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Quick note iim not dead but I made a new blog for bugs/hollow knight @buglife because I want to have a little space with no pressure to it.

Yes I will update my undertale fic....sometime...I just kinda got super depressed about the whole thing lol.

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I finally drew a thing for my GOFUNDME campaign! As of 8/16 we are past a quarter there! Horray!!!!

Laptop has had it’s wireless completely die and now my tablet is running slowly and weirdly so art is taking longer but i’ll work for as long as I can!

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Help me get a laptop for my birthday! organized by April D

Hello there! My name is April and I am an artist. My current laptop is very old and is b… April D needs your support for Help me get a laptop for my birthday!

After extensive talking to friends, gf, and therapist, I was given the okay to make a gofundme for my birthday on the 29th! My current computer is so bad it can’t run terraria :< 

Thank you all for any signal boosts or good vibes being sent my way :3 I love the good vibes.

In terms of other birthday wishes, please be kind to bugs!

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A patreon reward for @supertrainstationh It's an image for his new twitch stream! He's streaming old games! He's one of my dearest and oldest friends, so I would appreciate it if you guys showed him some support as he is a new streamer :3 You can find him in these places. Twitter - Twitch - Youtube - Tumblr

[bookmania]

While millions of people are staying home to reduce the spread of COVID-19, Scribd is making our digital library of ebooks and audiobooks free for everyone: scribd.com/readfree 

🤩T A G G I N G E V E R Y O N E🤩  

[captainlotus]

@sirjohnsmythe

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Hey y'all this is my Pokemon go code if you wanna be pals :3

5184 7471 9811

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hiya, i sent the last ask that began with 'hiya'. oh no, i just read more about your ex, im so sorry about mentioning him, i thought you were all still together. i hope that you and mel are doing ok with everything thats happened

Sorry for the late reply, and you are fine! MEL and I are doing okay through this. We got plenty of supplies and we are just staying put :3

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About the Gemites. I wanted to use them as a race for my D&D 5e campaign. They seem to fit right in into my underdark campaign. I would imagine they're hunted by Molefolk for their minerals, because Molefolk are always hunting for riches. Tell me if that's fine. Thanks!

Hello I am sorry for the super late reply! You may use them in two conditions.

1. Plz be kind to people

2. If you make a race sheet with the stats and such please show me cause I LOVE D&D. :D

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Updates both good and bad

Good news: I’m continuing to write and I may even get to draw a little this month for myself. 

For the not so good news, I am still here and nothing major happened but I don’t just want to trigger warn and scare the hell of them. Below is about mental health and the death of someone whom I had a very complicated relationship. Also mentions of planned suicide (NOT ME)

I think I mentioned before that my stepmother died back in august and nobody told me she was dying. No mail no calls no nothing. The only time I knew something was up was when my brother creepily followed me in his truck to tell me she had cancer. I found out she died like....a week or so ago. 

The thing is that I actually liked my stepmother. The problem was she was around my dad. When I chose to cut ties with my blood relatives it was not a very light decision. Not only was it here but also my nieces and nephews who I loved but knew they would be manipulated to hurt me. She also stood by and let my father threaten me to go to church so I can’t forgive her for that. But I did, like her.

Now even though I hate my father and he is a terrible person, I can’t help but feel overwhelming pity for him. This is the second wife he’s lost to cancer and I imagine he’s all alone in that house in the country, surrounded by ghosts. He didn’t love me, but he did love his wives. Him and stepmom talked before about not being able to live without each other and how they had ‘plans’, so I am sure I will see his obituary eventually. Maybe within the year.

My therapist called it ‘complicated grief’ and it really is complicated. It’s hard to sort out my feelings about this and I would have liked at least the option of saying goodbye. But on the other hand I did cut them out so I shouldn’t have expected any contact about it in the first place.

It’s complicated.

[pragnificent]

Reblog if you are a fic writer who welcomes moodboards, playlists, remixes, art and any other type of gift based on your stories.

[sandersseduction]

OMG OMG OMG PLEEEEEASE?

