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Star are you and Gordon okay?

“Y-Yea, both of us are okay” she replied

hokay, Star Design Updates

yea heres a list -Rivets and Handlebars on cab/body -Hair now has white dots to represent stars -Nameplate -Right eye is visible a little bit, but it's still grey and blind -Ears are more fluffier, and have earrings -More braver and catlike -More lovable -Nose now actually look a bit 'Cat-Like', because of her cat-like appearance. Though looking a bit like Henry's, but with a more arch to it -Allergic to bees and poison ivy -Nocturnal - meaning that she'll sometimes sleep in the day and awake at night -Sharper fangs -Ears slightly on the sides of her smokebox with rivet earrings -more savage/pissed off with the people she hates -Ears are slightly smaller -Music Lover (favorite artists are P!nk, Jessie J and One Republic) -Now has her own shed designed by STH and her driver -Now privately owned by the NWR, and STH owns her too -Stronger bond between her and her driver

#design update #mun post #Mun speaks #hoo she's a baby gorl now

Oh hey, I’m...back? I also updated Star slightly so expect a post on it soon :D

#mun post #Mun rambles #Mun speaks

Hiatus for a little bit, ik i’ve been inactive and all that well.. usually its because of school and all that shit, i’ve been depressed because of that too so hopefully, i’ll be back with new stuff, etc

#mun post #Mun speaks #yea...

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"G-Gordon...? Is that you? You look.... bigger, but more bloody! What happened to you, big bro?" The feline engine puffed closer...but not too close

Gordon was rested next to a shed that used to hold engines. He was too big now to fit inside so he lazily laid next to it. It was uncomfortable, being mostly bone and metal parts. He was constantly shifting, naps were nearly impossible.

It was suddenly he heard a voice, a familiar one. A soft voice that he knew but couldn’t quite place. With a grunt and push he stood on all four bony limbs and looked ahead of him, but with his eyes being so damaged all he could see was the silhouette of the engine before him. Gordon barred his teeth in a feral manner, but then a memory hit him.

“S-Star?” Gordon’s voice was rough, he wasn’t much of a talker anymore. His features became more softened and less defensive. “I- You shouldn’t be here, you need to go.”

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“W-Why do I have to go? I miss you so much…” She whimpered, and clenched her teeth, trying to prevent herself from breaking down. Tears began to stream from her eyes. During his absence, Star developed a tendency to stare off in random directions, or make small, cry-meows. It was certain she had gotten depression, her fangs poked her lips, while making them bleed a bit.. And now…. Star broke down, for the second time…. in front of her older, trusted brother “I miss you! Come back! You were the best!” she cried, and cried….and cried “you…. calmed me down on bad d- days….”

project-monster-gordon

Gordon looked away ashamed of the thing he had to be in front of her. He didn’t want his baby sister of all people to see him in such a state. And he didn’t want her to be upset. But he wasn’t an engine, he wasn’t a person, he was a monster.

“Please Star, don’t make me beg, I don’t want you to get hurt. I’m not the same as I used to be. Look at me! Aren’t you afraid of me?!” His words left his mouth ending with a guttural growl. Gordon held his head in his hands hearing the tormented screams returning to him. As much as he wanted to be the big brother, that’s just not what he was anymore. The more she cried the harder it was to control the screaming in his head.

“S-Star! Please, I don’t want you to see me like this! GO!”

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Star didn’t want to leave, she calmed down only a bit, to her looking up at her monstrous older brother with big, blue puppy eyes “I…..I’m not afraid of you….i’m brave…you taught me how to be brave” then, she smiled, Then… she did the unexpected, she took a small breath, and sung his favorite song, just to calm him down, she closed her eyes, and finally sang, her voice soothing him, but with a few voice cracks and breath hitches here and there “It’s been a long time coming since I’ve seen your face I’ve been everywhere and back trying to replace Everything that I had ‘til my wheels went numb Praying like a fool that’s been on the run Heart’s still beating but it’s not working It’s like a million-dollar phone that you just can’t ring I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing Yeah, my heart is numb But with you I feel again Yeah, with you I can feel again Yeah…”

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Gordon was clutching his head, his bony fingers digging into what would be his scalp. The voices, the screaming of tormented engines were just too much at this level of stress. But just as he was about to let out a cry, his thoughts were wiped clear, and the sounds in his head were gone and replaced with the sweet sound… Of singing. With blood and tear soaked eyes he looked up in the direction of the sound. He couldn’t see it but he knew what it was coming from.

He took a few shaky breaths as he let the sound of Star’s singing sooth him. Good memories came to him and put a small smile on his face. Nothing ever made him happier than hearing her sing. And she knew just the song that made the hurt melt away.

