moved to @gulfcoasttoad

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today was alot better than yesterday. i finally got a break from moving things around and i got to just relax w my dogs and gyo. i looked up a bunch of school stuff and made some spagetti. pretty productive day id say :)

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happy halloween everyone! today didnt start out so great (i got rlly sick and was on the toilet for like.. 3.5 hours while i was half asleep lmao). but! the day was saved by trick or treating w z’s little sister and cousin! it really brought back the magic of halloween for me :) and being able to share that kind of experience w z and his family again was awesome! and i got a lot of attention bc i was a rockstar, i had my guitar and my spiked armband

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I CANT BELIEVE THE CAPTAIN REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY! HE REALLY DOES CARE :) ! [gets dropped into the ocean]

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howdy yal,,, i jst worked out for like.. almost an hour then showered (w my music bc it boosts my mood) im tired but ive been really productive this week 

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im so happy im in the process of recover like..............WOW... im like.. rlly a recovery blog.. i genuinely want to go to school.. im doing YOGA... like.. wow

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for anyone who was like.. worried. my mom believed me, the session went abt as well as i couldve hoped it could

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gonna tell my mom the day after tomorrow  (the 19th at 9 am). im crazy nervous but my kitten’s getting spayed so thats been distracting me more

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i finally finished typing up what im gonna say to my mom at the session. 3 pages and almost 1500 words. nervous and excited at the same time

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proof it gets better me earlier this year: i love how my depression makes me not get out of bed  me now: i do YOGA in the morning and before bed and i regularly take meds that i think help me and practice good coping skills

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just so yall know, on the 11th i think im gonna have a therapy session w my mom and tell her abt what [redacted] did to me. im trying not to be nervous at all, but im really scared.

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It's hard to tell someone about what you've gone through. Especially when someone else that you know did it. It was -- is -- the hardest thing I had to do. I can't guarantee that they'll understand, but if they love you and care for you, they'll try to. My own brother sided with my abuser, and he continues to make that obvious on a daily basis. While some of my family is on my side. It's hard to do. I wish you luck with whatever you're dealing with xX [megelic]

Thank you i had a breakdown like last night abt this so rlly thank you for keeping me in ur thoughts

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on the negative side i hate driving and i hate [redacted] but on the good side im playing pmd:eot. i hatched and egg recently and im trying to give him some exp so he can help out in missions (bc we’re lvl 27 and hes lvl like 1..) and he knows a move called tickle! how cute is that! and his name is tapatio and hes a krabby :)

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me last year: i have an irrational fear that i was ********

me now: i was In fact ******** more that once

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LOOK AT ME BEIN PRODUCTIVE.. TAKING ANTIDEPRESSANTS...TAKING MY ADDERAL... DRINKING SMOOTHIES IN THE MORNING ... MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT..  I  G O T   T H I  S

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FP (FORCED POSITIVITY) III

- GETTING BETTER INSPIRES THE PEOPLE I LOVE TO GET BETTER

- I HAVE ALL THE BOOKS IN MY FAVORITE BOOK SERIES

- IM CONSIDERING TAKING MEDICATION FOR MY DEPRESSION

- IM WORKING ON TRYING NOT TO RELAPSE ANYMORE

- IM PRETTY DAMN GOOD LOOKING IM A SOLID 7.5

- IM NOT THE KID I USED TO BE ANYMORE AND WHO I AM NOW IS PRETTY GREAT

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FORCED POSITIVITY PARTE DOS

- I COULD EASILY RISE BACK TO THE LEVEL OF SKILL I HAD IN GUITAR TWO YEARS AGO THERE’S NOTHING STOPPING ME

- IM CURRENTLY ON A BREAK PERIOD IN MY WORKING OUT BC IM SORE BUT BREAKS ARE WHEN MUSCLE BUILDS THE MOST

- IM GONNA GET ON TESTOSTERONE SOON

- THE PEOPLE I WANNA PROTECT LOVE ME

- I DESERVE EVERYTHING GOOD THATS COMING TO ME

- Holdon post on hold bc i forgot to take my sleep meds