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call me solar, egg, or ten! any pronouns okay, i don't have a preference. i'm under 18, please keep that in mind. basic dni (including prxship and the like) only, i do block and choose not to interact back freely but i don't bite! this blog is primarily for posting about my uma musume self-inserts/ocs & other uma related topics, though there's a good chance i'll sprinkle in self-inserts from other medias ocassionally too. i'm a familial yume of agnes digital (🎀🚂), gold ship (📺⚓), and still in love (🎭❤️). romantic & platonic doubles OK, i may be slightly picky at times but i'm usually fairly lenient. i focus more on my inserts as characters than the yume aspect of them, but these three get brought up sometimes! will update this with info pages about my s/is when they get done, but there's some (incredibly) basic details about them under the cut :) hope to ramble as much as i feel like and meet new people too

Shell Game 🚂 Tech-savvy Conductor — She/He, IRL ver sharp-edged and yelling at literally everyone but it's in the endearing way where you can't help but treat her like some really angry little cat you want to hold and cherish. actually fairly considerate when you get to know her but it is Pretty hard to get there if you aren't her family Treasure Map 📺 Peppy Emcee-to-be — They/She, IRL ver cool & charming type from first glance but then you get to know them more and BOO! the horrors. literally the last person that should have fame at all at least in her current state they're not stable enough for any outside attention. i give her a nice ending because i'm a benevolent god Daiwa Nevada 🎭 Uma Who Cried Wolf — She/Her, IRL ver probably in a worse state than map but it just makes her a menace to society and perpetual chaos-causer. Help my trainee just did great in her debut but she made it her mission to fuck with the minds of literally every runner behind her and now i think staff is mad at me ((warning all of my inserts are based on kins i have if you see any resemblance to characters you know that's why. also i take lots of creative liberties adapting these horses since they aren't particularly known for anything except being siblings with ones already in uma))

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anyway am thinking of what big analysis i wanna do whenever i get the strength to write another one even if it's just bullet points like the grass one... perhaps fuji or currechan? or sweep. or maybe i'll 180 and read a completely new one so i can write all my first thoughts about it

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big thing i realized after i started posting here is that there's a fair chunk of people that actually do care about digitan outside of the one trait she's most known for and it makes me super giddy 🥹🥹 still a small percentage that actually talk about her compared to the larger circle of the fandom but i really do think people are starting to see her outside of the boundary of "stalker otaku himejoshi horse." i am Rather happy about this development

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reread still's career (second time reading overall) and. Yeah my feelings towards it haven't changed at all this remains the most batshit one i've read. i will go out on a limb and say it probably ranks in the most batshit careers in general but i don't know if i have enough read to solidify that. all you need to know is holy fuck

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gets crazier when you consider the start of her career in contrast to the end. "that girl's running is intimidating but i couldn't look away! i'm happy that she's finding ways to resist her other side because she's happy when she can restrain it" (definitely more unsettling than this but overall nice despite that) vs. "no matter if me and still wish to go back to when her other side was fading and she was stable for the first time in a while it's too late now. our love is crimson and we are falling into it deeper and deeper and every time she races she dyes the racetrack that beautiful color and what i should be saying to protect the both of us never comes out. i just tell her to keep running and she does because that's what love is to both of us. we're both giving and receiving and care for eachother the most we can so there's no need to stop. there is no benefit in this relationship other than that concept of love but we keep going because we love to love each other. this fate is devastating but the color of our eyes are perfectly matching and there's no one else i would rather wish to sink into the void with." Dear. Lord.

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reread still's career (second time reading overall) and. Yeah my feelings towards it haven't changed at all this remains the most batshit one i've read. i will go out on a limb and say it probably ranks in the most batshit careers in general but i don't know if i have enough read to solidify that. all you need to know is holy fuck

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hello everyone i heard you all liked the digital rant. i've been having lots of fun analyzing uma careers lately so i wanted to reread one of my favorites and just dump my thoughts without worrying about being really organized. all my thoughts on grass wonder's career (as well as her story chapters since i find those really interesting too) under cut ↓↓ her writing is so fun to pick apart i also want her to get more attention

the writing here is so fucking crazy they did such a good job with grass' conflict. her wanting to escape maruzen's shadow so bad and attempting to shatter that perception of her with all her might but then maruzen just off-handedly goes Yeah el is so cute!! She might even be more of a beast's successor than you :)) teehee. and sets grass off so bad she now needs to prove herself worthy of the title she hated like 10 minutes ago. i love her obsession with perception

^ and then she just starts to see all of her friends as obstacles so she can get to surpassing maruzen as soon as she can. like doesn't even pay attention to them when that goal is set in mind. they're so clearly upset she's not paying attention to the present moment and treating them as formidable foes and she just says well everyone's a little strange now. can't think about that too much though i must stay focused on HER

even after maruzen withdraws from the arima kinen she still unconsciously has her eyes set on surpassing her even if she knows that can never happen now. even with the people around her giving it their all she still wants more! nothing is enough! nothing is enough when the person she wanted to beat so badly isn't here! her one-track mind can't fathom her friends not enjoying racing with her anymore because well who cares about them. now that maruzen's forever out of reach nothing will ever match the imagined feeling of being faster than her

also the detail of her fighting so hard against that title that her determination becomes cowardice to be her own self. that one gets me. she was so caught up in the shadow of another she forgot about every other good thing she already had. so caught up in proving herself as someone superior she just became lesser

misc thoughts i kept as screenshots

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also re: my big ass digital ramble from earlier i remember looking at fan content after reading her career for the first time and being kinda taken aback from how little discussion there is for it especially considering that a lot of other popular characters, even ones that also have unconventional personalities, get at least a bit of serious discussion from people. you'd think the girl that gets marketed as the silly weirdo himejoshi horse would get talked about more in a fandom that's so heavily focused on yuri!!

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this is the perk of being romance repulsed to me actually like i'll see any character that gets sidelined due to ships or is only really talked about regarding ships and go like You 🫵🫵 you need someone to like you as your own self instead of paired with another person

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also re: my big ass digital ramble from earlier i remember looking at fan content after reading her career for the first time and being kinda taken aback from how little discussion there is for it especially considering that a lot of other popular characters, even ones that also have unconventional personalities, get at least a bit of serious discussion from people. you'd think the girl that gets marketed as the silly weirdo himejoshi horse would get talked about more in a fandom that's so heavily focused on yuri!!

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inspired by user sylvulpix on twt but i so rarely post on there so it goes on the barely used tumblr sideblog instead. Hi guys i've never posted on umablr before i am Normal and Sane can you tell from the paragraphs i wrote