[comfortingcatharsis]

Good Types of Tropes For H/C

No Pain Killers Available

Gotta Stay Quiet To Avoid Discovery

Feverish Delirium And Mumbling

Cowboy Medicine: Whiskey Internally & Externally Applied

Huddling For Warmth

Desperate Hand-Holding

“Breathe, Just Breathe”

Protectively Cradling A Broken Arm

The Word ‘Winced’

Whimpering

“Easy, Easy There”

Being Carried; Bridal, Fireman’s, Two-Person, Doesn’t Matter- Being Carried

Coughing, or, God-Forbid, Sneezing, With Broken Ribs

Fainting

Waking Up Not Knowing Where They Are

Animal Attack

DIY Bullet-Removal

Field-Medicine in General

Blankets/Shirt Collar Shifting Just Enough To Have Bandages Peeking Out

Gentle Shushing

Needing Help To Drink From A Glass

Brushing Hair From Brow

Collapsing Off Of Horse

Dramatic Irony Injury Reveal (Audience Knows About It But Other Characters Do Not)

Frantically Feeling For Breath Or Pulse

(feel free to add on!)

[missmarionmac]

- “…you stayed?” “Of course I did.”

-The comforting one watching the hurt one sleep and feeling incredibly ~fond~

-The hurt one waking up to see the comforting one asleep near them and feeling incredibly ~fond~

[splickedylit]

>8Dc

Stubbornly Standing Only To Have Their Legs Give Out And Being Hastily Caught/Supported

“We Still Haven’t Settled Who’s The Superior Rival–So…S-so Don’t You Dare Die On Me!”

The Worst-Injured Character Half-Conscious And Begging To Know If The Others Are Okay

Lips/Cheek-To-Forehead Temperature-Checking

Taking Off Shirts To Change Bandages

Smoldering Sexy Gentleness

Platonic Tender Gentleness

Waking Up Bandaged In Somebody Else’s House/Bed

Soft, Funny, Dumbass Comfort After Painful Hurt

The Rough Character Holding The Injured Soft Character Gently And Breaking Down Over Them

The Soft Character Holding The Injured Rough Character Protectively Close With The Spark Of Protective Rage In Their Eyes.

Holding Hands And Eye Contact To Endure Through Pain

Insisting You’re Healed Enough, Time To Make This UST Into RST

Insisting That No, They’re Still Too Hurt And The Audience Needs To Stew More

Amnesia Of Basically Any Variety–Funny, Tragic, Sexy, Infuriatingly Ill-timed

Loopy/Forgetful/Over-Affectionate On Pain Meds

 I, As A Nurse, Can Tell What That Illness Probably Is From The Clinical Presentation In The Fic And I Am Living

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@snapfoo

[seliphra]

↖This blog will be screamer free on April Fool’s Day.

[thisdiscontentedwinter]

And this blog barely knows what month it is, let alone what day, so you’re safe here too. 

[ashadowcalledkei]

I’ve been working on some custom d20s and mini rolling trays.  And I’d like to start selling them on my etsy.  But I’m not sure about pricing. The dice have small flaws since I can’t afford much equipment.  But, I can offer customs.  Thoughts anyone? 

I’ve got the moon and star mini-trays (/oversized coasters), Pop and Crystal dice that are mostly clear and can be customized with pretty much any color, and some Critrole character inspired dice.  Only 20s for now, though I can do full sets of the character and pop dice (but not the crystals, due to size issues). 

The flaws aren’t too bad.  Some small pinhole freckles, slight ridges or pour hole spots, or just a not quite fully flat side … but those issues will always be on the 1 side, which is appropriate I think.  And I do my best to minimize issues even with a lack of nicer equipment and materials.  So if anyone’s at all interested in these or other custom dice, and has thoughts about what would be a fair price, please let me know.  I’d really appreciate it!

Critrole Dice, can you guess the characters?

Color Pops. Basically it’s custom color pallet dots in transparent d20s with a little hollo glitter. 

Two pre-made magical moon mini-trays.  I can do opaque and fully transparent too.

Thanks for looking guys!

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i started writing again!

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My cursed music box piano went off this morning so I’m waiting for news about any blood relative that may have died.

It plays by itself when someone dies that is a blood relative. 

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update 3/20

Hello my dear friends!

It’s been a while, and to be honest, the break from Tumblr has done wonders!

I’ve been getting a lot of medical tests done, and so far everything has come back normal. No cancer or any weirdness. I still got issues with sleeping and nightmares so I’m pretty damn tired.

