Jul 15
"what if i stop missing you?" this thought scares me so much, how can I lose the only way I can hold you for now. you're no longer in my hands, even time is stealing you from me, and I'm resisting, I'm resisting like a baby who's favorite toy is being stolen. How can I lose you like this? Every passing tick of the clock blurs out your name off my mind, and I hate it. I try to intentionally remember you, remind myself of the pain, STAY in pain for no reasons and all the reasons, and yet you're going away like sand off my hands. I don't know how to hold you anymore? Should I be feeling guilt for this?