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It was until her own singing, that it made her calm. And she began to let out soothing purrs, she had still remembered the song, and between them, the memories of bonding and affection had came back flowing between the siblings, she was now in peace, and not just sitting in her shed, refusing to come out when the pained flashbacks happen sometimes “I'm feeling better ever since you know me I was a lonely soul but that's the old me I'm feeling better ever since you know me I was a lonely soul but that's the old me I'm feeling better ever since you know me I was a lonely soul but that's the old me I'm feeling better ever since you know me I was a lonely soul but that's the old me A little wiser now from what you've shown me Yeah, I feel again” Star curled up next to Gordon’s bony arm, purring to calm him down, while sniffling it was when, Star surprisingly fell asleep, soft, snores and cooes came from the sleepy biofused feline engine She muttered out a word, that Gordon always loved to hear, every night or every time he helps her “I....I love you Gordon.... so much...”

#The Falling Star;; Angst #Gresley Love;;Stardon #oh god this turned into fluff and it's SO CUTE #Lets Race!;;RP Thread

project-monster-gordon

"G-Gordon...? Is that you? You look.... bigger, but more bloody! What happened to you, big bro?" The feline engine puffed closer...but not too close

Gordon was rested next to a shed that used to hold engines. He was too big now to fit inside so he lazily laid next to it. It was uncomfortable, being mostly bone and metal parts. He was constantly shifting, naps were nearly impossible.

It was suddenly he heard a voice, a familiar one. A soft voice that he knew but couldn’t quite place. With a grunt and push he stood on all four bony limbs and looked ahead of him, but with his eyes being so damaged all he could see was the silhouette of the engine before him. Gordon barred his teeth in a feral manner, but then a memory hit him.

“S-Star?” Gordon’s voice was rough, he wasn’t much of a talker anymore. His features became more softened and less defensive. “I- You shouldn’t be here, you need to go.”

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“W-Why do I have to go? I miss you so much…” She whimpered, and clenched her teeth, trying to prevent herself from breaking down. Tears began to stream from her eyes. During his absence, Star developed a tendency to stare off in random directions, or make small, cry-meows. It was certain she had gotten depression, her fangs poked her lips, while making them bleed a bit.. And now…. Star broke down, for the second time…. in front of her older, trusted brother “I miss you! Come back! You were the best!” she cried, and cried….and cried “you…. calmed me down on bad d- days….”

project-monster-gordon

Gordon looked away ashamed of the thing he had to be in front of her. He didn’t want his baby sister of all people to see him in such a state. And he didn’t want her to be upset. But he wasn’t an engine, he wasn’t a person, he was a monster.

“Please Star, don’t make me beg, I don’t want you to get hurt. I’m not the same as I used to be. Look at me! Aren’t you afraid of me?!” His words left his mouth ending with a guttural growl. Gordon held his head in his hands hearing the tormented screams returning to him. As much as he wanted to be the big brother, that’s just not what he was anymore. The more she cried the harder it was to control the screaming in his head.

“S-Star! Please, I don’t want you to see me like this! GO!”

spacelybigengine-blog

Star didn’t want to leave, she calmed down only a bit, to her looking up at her monstrous older brother with big, blue puppy eyes “I.....I’m not afraid of you....i’m brave...you taught me how to be brave” then, she smiled, Then... she did the unexpected, she took a small breath, and sung his favorite song, just to calm him down, she closed her eyes, and finally sang, her voice soothing him, but with a few voice cracks and breath hitches here and there “It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face I've been everywhere and back trying to replace Everything that I had 'til my wheels went numb Praying like a fool that's been on the run Heart's still beating but it's not working It's like a million-dollar phone that you just can't ring I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing Yeah, my heart is numb But with you I feel again Yeah, with you I can feel again Yeah...”

#The Falling Star;; Angst #Lets Race!;;RP Thread #Gresley Love;;Stardon #Headcanon: Gordon's favorite song is 'Feel Again' by One Republic

project-monster-gordon

"G-Gordon...? Is that you? You look.... bigger, but more bloody! What happened to you, big bro?" The feline engine puffed closer...but not too close

Gordon was rested next to a shed that used to hold engines. He was too big now to fit inside so he lazily laid next to it. It was uncomfortable, being mostly bone and metal parts. He was constantly shifting, naps were nearly impossible.

It was suddenly he heard a voice, a familiar one. A soft voice that he knew but couldn’t quite place. With a grunt and push he stood on all four bony limbs and looked ahead of him, but with his eyes being so damaged all he could see was the silhouette of the engine before him. Gordon barred his teeth in a feral manner, but then a memory hit him.

“S-Star?” Gordon’s voice was rough, he wasn’t much of a talker anymore. His features became more softened and less defensive. “I- You shouldn’t be here, you need to go.”

spacelybigengine-blog

“W-Why do I have to go? I miss you so much…” She whimpered, and clenched her teeth, trying to prevent herself from breaking down. Tears began to stream from her eyes. During his absence, Star developed a tendency to stare off in random directions, or make small, cry-meows. It was certain she had gotten depression, her fangs poked her lips, while making them bleed a bit.. And now…. Star broke down, for the second time…. in front of her older, trusted brother “I miss you! Come back! You were the best!” she cried, and cried….and cried “you…. calmed me down on bad d- days….”

#The Falling Star;; Angst #Lets Race!;;RP Thread #HOOO ANGSTY #I love making Star sad #got no icons....shit