
I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped.
Fritz Perls, Gestalt Prayer (via wordsnquotes)
Seems that like a virus it has spread to me.
Either she is out doing things that she does not want me talking to her during. Or she is not and is upset that I choose something over her. Either way it does not matter because she is not my gf. She has made no promise of a future with me. I have no ownership in her. Limbo. I have found myself lost here often as of late. I should find comfort here and make it my home.
(via Show and Tell - Imgur)
I remember reading this a while back, I’m glad it’s made it’s way to my dash again
things like this are more important than 90% of tumblr
bye im crying
More unkowning. Just have to be comfortable in it. Either she is from Pluto the boy is a jerk who is trying to not be a jerk. Her father hasn't told her the truth about her mother and this girl will have a messed up adulthood. Or the girl is from Pluto, the boy is a jerk who is trying to be nice and the father should assist her in understanding the differences in the planets before she dies.
Not knowing
Like purgatory, floating in limbo not knowing. When knowing will set you free. It's the last thing that will culminate. Whimsical thoughts are even more unethereal showing you a world of mirrors. Is this world you inhabit even real. This question only arises when there has been time to make sense of the cyclic nature of your thoughts. The answer to this question is in the pattern itself. Is it or not. For now don't scratch, don't drink or drown. For that will only leave you with less to think. With less to find a way out. Find peace in the water. Like a person stranded at sea. Splashing about will not deal to progress. Let the waves wash over you. Submerge your head and try to avoid the noise of the passing waves. Save your energy. Be at peace.
Lol feel attacked
There is a choice that Izzie has made by not trying to get Pablo in trouble. However, due to my own lack of thought I have put myself in a situation. I have gotten a family friend an opportunity to work at a diner where Pablo is a manager several days a week. I have warned her to stay away from but is that going to do any good. Would warning her that he is a rapist going to do any good. Would she tell him and that would blow any chance I have to getting him to fess up. If she gets rape. I don't know what he is like. Maybe he only physically forces x-girlfriends into sex when he is drunk. But that is not a chance I can take. I have a choice to make. Do my best to make sure that she doesn't get raped or idilly stand by and let her possible be exposed to a rapist. Izzie has made her choice. Now it is time for me to make my own.