Pretty much it’s just my body falling apart. To be honest I wasn’t expect to even MAKE it to 30 years old, let alone 31. I can’t deny tho that the wear and tear is getting bad. My back is just going to get more and more painful, hence why FINALLY I can try to get into the pain clinic.

Still fighting for disability. It’s going to take a while.

I’ll begin picking at writing again now that my over all mood is improving. The sun is shining and it’s warmish again.

As for the virus outbreak, I have enough supplies to last for a month, so I believe i’ll be okay.

I did get a pet leetle Pacman Frog. His name is Dio and he’s a strawberry pineapple morph. All my bugs are doing fine and are growing. Hopefully the ones hibernating will wake up soon.

That’s it for now. I haven’t been reblogging stuff to the babyblaster blog but @trustandblasters​ and @parsnipit​ have been creating excellent content and I’ll be doing my best to catch up with reblogs.

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Health Update

-Slowly feeling a little better, still feeling ungodly tired.

-Going to need to get blood tests done, which I will get done tomorrow or Friday, to rule out anything besides chronic depression causing the problems. If there is we will deal with it, but I need to do this first before I get medication changes.

-I may be getting medication to help deal with the nightmares, but blood test comes first. I have PTSD nightmares and night terrors. 

-After that I will be getting a referral to a neurologist about my spine and figuring out a pain management routine. I really, REALLY hope they don’t give me opiates. PLZ NO. 

-I do have a referral to physical therapy, and it’s going to suckkk. I demand to get to use the hot tub if I choose to go through with it. I needs it. It’s too damn painful without something to look forward to in the end.

-There is nothing that can be done for scoliosis except to monitor it and catch it early when my spine starts to disintegrate. When that happens I’m fucked. 

-I will probably have to appeal my disability without any new info, because they’ll just rattle it around and reject me again in another 4-6 months and by then I should hopefully have more paperwork. I only have about 20 days left to appeal before my chance is lost, perhaps forever. 

-Still a six month wait for psychiatrists but my doctor can at least prescribe the drugs I need. It’s just, Social Security demands proof from a psychiatrist and I don’t think they will accept my general doc’s opinion. 

-There is a woman’s health expo this Saturday and I want to go because they are offering free screenings, including ultrasound booby exams which I will love to get. 

-Gottah get new glasses too, cause mine aren’t working as well anymore.

- Chatting for very long feels exhausting. Just know that I love you guys very much and I appreciate your support. I’m trying to rest in between work and I hope I’ll be able to crawl out of this hole soon enough. <3

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Time for another update. I got my blood tested but I need to call the doctor to ask what the results are. I haven’t gotten a letter so it’ll be best to call. I’ll need that to see if I can get the medication i’m after for my nightmares. 

I got a mammogram scheduled for the 24th. For those that don’t know what that is,it’s a test where they xray your breast tissue to look for lumps and other abnormalities. If they find anything weird they will tell you and tell you what to do next. 

I got my bone density tested, the results are normal so that’s good. Them thinning is the sign of osteoporosis. I guess the fact I drink a LOT of milk is keeping my bone density good lol.

I also got this weird test that tells you the percentage of fat, water, and muscle in your body. I need more muscle that’s for sure, in my back mostly. They do offer therapeutic massages but those are not covered by insurance. It’s like, 40-100 bucks and they got all kinds of things there but it’s not considered ‘medical’ for some reason. 

I have to go back to the doctor anyway cause she forgot to refer me to a pain clinic which I REALLY need. I have a physical therapy referral to go over next and see what can be done about that. 

I sent in my disability appeal and I fully expect to get rejected again but at least it’s still in the system and gives me time to get all these doctor notes and the like.

All the energy I do have is going to my obligations like backlog commissions and patreon. I probably won’t be able to do any other projects than those for a while. Maybe in Summer I’ll feel okay enough to juggle my personal projects, (Trust, Stellarmass) again but for now I gottah manage my energy carefully. 

All my animals are fine. All of my arthropods are molting and eating well. Rosie and Pinkie are starting to get along a lot better. My little curly hair and red rump tarantulas have doubled in size. And they were tiny enough to come in tubes :,). I’m proud! I do not plan on getting any more until at least late spring/early summer. It’s bitter cold and my money needs to go into more important things atm. Local tax is coming up :<

I’m still kicking and working on getting better!